My Jack of all Trades Issue

I have a severe Jack of all Trades issue, which means that I love doing way too many things, and I can really see my self devoting my life to any of those. Yet having to choose just mortifies me, and leaves me plain confused. I mean, really, how did Leornardo managed to do all that?... Actually I don't care about the how, I care about the freaking when!... Did he managed to invent the 30 hours day too?, we just haven't figured it out from his backwards notes?.

Just browsing through this blog you can see how I care about so many things, this couldn't even be classified as a thematic blog, since I am not thematic like that. I even have several groups of friends with which I can share each of my interests... And that again, is messed up because I end up being the "partial" guy in all those circles, you know?, like the guest appearance in several TV shows?. That's how I feel a lot of times.

Why I am thinking about this all of a sudden?, Well I am weird like that, and little things trigger bigger things in my mind. This one was because a nice friend of mine wrote me today, first time in a couple of years actually, and besides the fact that I loved hearing about her, I was proud of her too. She is terribly focused, about to start her PhD, and she seems the kind of woman who can make a difference. I admire that, a lot. And again, it got me thinking, what the freak is going on with my life?, where is it going?...

Seriously, I read a book, or watch a movie, and all of a sudden I want to devote my life to whatever topic was discussed there. And I really could, but then after a while my interest shifts a bit and then I become passionate about something else. Sometimes I think I could become some sort of college professor, working on several projects and just reading and writing about whatever... But then something else shows up, and then something else. And I value my freedom way to much as to consider being and employee the way to go... Travel, I should become host to one of those traveling around the world shows. He he he.

Anyway, I am not getting younger, and although I am only 24 I get the feeling that I should be able to focus more... Or shouldn't I?... I feel like I tend to live a lot in the future... a future that, for all I know, may not ever come.

The girl thing has me bugged up too, *sigh*.