Wedding...

There is not much to say about the wedding perse. It was nice, I should mention that when I saw Tanya enter the church I did almost shed a tear, and that was weird... Yet she looked very touched, and she herself was struggling to not cry as she walked. So that was nice. The party was in the same place where her brother's wedding was celebrated a few months ago, with pretty much the same guests, same music group, etc... That I didn't like that much, since it felt a lot like a copy of that other wedding, and I am sure my memories will blur them both given the proper time. Still, they both seemed quite happy and that's all that matters, as far as I am concerned.

Being there I couldn't stop thinking about all the times that I have seen in US movies how male guests at a wedding are all happy because they can hook up with the girls since they all felt so moved and lonely because of the wedding. I did see a lot of pretty attractive girls at the wedding, but I couldn't care less about them to be honest. One of the girls who was there, could easily be placed into the top 5 of pretty girls I have actually seen live, of course she was with someone, but had she being alone I don't think I would have approached her anyway.

I was in a weird mood. I had the Neverwhere book all the time in my suit, and I just wanted to get lost somewhere and just read it. The couple of person's that I could have had a good time with managed to make me feel uncomfortable about being around them. Actually it was just my brother, Mariel is nice and quite fun. But he played the stupid role of someone who managed to make me feel like being there was actually disrupting their couple time. Since he had all the right to do that, as much as I didn't like the way he played it, I did my best to just walk out of there pretending not to care. Eventually I got to have a pretty good talk with Abraham, a guy with whom I hadn't talked in a loooong time, and the Teacher. The teacher is a very fun intelligent woman, she used to be my English teacher for some years, so even now I call her Teacher, and she likes that... he he he.

With Abraham I talked about philosophy, psychology and mythology, he he he... I bet whoever walked around and heard us must have thought we were the most boring guys ever, but it was actually an interesting talk. At some point it felt like a power talk, one of those in which you try and quote as many authors as you can to make your point, and make the other feel like the doesn't know his shit. Yet at the moment I realized this was going on I decided to step out and just listen, asking a couple of questions here and there. Those ego talks tend to bore me, and I didn't feel like playing that game.

The talk with the Teacher was interesting too, a bit about politics, Bush and all that. We are really afraid that the US people will vote for that guy... But oh well, there is nothing much we can do about it, so why worry?.

Anyway... Wedding aside... Why was I in a weird mood?. I wasn't particularly in a bad mood, I was just thinking a lot. Thinking tends to mess me up. I insist, I worry too much about a future that may not come... Yet I hate the idea of not doing what I can to arrive to a future in which I do want to live. Am I making any sense?.