with my CONACYT application. And well, getting something ready at work once and for all. So I will go my best to stay away from the blog... It is like a vice to me, to be honest... He he he. And I enjoy so much just writing... But I do need to focus on something else...
Sigh...
Let it all be for a greater good.
P.S. Do remind me to write about my saturday and my fare well with Wend. And how things have been going ever since... Cheers!.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
I updated the picture
on my profile. Now you can see cute Wend in there too!!!... He he he.
I figure she deserves a spot since I talk so much about her anyway... ^_^
Cheers!.
I figure she deserves a spot since I talk so much about her anyway... ^_^
Cheers!.
So, how was Friday then?...
It was pretty darn great. We both had invitations for a couple of parties. And we both decided to turn them down to just chill and take it easy, just Wend and I. Sigh...
Heh... I am sorry if I get overly sentimental or something... It's just that... Distance and all gives quite a lot of room for nostalgia... Heh. I insist though, this is a good rehearsal to see how we do, and how things would be later on, once it is my turn to depart.
So... Anyway. Friday my plan was to pick Wend up at around 6, and then go to chapultepec, chill for a while, the comic book store, etc... Yet things had to change a little for a couple of reasons. First, I had no glasses, so I was going to pick up the new ones at 6. And then, my dad's car just decided to break... Just like that. Over heating, lack of battery, you name it... It just became a spoiled brat all of a sudden!!!!... I hate it when that happens. And we were in the middle of traffic too, so it becomes scary when you just think cars are not realizing you are there stopped, and they just keep going as if to test whether or not you car is only an illusion...
... Thankfully, they all did turn around. If sometimes at the very very last minute, they still did.
So, after a lot of work there, some cooling down, water, etc. I was able to just go to Wend's place. Although it was late, we still went to Chapultepec, and walked around a bit. Got some nice candy, went to a couple of book stores, and Wend bought some nice little presents for the people she is to meet in Canada. It got dark as we were over there, and just walking around and joking was nice... We did walk a lot... He he he. To the ATM, to here and there... Etc.
At some point I brought up the topic we had discussed the previous night, while on the floor, and some ideas that made sense to me and things I was willing to do, etc. Then, not to my surprise, Wend had thought about the whole thing too and did share a lot, we talked about strategies and etc. I just loved that talk!. It felt so good to be sharing like that, while walking, and then on the car, and then outside her place... For quite a while and in a very open and willing mood. Coming up with solutions and just ideas to make the whole thing what it really is. Nothing bigger or smaller, just give it the spot it deserves... And in general, ideas about better ways to handle conflict situations between us and all. ^_^
Feels so good to be in such a relationship... Heh... Healthy!!!...
Then we took off from the car and went to her appartment. Well, before we stopped by and ordered pizza, and asked them to send it to her place. (Which is around the corner from the pizza thingie).
At her apartment we went over some Flash things. (Remember I was teaching her?). She really wanted to learn how to use Masks and all!!!... Good student, huh?... He he he.. During that, the pizza arrived.
Then we saw Memento. He he he... It was quite an experience!!!!!... I mean. He he he. We kept on pausing the movie over and over, and going over some scenes and all. And Wend just kept on asking questions!!... I was doing my best to stay in the right mood, yet she was getting worried I was getting bored of the whole situation and all. Yet she being worried made me just smile much more and... Damn. I guess it really is one of those You had to be there things. Heh.
All the while, we were eating pizza and it was yummy!!!... He he he.
Once the movie was finished, I guess we talked for a bit, joked around and... Memory gets fuzzy here... It was the last night we were to be together, yet we both were tired from the previous night and all. So what I know is that, eventually, we both just fell asleep and cuddled all through the night. I kept waking up at different times... But just to acknowledge where I was, and how great it felt to be there... Holding her... The scent of her hair... Her skin...
Sigh...
At around 6:00 am or so, I woke up and just decided to go home. At least get a couple of hours of sleep there, and get ready to pick up Wend again!!!... He he he. I know. Sounds a bit silly. But anyway, it worked...
... ARGH!!!...
Hug for Wend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
... I was meant to pick Wend up at 12:30 to go to a family thing with her. Her little cousin was getting baptized... But, that would be what happened in Saturday. And that will be written in some other post...
...
CHEERS!...
Heh... I am sorry if I get overly sentimental or something... It's just that... Distance and all gives quite a lot of room for nostalgia... Heh. I insist though, this is a good rehearsal to see how we do, and how things would be later on, once it is my turn to depart.
So... Anyway. Friday my plan was to pick Wend up at around 6, and then go to chapultepec, chill for a while, the comic book store, etc... Yet things had to change a little for a couple of reasons. First, I had no glasses, so I was going to pick up the new ones at 6. And then, my dad's car just decided to break... Just like that. Over heating, lack of battery, you name it... It just became a spoiled brat all of a sudden!!!!... I hate it when that happens. And we were in the middle of traffic too, so it becomes scary when you just think cars are not realizing you are there stopped, and they just keep going as if to test whether or not you car is only an illusion...
... Thankfully, they all did turn around. If sometimes at the very very last minute, they still did.
So, after a lot of work there, some cooling down, water, etc. I was able to just go to Wend's place. Although it was late, we still went to Chapultepec, and walked around a bit. Got some nice candy, went to a couple of book stores, and Wend bought some nice little presents for the people she is to meet in Canada. It got dark as we were over there, and just walking around and joking was nice... We did walk a lot... He he he. To the ATM, to here and there... Etc.
At some point I brought up the topic we had discussed the previous night, while on the floor, and some ideas that made sense to me and things I was willing to do, etc. Then, not to my surprise, Wend had thought about the whole thing too and did share a lot, we talked about strategies and etc. I just loved that talk!. It felt so good to be sharing like that, while walking, and then on the car, and then outside her place... For quite a while and in a very open and willing mood. Coming up with solutions and just ideas to make the whole thing what it really is. Nothing bigger or smaller, just give it the spot it deserves... And in general, ideas about better ways to handle conflict situations between us and all. ^_^
Feels so good to be in such a relationship... Heh... Healthy!!!...
Then we took off from the car and went to her appartment. Well, before we stopped by and ordered pizza, and asked them to send it to her place. (Which is around the corner from the pizza thingie).
At her apartment we went over some Flash things. (Remember I was teaching her?). She really wanted to learn how to use Masks and all!!!... Good student, huh?... He he he.. During that, the pizza arrived.
Then we saw Memento. He he he... It was quite an experience!!!!!... I mean. He he he. We kept on pausing the movie over and over, and going over some scenes and all. And Wend just kept on asking questions!!... I was doing my best to stay in the right mood, yet she was getting worried I was getting bored of the whole situation and all. Yet she being worried made me just smile much more and... Damn. I guess it really is one of those You had to be there things. Heh.
All the while, we were eating pizza and it was yummy!!!... He he he.
Once the movie was finished, I guess we talked for a bit, joked around and... Memory gets fuzzy here... It was the last night we were to be together, yet we both were tired from the previous night and all. So what I know is that, eventually, we both just fell asleep and cuddled all through the night. I kept waking up at different times... But just to acknowledge where I was, and how great it felt to be there... Holding her... The scent of her hair... Her skin...
Sigh...
At around 6:00 am or so, I woke up and just decided to go home. At least get a couple of hours of sleep there, and get ready to pick up Wend again!!!... He he he. I know. Sounds a bit silly. But anyway, it worked...
... ARGH!!!...
Hug for Wend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
... I was meant to pick Wend up at 12:30 to go to a family thing with her. Her little cousin was getting baptized... But, that would be what happened in Saturday. And that will be written in some other post...
...
CHEERS!...
Ok ok... I will really need to
break this one into several posts. At least, say... 2 or 3... I mean, this weekend was filled with events and emotions. After all, it was the good bye weekend between Wend and I. She is now in her hometown, and then she will go visit friends in Canada and all. So, we did shared a lot, talked about being away for a while, tried to talk about a couple of things we needed to let out, etc.
So, I bet you imagine that it was heavy with events, emotions and huge conversations.
Still, Thursday night is still not documented!!... He he he. And... ... That was some night. So let us start with that.
We are officially out from work at 5:30, but Hector and I took off early that day, to be able to meet the girls at the Sirloin Stockade at 4:30. It wasn't really her birthday, but Andrea wanted to celebrate it while Wend was around... He he he. I know, weird. But we all can use any pretext for a party, so it is all good I guess.
The time there was fun, I ordered the desserts buffet, and we played games, etc. Wend looked awesome in that little, yet not too little, white skirt of hers... Sigh... Sexy lady... He he he. And we all did have some fun joking and all. The messed up bit started afterwards, when we took off from the Sirloin and went back to the TEC.
A woman, that I think Andrea knows, presented a book and we attended the event. I honestly did like a lot the talks they gave. The lady presenter was boring as heck, but the actual author, and the guy that really presented the book, they both were really interesting. Anyway, after the event there was a proper Toast...
Well... ... I'd dare say that between Wend, Andrea and I, we drank almost two bottles of wine... At least one and a half, I swear!!!... O.o
No no no... I didn't really feel drunk. Wine doesn't get me like that. But Wend specially was being so silly!!!... He he he. Just thinking of her face makes me laugh... He he he.
So the proper Toast for the book, became more like a proper cheap / free way to get merry before going to the bar that night. Heh. Then, after a lot of wine and getting quite some more in several filled glasses, we took off to the bar.
He he he. I drove us there safely, really, and I saw how this guy in front of me took a turn to the right, just next to the bar, so I figured it was safe to follow him and find a parking spot... WRONG!!!... I got several nasty looks and people honking their cars... Ehem... I guess it was indeed the wrong way to catch that street.
A cop was kind enough to catch me to notify me of that, along with asking me for my license and giving me a messed up fine... Darn it... Oh well. He was doing his job, and I was doing something bad... I guess it's ok. I just hate I was the one who got caught, and not the messed up guy that I followed at the beginning. Heh.
Anyway... How were things at the bar?... CROWDED AND MESSED UP!!!... I didn't enjoy it... I love dancing and having a good time, I really really do. And I can handle a packed place. But this one was filled in an unhealthy disgusting way. There was no room to dance, you actually had to fight for it!!. Guys making place for their girls and arguing with other guys about being pushed by them, etc, etc, etc... No no no. Going to the bathroom was a messed up adventure in an endless maze of human walls... You get the picture.
If I can avoid it, I shall never go to a bar the day it's supposed to be in. You see, here in Guadalajara people knows that on Mondays you go to this place, on Tuesdays to this other one, and so on. Thursday was Bali day, and there we were... Fuck it... The last time I was there the same band played, and it still felt full, but there was plenty of room and people was actually friendly to each other and they all were having a good time... Sigh...
Anyway, the really freaky part was then a group of... Say... 4 guys started messing around with us / with me. We all were dancing in a group, me and Wend, and all the guys and gals that came with Andrea. Then this guy starts really pushing me from my back, as if making himself some place to dance... But it was getting a bit ridiculous!!!... So I just stood and took a stance. Not moving at all... So the dude turns around and starts yelling at me. I told him -Dude, I just want to dance here with my girl, respect my space- And then he started messing with me about giving me more space or whatever.
You could tell this 4 guys were drunk and just looking for trouble. At this point I took my glasses off, and turned my hand into a fist... I was honestly pissed about how the mood of the bar was in general, how packed it was and how little I was enjoying my time with Wend, so I was really up and willing to... Whatever... I was being stupid, I know. I would have been killed by those four.
The good thing is that, right next to us was a table with three guys that were quite massive. Honestly, scary massive / muscular. And I don't really think they were looking for a fight, at all, but they are the kind that are up for it if needed. So when they noticed this guys bothering me, and saw Wend getting a bit worried and all, they had no chance but to vouch for me.
Heh. I didn't even know them!!... That is good chivalry, I am telling you people!.
So well... You can somehow imagine the rest. When the bar people came and kicked out the trouble makers, they got pissed at us and the guys that helped us, some punches were thrown, etc. It wasn't nice... At all.
Eventually though, things got a bit calm. I just wanted to leave by then. But I knew the bad guys would be out there. So I waited. During this time I became friends with this other guys. They served me a drink and kept telling me to just have fun now, and put my glasses on, etc. Just cheerful and all. Then, security came and wanted to take them away too!!!... O.o
One of the bad guys was seriously injured I guess, and the police was out there and all... Darn. They were going to call me as a witness and all that crap. One of the good guys claimed he had some connection with the government, and that he would fix it... I guess he did, because after a while they all were there having fun and I didn't need to do anything else...
Of course, as soon as we could, we took of... Sigh... I'd like to say I enjoyed it and all... But honestly, I didn't. Although it was an interesting experience, I'd had rather just chilled somewhere less packed and all. I guess Andrea had a good time though, and that is all that matters... He he he. I was worried that Wend would get the wrong impression though!!... As if I was a trouble maker too or something at the bars... Sigh... She didn't... That was good.
Before getting to Wend's place, we stopped by the 7/11, and while I was showing Andrea how cool my glasses were, I managed to break them... ... ... Yes!... Break them... So I guess there were not that cool anymore...
... Heh. Fun way to finish such a weird night huh?... I got a fine, then in the middle of a fight, and at the end my glasses break... He he he.
I just laugh now, but while it all happened it wasn't that nice.
Once at Wend's I just stayed there for a little while. I had quite a deep talk with Wend, sitting in the floor next to her... Just, something that was bothering me and just the whole mood of the night placed me in a weird mood my self I guess. At the end though, it was good. And we talked about it again on Friday, now both of us calm, rested and sober... He he he. So we gave the topic it a good closure at the end, and came up with some strategies about how to work through it.
That is what matters in a cool relationship. To actually be able to discuss the little quirks all the way, and come up with strategies and solutions. You can tell a relationship is going somewhere, by judging the way the problems are solved... I am happy about the way we handle ours. :-D
... Ok well... That was a summary of Thursday... O.o
Heh... Later I hope I get the time to talk about Friday / Saturday... And maybe Sunday?...
Darn it. I love having all this things to write about!, because it means I had a pretty cool time this weekend... But then again... I don't have that much time to write!!!...
Work, work, work...
why?!?!?!?!....
Oh well... CHEERS!!!!... ^_^
So, I bet you imagine that it was heavy with events, emotions and huge conversations.
Still, Thursday night is still not documented!!... He he he. And... ... That was some night. So let us start with that.
We are officially out from work at 5:30, but Hector and I took off early that day, to be able to meet the girls at the Sirloin Stockade at 4:30. It wasn't really her birthday, but Andrea wanted to celebrate it while Wend was around... He he he. I know, weird. But we all can use any pretext for a party, so it is all good I guess.
The time there was fun, I ordered the desserts buffet, and we played games, etc. Wend looked awesome in that little, yet not too little, white skirt of hers... Sigh... Sexy lady... He he he. And we all did have some fun joking and all. The messed up bit started afterwards, when we took off from the Sirloin and went back to the TEC.
A woman, that I think Andrea knows, presented a book and we attended the event. I honestly did like a lot the talks they gave. The lady presenter was boring as heck, but the actual author, and the guy that really presented the book, they both were really interesting. Anyway, after the event there was a proper Toast...
Well... ... I'd dare say that between Wend, Andrea and I, we drank almost two bottles of wine... At least one and a half, I swear!!!... O.o
No no no... I didn't really feel drunk. Wine doesn't get me like that. But Wend specially was being so silly!!!... He he he. Just thinking of her face makes me laugh... He he he.
So the proper Toast for the book, became more like a proper cheap / free way to get merry before going to the bar that night. Heh. Then, after a lot of wine and getting quite some more in several filled glasses, we took off to the bar.
He he he. I drove us there safely, really, and I saw how this guy in front of me took a turn to the right, just next to the bar, so I figured it was safe to follow him and find a parking spot... WRONG!!!... I got several nasty looks and people honking their cars... Ehem... I guess it was indeed the wrong way to catch that street.
A cop was kind enough to catch me to notify me of that, along with asking me for my license and giving me a messed up fine... Darn it... Oh well. He was doing his job, and I was doing something bad... I guess it's ok. I just hate I was the one who got caught, and not the messed up guy that I followed at the beginning. Heh.
Anyway... How were things at the bar?... CROWDED AND MESSED UP!!!... I didn't enjoy it... I love dancing and having a good time, I really really do. And I can handle a packed place. But this one was filled in an unhealthy disgusting way. There was no room to dance, you actually had to fight for it!!. Guys making place for their girls and arguing with other guys about being pushed by them, etc, etc, etc... No no no. Going to the bathroom was a messed up adventure in an endless maze of human walls... You get the picture.
If I can avoid it, I shall never go to a bar the day it's supposed to be in. You see, here in Guadalajara people knows that on Mondays you go to this place, on Tuesdays to this other one, and so on. Thursday was Bali day, and there we were... Fuck it... The last time I was there the same band played, and it still felt full, but there was plenty of room and people was actually friendly to each other and they all were having a good time... Sigh...
Anyway, the really freaky part was then a group of... Say... 4 guys started messing around with us / with me. We all were dancing in a group, me and Wend, and all the guys and gals that came with Andrea. Then this guy starts really pushing me from my back, as if making himself some place to dance... But it was getting a bit ridiculous!!!... So I just stood and took a stance. Not moving at all... So the dude turns around and starts yelling at me. I told him -Dude, I just want to dance here with my girl, respect my space- And then he started messing with me about giving me more space or whatever.
You could tell this 4 guys were drunk and just looking for trouble. At this point I took my glasses off, and turned my hand into a fist... I was honestly pissed about how the mood of the bar was in general, how packed it was and how little I was enjoying my time with Wend, so I was really up and willing to... Whatever... I was being stupid, I know. I would have been killed by those four.
The good thing is that, right next to us was a table with three guys that were quite massive. Honestly, scary massive / muscular. And I don't really think they were looking for a fight, at all, but they are the kind that are up for it if needed. So when they noticed this guys bothering me, and saw Wend getting a bit worried and all, they had no chance but to vouch for me.
Heh. I didn't even know them!!... That is good chivalry, I am telling you people!.
So well... You can somehow imagine the rest. When the bar people came and kicked out the trouble makers, they got pissed at us and the guys that helped us, some punches were thrown, etc. It wasn't nice... At all.
Eventually though, things got a bit calm. I just wanted to leave by then. But I knew the bad guys would be out there. So I waited. During this time I became friends with this other guys. They served me a drink and kept telling me to just have fun now, and put my glasses on, etc. Just cheerful and all. Then, security came and wanted to take them away too!!!... O.o
One of the bad guys was seriously injured I guess, and the police was out there and all... Darn. They were going to call me as a witness and all that crap. One of the good guys claimed he had some connection with the government, and that he would fix it... I guess he did, because after a while they all were there having fun and I didn't need to do anything else...
Of course, as soon as we could, we took of... Sigh... I'd like to say I enjoyed it and all... But honestly, I didn't. Although it was an interesting experience, I'd had rather just chilled somewhere less packed and all. I guess Andrea had a good time though, and that is all that matters... He he he. I was worried that Wend would get the wrong impression though!!... As if I was a trouble maker too or something at the bars... Sigh... She didn't... That was good.
Before getting to Wend's place, we stopped by the 7/11, and while I was showing Andrea how cool my glasses were, I managed to break them... ... ... Yes!... Break them... So I guess there were not that cool anymore...
... Heh. Fun way to finish such a weird night huh?... I got a fine, then in the middle of a fight, and at the end my glasses break... He he he.
I just laugh now, but while it all happened it wasn't that nice.
Once at Wend's I just stayed there for a little while. I had quite a deep talk with Wend, sitting in the floor next to her... Just, something that was bothering me and just the whole mood of the night placed me in a weird mood my self I guess. At the end though, it was good. And we talked about it again on Friday, now both of us calm, rested and sober... He he he. So we gave the topic it a good closure at the end, and came up with some strategies about how to work through it.
That is what matters in a cool relationship. To actually be able to discuss the little quirks all the way, and come up with strategies and solutions. You can tell a relationship is going somewhere, by judging the way the problems are solved... I am happy about the way we handle ours. :-D
... Ok well... That was a summary of Thursday... O.o
Heh... Later I hope I get the time to talk about Friday / Saturday... And maybe Sunday?...
Darn it. I love having all this things to write about!, because it means I had a pretty cool time this weekend... But then again... I don't have that much time to write!!!...
Work, work, work...
why?!?!?!?!....
Oh well... CHEERS!!!!... ^_^
Friday, May 27, 2005
Still no glasses... this has been
the least productive day in my working life, in quite a while... And that is a lot to say... Sigh...
Around 6 I may get some glasses, to use them at least while I get proper ones...
Ok, that is it for an update.
^_^
Around 6 I may get some glasses, to use them at least while I get proper ones...
Ok, that is it for an update.
^_^
I don't have my glasses on, so
I am kind of hoping my typing skills will do the job... Because if I really really want to see what I am actually writing, I need to squint my eyes in weird ways, and I'd get a bad head ache...
Anyway... There is a lot to say... For example: how I got to lose my glasses?... Maybe I could talk about the ticket I got from some weird driving I was doing, the bar fight I was "invited" into last night, how we got somewhat drunk at the university at the presentation of a book... (A lot of wine, yes). Etc, etc, etc...
But it should be on a later post... Right now I need some coffee or something... Darn it... I hate not seeing well... :-(
Once I have glasses, I promise to write much more. ^_^
Cheers!.
Anyway... There is a lot to say... For example: how I got to lose my glasses?... Maybe I could talk about the ticket I got from some weird driving I was doing, the bar fight I was "invited" into last night, how we got somewhat drunk at the university at the presentation of a book... (A lot of wine, yes). Etc, etc, etc...
But it should be on a later post... Right now I need some coffee or something... Darn it... I hate not seeing well... :-(
Once I have glasses, I promise to write much more. ^_^
Cheers!.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
The week is already
fading away... I can't believe how fast time flies... I know, I know... It is a freaking cliche, but it really does fly when you least want it to. When you want to cling to it and you want to stretch every minute, is exactly when the minutes run away... The good thing though, is that such moments when time flies like that, are the ones that give you eternal minutes in memory land... And then, that one minute you wanted to stretch but just flew by, once in your memory becomes a wonderful little treasure... And once in there it seems so full and detailed, that you just cannot fathom it lasted for 60 seconds...
Heh... Time is funny like that. (Read momo by the way, and yes, it actually has something to do with what I am talking about).
Anyway, yesterday I saw Les Choristes with a bunch of people, and I loved the freaking movie. It is touching and moving, but not in the Hollywood fashion with is just awesome. The ending is great... Just great. I'd recommend it.
I have been working a lot too, and getting everything ready for the 2nd round of CONACYT... Little by little, things are moving. Sigh...
Times with Wend?... Good. ^_^ Poor girl is sick, and she acts like a little girl when she is like that, he he he... Hard to know exactly what to do to keep her happy during those times, but funny how she becomes the cutest thing when she is like that. He he he. At least to me!.
Cheers!.
Heh... Time is funny like that. (Read momo by the way, and yes, it actually has something to do with what I am talking about).
Anyway, yesterday I saw Les Choristes with a bunch of people, and I loved the freaking movie. It is touching and moving, but not in the Hollywood fashion with is just awesome. The ending is great... Just great. I'd recommend it.
I have been working a lot too, and getting everything ready for the 2nd round of CONACYT... Little by little, things are moving. Sigh...
Times with Wend?... Good. ^_^ Poor girl is sick, and she acts like a little girl when she is like that, he he he... Hard to know exactly what to do to keep her happy during those times, but funny how she becomes the cutest thing when she is like that. He he he. At least to me!.
Cheers!.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Not only does my tummy
look bigger, but it as well feels worse... As in, it complains a lot about the food I put in there, and again the jeans that were once falling, are feeling tight... Sigh...
I am to weak when it comes to sweets and all those things... But then again, latelly my lower back has hurt more. Which is in direct relationshop with me gaining weight...
Work out?... Maybe... But that doesn't really help to lose weight, it is good for other reasons... Health and all that. Heh...
Food... Diet?... Those are just bad and stupid...
Damn it... I am just silly ranting...
Any advice?...
Cheers.
I am to weak when it comes to sweets and all those things... But then again, latelly my lower back has hurt more. Which is in direct relationshop with me gaining weight...
Work out?... Maybe... But that doesn't really help to lose weight, it is good for other reasons... Health and all that. Heh...
Food... Diet?... Those are just bad and stupid...
Damn it... I am just silly ranting...
Any advice?...
Cheers.
America for the Americans...
... That stupid phrase I think, started the whole freaking thing... American...
-I am American... -
What does that phrase imply to you?... That you are from the United States?... As in the one between Canada and Mexico?. Or that you are an American, as in someone who lives in the continent called America?... Which could mean you are from Canada, Mexico, Chile, Colombia, Ecuador, Brazil, Peru and pretty much any other country in the continent!!!...
I live in America... Yeah well... So does people who live in Nicaragua and Costa Rica.
I remember getting in arguments all the time when I lived in the US about it... See?... In the US, not in America... In America I have lived all my life, I was born in America [to be more specific, in Mexico], and will keep on living in America although I will move to Canada... America, is a huge continent!.
Sigh...
Whatever... I guess I have to live with it. Most US people will never change that, and actually think I am wrong for saying all this.
Heh...
Anyway... Yesterday was pretty dandy with me, thanks for asking!. ^_^
Wend and I went to buy a toy for her little brother, and then to have some good dinner at chilli's. I can always, always have a blast in a toystore!!... He he he. And dinner was rather good despite the rain and all. In my city it really gets messed up when it rains!!... O.o But we managed to get us safely to the restaurant, and we managed to have a pretty fun dinner too. Good food, but the best were the smiles and laughs... Wend even had to try and shush me down a bit... He he he... Poor girl, of course the effort was futile, and besides, my laughs makes other people smile too most of the time... Right?...
Back in her place, just some nice chilling, and then some quite deep talk about us... Some issues and how they affect each other, and how they affect the relationship per se. Little tibits to out grow and work out.
Then some relaxing silliness again, and then me back at my place falling properly asleep...
Heh.
Cheers!
-I am American... -
What does that phrase imply to you?... That you are from the United States?... As in the one between Canada and Mexico?. Or that you are an American, as in someone who lives in the continent called America?... Which could mean you are from Canada, Mexico, Chile, Colombia, Ecuador, Brazil, Peru and pretty much any other country in the continent!!!...
I live in America... Yeah well... So does people who live in Nicaragua and Costa Rica.
I remember getting in arguments all the time when I lived in the US about it... See?... In the US, not in America... In America I have lived all my life, I was born in America [to be more specific, in Mexico], and will keep on living in America although I will move to Canada... America, is a huge continent!.
Sigh...
Whatever... I guess I have to live with it. Most US people will never change that, and actually think I am wrong for saying all this.
Heh...
Anyway... Yesterday was pretty dandy with me, thanks for asking!. ^_^
Wend and I went to buy a toy for her little brother, and then to have some good dinner at chilli's. I can always, always have a blast in a toystore!!... He he he. And dinner was rather good despite the rain and all. In my city it really gets messed up when it rains!!... O.o But we managed to get us safely to the restaurant, and we managed to have a pretty fun dinner too. Good food, but the best were the smiles and laughs... Wend even had to try and shush me down a bit... He he he... Poor girl, of course the effort was futile, and besides, my laughs makes other people smile too most of the time... Right?...
Back in her place, just some nice chilling, and then some quite deep talk about us... Some issues and how they affect each other, and how they affect the relationship per se. Little tibits to out grow and work out.
Then some relaxing silliness again, and then me back at my place falling properly asleep...
Heh.
Cheers!
Monday, May 23, 2005
Rosario es la onda...
Really. I was feeling rather... Weird. And the talk we just had... Sigh...
Made me remember why I really consider such an awesome friend...
Now, to put somethings into practice...
Made me remember why I really consider such an awesome friend...
Now, to put somethings into practice...
Friday, May 20, 2005
... So, before I forget
about it, the pizza thing!
It goes like this:
Imagine you had a magical kitchen, that would give you anything you wanted, whenever you wanted it. Say you want a couple of scrambled eggs for breakfast... You've go them!. Now you want spaghetti... There!. A Piña Colada?... Yup, right there too. Yummy snacks and cool cocktails?, there... Some fancy shrimp based dinner?... There!!.. Anything you can name or think of, there at the speed of your thought...
If you had such a kitchen, and then someone shows up at your door and tells you: - Hey!, I have got a slice of Pizza for you!, you want it?. You just had to put up with a lot of shit from me for a while - ... Errr... Yeah right!... Of course you send the bastard away!!...
You can have all the pizza you want!, you don't have to put up with any kind of shit for it!.
... Well... It goes a bit like that with love. The bad thing is that, usually, we end up saying -yes- to that stupid slice of pizza, and putting up with a lot of "sacrifice" because we are so hungry, and we keep looking for that satisfaction out side of ourselves. We are so needy that when someone offers just whatever, with all sorts of conditions, we jump to it willingly and with joy...
Sigh... See?. But what if you had such kitchen?. What if your self esteem and love is filled all the time because you are surrounded by all this awesome friends, family, a great sense of self love and just joy in general?... Would you just jump into a relationship blindly because you needed it so much?. Would you be willing to give yourself, heart and body, to someone who is just not right, but is right there and up for it?. Do you need company that much?...
NO!... If you had all those endless sources of love in your life, you wouldn't be willing to put up with shit!. So... Why don't we have them and learn to live happy with them?. I mean... Of course sometimes you may feel lonely, and that you want a special someone to share your time with, in a romantic fashion. But that will be in a sense of dream and hope, not in desperation and depression.
You will go for it once you really think it's right. With the right person, etc. Not just with whoever was the first to pay attention to you...
... It saddens me that I know a lot of people, mostly girls, willing to be with jerks who treat them really bad. But a lot of guys too. Guys so in need of love that they put up with pretty shitty relationships with quite bitchy girls... Why?.
Media and everything around points us to believe that a relationship has to have such drama all the time... A lot of conflict. That constant arguing is normal and even good, after all, reconciliations are fun, right?...
I could go on and on about this... I have so much in my mind about this topic. Even about how parents should raise their kids so that they don't jump to one bad relationship into another one, trying to find something that is within themselves... That way maybe your daughter will just not sleep with the first jerk because she needs so much to feel loved by a man due to an absent father, or a guy will not abuse or fear girls due to all this anger kept against a controlling mother... Etc... Etc... Etc...
All you need is love...
But... I am not a psychologist... And I don't mean to be pretentious. The pizza analogy is now here, and that was my intention... May I always keep it in mind, and may it have given you all something to think about...
Cheers. ^_^
It goes like this:
Imagine you had a magical kitchen, that would give you anything you wanted, whenever you wanted it. Say you want a couple of scrambled eggs for breakfast... You've go them!. Now you want spaghetti... There!. A Piña Colada?... Yup, right there too. Yummy snacks and cool cocktails?, there... Some fancy shrimp based dinner?... There!!.. Anything you can name or think of, there at the speed of your thought...
If you had such a kitchen, and then someone shows up at your door and tells you: - Hey!, I have got a slice of Pizza for you!, you want it?. You just had to put up with a lot of shit from me for a while - ... Errr... Yeah right!... Of course you send the bastard away!!...
You can have all the pizza you want!, you don't have to put up with any kind of shit for it!.
... Well... It goes a bit like that with love. The bad thing is that, usually, we end up saying -yes- to that stupid slice of pizza, and putting up with a lot of "sacrifice" because we are so hungry, and we keep looking for that satisfaction out side of ourselves. We are so needy that when someone offers just whatever, with all sorts of conditions, we jump to it willingly and with joy...
Sigh... See?. But what if you had such kitchen?. What if your self esteem and love is filled all the time because you are surrounded by all this awesome friends, family, a great sense of self love and just joy in general?... Would you just jump into a relationship blindly because you needed it so much?. Would you be willing to give yourself, heart and body, to someone who is just not right, but is right there and up for it?. Do you need company that much?...
NO!... If you had all those endless sources of love in your life, you wouldn't be willing to put up with shit!. So... Why don't we have them and learn to live happy with them?. I mean... Of course sometimes you may feel lonely, and that you want a special someone to share your time with, in a romantic fashion. But that will be in a sense of dream and hope, not in desperation and depression.
You will go for it once you really think it's right. With the right person, etc. Not just with whoever was the first to pay attention to you...
... It saddens me that I know a lot of people, mostly girls, willing to be with jerks who treat them really bad. But a lot of guys too. Guys so in need of love that they put up with pretty shitty relationships with quite bitchy girls... Why?.
Media and everything around points us to believe that a relationship has to have such drama all the time... A lot of conflict. That constant arguing is normal and even good, after all, reconciliations are fun, right?...
I could go on and on about this... I have so much in my mind about this topic. Even about how parents should raise their kids so that they don't jump to one bad relationship into another one, trying to find something that is within themselves... That way maybe your daughter will just not sleep with the first jerk because she needs so much to feel loved by a man due to an absent father, or a guy will not abuse or fear girls due to all this anger kept against a controlling mother... Etc... Etc... Etc...
All you need is love...
But... I am not a psychologist... And I don't mean to be pretentious. The pizza analogy is now here, and that was my intention... May I always keep it in mind, and may it have given you all something to think about...
Cheers. ^_^
Yesterday we saw Amelie, and
the movie is indeed freaking awesome. If you have not seen it, I don't know what you are waiting for. If you have seen it, you know what I mean. Her smile!!!!... He he he. The look on her face when things were going good, and even... No no no. No spoilers... I just loved her facial expressions.
Anyway, yesterday we went to the Usagi... Again, I ate a freaking lot. Every time I go there I say the same thing... But, once there... I will not order that much food ever again!, I will just be happy with one dish...Sigh...
Good times there. Victor, Mariel, Blanco, Ireri, Erik, Joey, Hector, Wend and I... A pretty decent crowd for a meal in a regular work day.
We spent the evening with Victor and Mariel at home, just watching the movie and having proper ice cream. He he he. Just plain nice day. Victor is going to Oaxaca tonight, for a couple of weeks, and he is making a huge deal about it. I think it is the first time he is gone for so long away from the family. And as well, he is going to do social work in a jungle like environment, so he is pretty sure he will be eaten by a jaguar or something... Heh. Anyway, that is why we had the meal and the evening together and all.
Now?... It's Friday!... Yay!!...
No clue regarding what is going to happen today... He he he. Tomorrow?. Two weddings!!... O.o
We will see how those go. ^_^
Cheers!!
Anyway, yesterday we went to the Usagi... Again, I ate a freaking lot. Every time I go there I say the same thing... But, once there... I will not order that much food ever again!, I will just be happy with one dish...Sigh...
Good times there. Victor, Mariel, Blanco, Ireri, Erik, Joey, Hector, Wend and I... A pretty decent crowd for a meal in a regular work day.
We spent the evening with Victor and Mariel at home, just watching the movie and having proper ice cream. He he he. Just plain nice day. Victor is going to Oaxaca tonight, for a couple of weeks, and he is making a huge deal about it. I think it is the first time he is gone for so long away from the family. And as well, he is going to do social work in a jungle like environment, so he is pretty sure he will be eaten by a jaguar or something... Heh. Anyway, that is why we had the meal and the evening together and all.
Now?... It's Friday!... Yay!!...
No clue regarding what is going to happen today... He he he. Tomorrow?. Two weddings!!... O.o
We will see how those go. ^_^
Cheers!!
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Too much food...
I ate... Tummy feels heavy... Very...
Sleepy me is... A lot... Work I want not... At all.
... Movie, see... Gotta...
Work?...
... Nah.
Sleepy me is... A lot... Work I want not... At all.
... Movie, see... Gotta...
Work?...
... Nah.
I like it rushed...
Honestly, it seems that I am one that likes livin' on the edge, and just sprinting over dead lines. When I have a lot of time to get things done, I just don't. I tend to wait for the last minute and have all that adrenaline and worries consume me as I try to achieve some goal... O.o
Not healthy I guess.
... But well, it is happening again, regarding the CONACYT thing. They had another calling and another chance to apply, and I pretty much had known for a few weeks. But now, when the time is approaching and I have only until next week to get things ready, is when I am actually starting to move and to freak out because I still lack a lot of stuff!!!... O.o
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
Breath in...
... Breath out...
Anyway. Yesterday's conference was awesome. Remind me to write about the kitchen analogy regarding love, and that pizza thing. He he he. Really, I have to keep that idea on my mind. It is pretty cool.
CHEERS!!!!!... And send those good vibes. ^_^
Not healthy I guess.
... But well, it is happening again, regarding the CONACYT thing. They had another calling and another chance to apply, and I pretty much had known for a few weeks. But now, when the time is approaching and I have only until next week to get things ready, is when I am actually starting to move and to freak out because I still lack a lot of stuff!!!... O.o
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
Breath in...
... Breath out...
Anyway. Yesterday's conference was awesome. Remind me to write about the kitchen analogy regarding love, and that pizza thing. He he he. Really, I have to keep that idea on my mind. It is pretty cool.
CHEERS!!!!!... And send those good vibes. ^_^
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Tonight I am going to
attend to this conference regarding toxic relationships. It is going to be given by Toño Aguila and his wife, Lulú Ocampo... I remember, several years ago, quite a similar conference helped me a lot to get over a relationship... I recall being there sitting, just depressed. Then this guys started talking and, little by little, everything started to make sense and I was actually feeling rather good about my self and the fact that things did not work out at the end...
Now, I am going again. This time holding hands with Wend and taking a friend of us that we believe needs to understand quite a bit of those topics. We are going, mostly for this girl. Yet, at the same time, I just know we both will learn a lot too. And probably even see if we are falling into some negative pattern here or there.
... Expect some post about that.
And well, on the other hand, the doom of the credit cards keeps on falling unto me. Now, I just couldn't resist anymore and I bought Scott McCloud's The Right Number series. I had been wanting to read those for ages, but didn't have a credit card. Well now I do, and well... Now I have them!. They are a GREAT read!. And you only have to pay 25 cents... Yes, 25 cents that's it. Actually, now that I have read them, I would have pay quite much more to be honest.
So, check them out!
He he he...
(I am soooo in my sleepy after meal mood!!).
Cheers.
Now, I am going again. This time holding hands with Wend and taking a friend of us that we believe needs to understand quite a bit of those topics. We are going, mostly for this girl. Yet, at the same time, I just know we both will learn a lot too. And probably even see if we are falling into some negative pattern here or there.
... Expect some post about that.
And well, on the other hand, the doom of the credit cards keeps on falling unto me. Now, I just couldn't resist anymore and I bought Scott McCloud's The Right Number series. I had been wanting to read those for ages, but didn't have a credit card. Well now I do, and well... Now I have them!. They are a GREAT read!. And you only have to pay 25 cents... Yes, 25 cents that's it. Actually, now that I have read them, I would have pay quite much more to be honest.
So, check them out!
He he he...
(I am soooo in my sleepy after meal mood!!).
Cheers.
I really want to see
High Fidelity. I almost can't believe I didn't buy it the other day at MixUp, it was just so freaking expensive though. About 340 pesos (30 bucks), and on amazon it costs only 14!!!... Sigh.. Has any girl around here seen it?... Err... Are there any girls reading this?... O.o
How does this movie works with gals?. I know it's hilarious for us guys, it is after all a romantic movie made for us. With insights to our inner world that just keep us with an ever going smirk as we see the movie, with the occasional fit of laughter and all... I guess it works for girls too. After all, we guys end up watching chick flicks all the time, and we even enjoy them some times as much as we hate to admit it.
Anyway, the idea hit me about wanting to watch it, because yesterday I had a pretty good time with Victor, Mariel and Wend. We just chilled and saw a movie in Wend's place. Made some pop corn, got us some cokes and just like that. Nothing really fancy, but it felt pretty good. We waited for either Ale or Andrea for quite a while. At the end none of them came but that gave us some good time to talk and share whatevers.
He he he. I like how Mariel really seems to like Wend. He he he. She is cute, like a little girl and all. And Wend was all excited about having people over her place, she cleaned her place up a lot and was all, just... Happy!. He he he. O.o
Much later, after the movie (trainspotting) , when we greeted Victor and Mariel good bye it felt pretty weird and good too. As if we were just saying bye to friends that had come over to our place. Cleaning afterwards and sharing by the kitchen about the day and all... Felt so... What is the word?... Like, so common, so normal... Yet so charming and freaking nice... All of a sudden I had a little glimpse of living in a Mad About You episode, but with me and Wend... he he he. And it was pretty nice!.
Anyway... Off to a new day...
Cheers. ^_^
How does this movie works with gals?. I know it's hilarious for us guys, it is after all a romantic movie made for us. With insights to our inner world that just keep us with an ever going smirk as we see the movie, with the occasional fit of laughter and all... I guess it works for girls too. After all, we guys end up watching chick flicks all the time, and we even enjoy them some times as much as we hate to admit it.
Anyway, the idea hit me about wanting to watch it, because yesterday I had a pretty good time with Victor, Mariel and Wend. We just chilled and saw a movie in Wend's place. Made some pop corn, got us some cokes and just like that. Nothing really fancy, but it felt pretty good. We waited for either Ale or Andrea for quite a while. At the end none of them came but that gave us some good time to talk and share whatevers.
He he he. I like how Mariel really seems to like Wend. He he he. She is cute, like a little girl and all. And Wend was all excited about having people over her place, she cleaned her place up a lot and was all, just... Happy!. He he he. O.o
Much later, after the movie (trainspotting) , when we greeted Victor and Mariel good bye it felt pretty weird and good too. As if we were just saying bye to friends that had come over to our place. Cleaning afterwards and sharing by the kitchen about the day and all... Felt so... What is the word?... Like, so common, so normal... Yet so charming and freaking nice... All of a sudden I had a little glimpse of living in a Mad About You episode, but with me and Wend... he he he. And it was pretty nice!.
Anyway... Off to a new day...
Cheers. ^_^
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
The musical baton was
passed on to me by good ol' Sergio. And since the one song I am listening to right now is kind of funny, I've decided it's a good idea to play along with the whole thing. He he he... I honestly just hope I am not helping a new form of chain whatever grow in the blog world!... O.o
Anyway... Here it goes.
Total volume of music on my computer
This will get tricky... I am not on my computer. And my work computer sucks. Anyway, here I have like... 939 Mb.
At home though, last time I looked, I had about 8 Gbs and it keeps building up. All legal of course... ehem... *clearing throat and all*
The last CD I bought
Again with the bad times... I was either Mogwai's young team. Or Maria Barracuda's... (I really liked her Cd. Juarez song a lot, had a nice beat to it... And yes, that was me justifying my self).
Why bad times?... Because both stupid CD's are lost... LOST... O.o
Song playing right now
A silly version of Baby One More Time that my friend Hector sent me. Played by a brit named travis.
Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
(Or that, at the moment, I keep playing over and over?... Heh).
1. "Vino Tinto" by Estopa
2. "Lemon Tree" by Fool's Garden
3. "Te Soñe" by Alex Syntek
4. "La Bañera" by Fernando Delgadillo
5. "Elephant's Love Meddley" by Moulin Rouge, Sound Track.
(And I have to mention "The March of the Synister Ducks"... heh).
Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
1. Victor
2. Tomas
3. Blanco
4. Luna
5. Ale
Anyway... Here it goes.
Total volume of music on my computer
This will get tricky... I am not on my computer. And my work computer sucks. Anyway, here I have like... 939 Mb.
At home though, last time I looked, I had about 8 Gbs and it keeps building up. All legal of course... ehem... *clearing throat and all*
The last CD I bought
Again with the bad times... I was either Mogwai's young team. Or Maria Barracuda's... (I really liked her Cd. Juarez song a lot, had a nice beat to it... And yes, that was me justifying my self).
Why bad times?... Because both stupid CD's are lost... LOST... O.o
Song playing right now
A silly version of Baby One More Time that my friend Hector sent me. Played by a brit named travis.
Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
(Or that, at the moment, I keep playing over and over?... Heh).
1. "Vino Tinto" by Estopa
2. "Lemon Tree" by Fool's Garden
3. "Te Soñe" by Alex Syntek
4. "La Bañera" by Fernando Delgadillo
5. "Elephant's Love Meddley" by Moulin Rouge, Sound Track.
(And I have to mention "The March of the Synister Ducks"... heh).
Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
1. Victor
2. Tomas
3. Blanco
4. Luna
5. Ale
You can only pretend
to be a kid for so long. You can hold on to childhood and childlike attitudes for so long... Eventually, life catches up. And no matter how much you try, how much you keep playing kids games and try to avoid responsibility... Life will catch up.
At one moment there you are, with concerns such as the flavor of ice cream you want to order, or the TV channel to tune (because there are 3 different good cartoons showing at the same time, really, those times existed too). Then, all of a sudden everything changes and you are choosing majors in college, a spot to live, the girl to share your time with, the place you want to work on, a country to study a masters, whether or not you really want to go. Letting go of your fears and walking on life, while holding onto those good times in which, all that mattered was the flavor of ice cream you were to order... sigh...
When I was a kid, I used to see "high school TV series" (like saved by the bell and those), and even the university ones, thinking -those guys are so freaking cool!, it will be so great when I am that old-... Well, I am older now actually, and as much as I look back with a smile on my face to those student years, I know that they never quite felt like I knew they were going to feel when I was a child...
We always worry too much through our present to actually let us enjoy it... Nevermind we. * I * always worry too much. Time turns memories into idealized versions of our lives, embellishes them and makes us just see the sweetness, even remember the bad times with nostalgia.
... The issue now is with the future, or the fact that it's uncertainty blurs my present. There used to be a time in which I always sort of knew what was going to happen. Ok I am in junior high now, next year?... High school of course. Then this and that through the semester, then college... Etc. Life was programmed and although things could really get messed up, at least you knew which was your context to be.
Now though... Now nothing is clear. All I have are a bunch of dreams, and a bunch of things to loose. People to get away from, so much to let go... For what?... Where?... Why?... Is it worth it?... I am not complaining... It is just that, sometimes, I just wish there were clearer pointers in life... As I grow up I feel that my mistakes have worst repercussions, that my decisions will affect my life in more messed up ways... And it is quite freaking scary...
Before?... Well, ok... Maybe that wasn't the flavor of ice cream I wanted after all... Big deal. But now?. It is not that easy... You cannot order for another chance in your life, you can hardly ever get back someone you love that has grown distant, you cannot easily get back to your old job because you saw the other one wasn't as fun as you thought...
Nope... You are stuck with your decisions... You have to live with the knowledge that, wherever you are, and whatever you are doing, is because of you... You have to live with all those "what if I had done this or that..." Would I be happier?...
...
F**k it... This is not healthy...
Gotta play hakuna matata on winamp or something...
... Heh...
Cheers I guess... :-)
At one moment there you are, with concerns such as the flavor of ice cream you want to order, or the TV channel to tune (because there are 3 different good cartoons showing at the same time, really, those times existed too). Then, all of a sudden everything changes and you are choosing majors in college, a spot to live, the girl to share your time with, the place you want to work on, a country to study a masters, whether or not you really want to go. Letting go of your fears and walking on life, while holding onto those good times in which, all that mattered was the flavor of ice cream you were to order... sigh...
When I was a kid, I used to see "high school TV series" (like saved by the bell and those), and even the university ones, thinking -those guys are so freaking cool!, it will be so great when I am that old-... Well, I am older now actually, and as much as I look back with a smile on my face to those student years, I know that they never quite felt like I knew they were going to feel when I was a child...
We always worry too much through our present to actually let us enjoy it... Nevermind we. * I * always worry too much. Time turns memories into idealized versions of our lives, embellishes them and makes us just see the sweetness, even remember the bad times with nostalgia.
... The issue now is with the future, or the fact that it's uncertainty blurs my present. There used to be a time in which I always sort of knew what was going to happen. Ok I am in junior high now, next year?... High school of course. Then this and that through the semester, then college... Etc. Life was programmed and although things could really get messed up, at least you knew which was your context to be.
Now though... Now nothing is clear. All I have are a bunch of dreams, and a bunch of things to loose. People to get away from, so much to let go... For what?... Where?... Why?... Is it worth it?... I am not complaining... It is just that, sometimes, I just wish there were clearer pointers in life... As I grow up I feel that my mistakes have worst repercussions, that my decisions will affect my life in more messed up ways... And it is quite freaking scary...
Before?... Well, ok... Maybe that wasn't the flavor of ice cream I wanted after all... Big deal. But now?. It is not that easy... You cannot order for another chance in your life, you can hardly ever get back someone you love that has grown distant, you cannot easily get back to your old job because you saw the other one wasn't as fun as you thought...
Nope... You are stuck with your decisions... You have to live with the knowledge that, wherever you are, and whatever you are doing, is because of you... You have to live with all those "what if I had done this or that..." Would I be happier?...
...
F**k it... This is not healthy...
Gotta play hakuna matata on winamp or something...
... Heh...
Cheers I guess... :-)
Monday, May 16, 2005
It is funny to realize that
most of the times, the one Hector Padilla that I am fighting with in the google listing is this one. Not a big time doctor, some great scientist of a celebrity... Just... A guy that killed someone in a rather... Err... Silly accident.
And I guess that makes me an egocentric pompous dude right?. Being checking up my name in there?... Well... I may be in some ways, sometimes.
He he he.
Cheers.
ps. It is scary too that, when someone does a "lookup" for me on google, as I do about some people, they may bump into the profile of a killer and well... That would give me puzzled looks.
And I guess that makes me an egocentric pompous dude right?. Being checking up my name in there?... Well... I may be in some ways, sometimes.
He he he.
Cheers.
ps. It is scary too that, when someone does a "lookup" for me on google, as I do about some people, they may bump into the profile of a killer and well... That would give me puzzled looks.
And yes, this freaking weekend
filled every single expectation I had from it. And it was, indeed, good. I am still on my should be working mood. Well, I am always supposed to be like that, but right now I actually care and worry about getting the stuff done. So again, this will be just a quick bunch of references to all the little things that happened in my life... Sigh... And well, if things turn out ok, later I will have a chance to list ideas and actually philosophize (is that even a word?) for a while.
Friday Wend had a bachelorette party, so I did my thing with friends. What seemed to be a night just sharing ideas and laughs with Tomas, ended up being a big time gathering with Blanco, Pancho, Joey, my brother, Tomas, some other guy and Ireri... O.o Heh. But it was fun and the little talks that I wanted to happen, did happen either way. We had some beers and were just silly.
I had to admit, it got weird for a while when Victor and Blanco started talking about sex and stuff... Mostly because of their shared past / present or whatever. And those botellita games they play... Heh. Etc. O.o Yup, weird for a while. Good talks with Tomas, and we even tried helping him up meeting some girls... Futile attemp if I may say. Worst strategy ever and well... We were indeed defeated at such task.
Anyway. Fun night.
Saturday?... I woke up fashionably late. Pretty much just in time to get ready and go pick up Wend. We went to have a good meal at Super Salads (great talk) and then to the market to buy stuff for a snack she wanted to bake. (Yes, I said bake). We got the stuff, and once in her place we saw a movie and all. Serendipity, pretty darn good romantic comedy if you ask me.
The snack she baked was pretty yummy, mushrooms filled with cream cheese and ham!... ^_^
We took those to the bachelors party that happened later that night. It was mix, which means guys and gals. And there were fun games and jokes. Hector Luis was there too. He he he. And we had some good geeky talks about movies that made Andrea feel like she had to see a lot of movies to catch up. He he he.
The games were quite oriented for couples, or the couple (the one about to get married). Getting your eyes covered and figuring out who is your girl by touching all their hands, or them finding their guy by touching the guys' legs, etc. He he he. Drinking games, whatever. It was fun.
Eventually I took Wend to her place, nothing much happened since we were to wake up early the next morning and all. She had left her cell phone somewhere, so it was up for me to call her and wake her up. He he he.
Sunday, at about 7:15 am I did call her, and well... She got ready, and I got ready, and we picked her up. (We as in, me my mom and my dad).
We went to San Juan de los Lagos and stayed there ALL day long. It rocked, it was pretty darn fun. While getting there my Dad drove, so Wend and I were in the back of the car just talking or whatever. Once there, we greeted the family, meet some little cousins and helped cutting out flowers and all for a little while. But then, we took off and spent the day walking around the little town, by it's streets, having ice cream, having gorditas in a very yummy street stand, and in general being silly and having a good time.
I got my self the one leather jacket I had been looking for!. It is honestly super cool, and seems the type that will be still around long gone after I am gone... Too bad it's not cold anymore, heh. But it was a pretty good deal because of that too, and well... In a couple of months I will be in a rather cold country so I guess I will end up using it after all. Heh.
Anyway... Just a nice time walking around the place, and brought back so many freaking memories. I kept telling Wend about this corner, about that place, my grandpa, what used to be here and there. Etc. (My mom kept presenting her at her nuera... That kept on sounding way too compromising and weird!... He he he. But still, another fun memory I guess).
In one little stand they had a bracelet that Wend really liked, and I liked it a lot and wanted to buy it for her. But, I wanted to make it a surprise. So I managed to escape pretending to go to the bathroom while we were eating, and I ran to the place to buy it. When we came back, she and I, it was gone and she got all sad... Heh. (All the while, it was sitting on my pocket).
At around 7 or so we returned to Guadalajara. I took Wend to her place and we tried to see Zoolander. He he he. We were both kind of tired, even for that kind of humor. Still, made me laugh a lot and Wend just couldn't believe what she was watching. He he he. (a la madre!).
Nice time with her just chilling... When I left, I asked her to close her eyes and placed the bracelet in her hand... When she opened them and saw it... Yay!. Those eyes are always like magic to me... They just... Yup... He he he he... No words.
Sigh...
And well... Now I am here, at work... ...
Darn it...
He he he. Cheers!!... ^_^
Friday Wend had a bachelorette party, so I did my thing with friends. What seemed to be a night just sharing ideas and laughs with Tomas, ended up being a big time gathering with Blanco, Pancho, Joey, my brother, Tomas, some other guy and Ireri... O.o Heh. But it was fun and the little talks that I wanted to happen, did happen either way. We had some beers and were just silly.
I had to admit, it got weird for a while when Victor and Blanco started talking about sex and stuff... Mostly because of their shared past / present or whatever. And those botellita games they play... Heh. Etc. O.o Yup, weird for a while. Good talks with Tomas, and we even tried helping him up meeting some girls... Futile attemp if I may say. Worst strategy ever and well... We were indeed defeated at such task.
Anyway. Fun night.
Saturday?... I woke up fashionably late. Pretty much just in time to get ready and go pick up Wend. We went to have a good meal at Super Salads (great talk) and then to the market to buy stuff for a snack she wanted to bake. (Yes, I said bake). We got the stuff, and once in her place we saw a movie and all. Serendipity, pretty darn good romantic comedy if you ask me.
The snack she baked was pretty yummy, mushrooms filled with cream cheese and ham!... ^_^
We took those to the bachelors party that happened later that night. It was mix, which means guys and gals. And there were fun games and jokes. Hector Luis was there too. He he he. And we had some good geeky talks about movies that made Andrea feel like she had to see a lot of movies to catch up. He he he.
The games were quite oriented for couples, or the couple (the one about to get married). Getting your eyes covered and figuring out who is your girl by touching all their hands, or them finding their guy by touching the guys' legs, etc. He he he. Drinking games, whatever. It was fun.
Eventually I took Wend to her place, nothing much happened since we were to wake up early the next morning and all. She had left her cell phone somewhere, so it was up for me to call her and wake her up. He he he.
Sunday, at about 7:15 am I did call her, and well... She got ready, and I got ready, and we picked her up. (We as in, me my mom and my dad).
We went to San Juan de los Lagos and stayed there ALL day long. It rocked, it was pretty darn fun. While getting there my Dad drove, so Wend and I were in the back of the car just talking or whatever. Once there, we greeted the family, meet some little cousins and helped cutting out flowers and all for a little while. But then, we took off and spent the day walking around the little town, by it's streets, having ice cream, having gorditas in a very yummy street stand, and in general being silly and having a good time.
I got my self the one leather jacket I had been looking for!. It is honestly super cool, and seems the type that will be still around long gone after I am gone... Too bad it's not cold anymore, heh. But it was a pretty good deal because of that too, and well... In a couple of months I will be in a rather cold country so I guess I will end up using it after all. Heh.
Anyway... Just a nice time walking around the place, and brought back so many freaking memories. I kept telling Wend about this corner, about that place, my grandpa, what used to be here and there. Etc. (My mom kept presenting her at her nuera... That kept on sounding way too compromising and weird!... He he he. But still, another fun memory I guess).
In one little stand they had a bracelet that Wend really liked, and I liked it a lot and wanted to buy it for her. But, I wanted to make it a surprise. So I managed to escape pretending to go to the bathroom while we were eating, and I ran to the place to buy it. When we came back, she and I, it was gone and she got all sad... Heh. (All the while, it was sitting on my pocket).
At around 7 or so we returned to Guadalajara. I took Wend to her place and we tried to see Zoolander. He he he. We were both kind of tired, even for that kind of humor. Still, made me laugh a lot and Wend just couldn't believe what she was watching. He he he. (a la madre!).
Nice time with her just chilling... When I left, I asked her to close her eyes and placed the bracelet in her hand... When she opened them and saw it... Yay!. Those eyes are always like magic to me... They just... Yup... He he he he... No words.
Sigh...
And well... Now I am here, at work... ...
Darn it...
He he he. Cheers!!... ^_^
Friday, May 13, 2005
Yet another week has
gone by. I can't believe the freaking semester has gone so fast. Already several months with Wend, and she is leaving soon to her home, leaving me here to get ready all my stuff to go to Canada, and when I least expect it, I will already be on a plane towards my totally new life...
It's like I almost live in denial, not really acknowledging that my life will truly change a lot in just a couple of months. I am officially getting out of my house, starting to live in a new country without most of my friends, and even leaving Wend behind... It feels like taking a step in the dark, to the void, and just... Letting go of all this awesome things I have now and just... Jumping who knows where...
... I am in a way scared.. But mostly, because it seems that I am not scared at all... That... I am depriving my self of all this feelings that, I "think" I ought to be feeling...
...
I am not making sense...
It's like I almost live in denial, not really acknowledging that my life will truly change a lot in just a couple of months. I am officially getting out of my house, starting to live in a new country without most of my friends, and even leaving Wend behind... It feels like taking a step in the dark, to the void, and just... Letting go of all this awesome things I have now and just... Jumping who knows where...
... I am in a way scared.. But mostly, because it seems that I am not scared at all... That... I am depriving my self of all this feelings that, I "think" I ought to be feeling...
...
I am not making sense...
Thursday, May 12, 2005
I am amazed at how much
weigth this guy lost for this movie (El Maquinista). I mean, he is Christian Bale, the one playing a muscular Bruce Wayne for the next Batman movie!!... O.o Honestly, my respects for him as an actor and all the preparation he went through for this role.
The movie is very good, really, and more for a trained viewer. If you enjoyed movies such as Memento then you may do ok with this one. It is of that kind. Not really that hard or tricky, but a bit too much for most people, who usually just want to go to the movies to disconnect themselves from their mind. Nope... This kind demands you to stay focused or get lost.
I went to see it with Victor and Joey, and yup, it was a nice time.
... I don't know how good though, or healthy, is that I couldn't stop thinking about Wend all the time through... Heh... It just amazes me, I was going to write that I had not felt like this in a long time... But... Thinking twice, I realize that, honestly, I had not felt like this ever... ... Weird... Beautiful and a tad unsettling...
Heh..
Cheers.
The movie is very good, really, and more for a trained viewer. If you enjoyed movies such as Memento then you may do ok with this one. It is of that kind. Not really that hard or tricky, but a bit too much for most people, who usually just want to go to the movies to disconnect themselves from their mind. Nope... This kind demands you to stay focused or get lost.
I went to see it with Victor and Joey, and yup, it was a nice time.
... I don't know how good though, or healthy, is that I couldn't stop thinking about Wend all the time through... Heh... It just amazes me, I was going to write that I had not felt like this in a long time... But... Thinking twice, I realize that, honestly, I had not felt like this ever... ... Weird... Beautiful and a tad unsettling...
Heh..
Cheers.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Vino Tinto - Estopa
Hay pistolas que descargadas se me disparan
Todos los relojes me separan
Y no me encuentro ya ni en la cama
Amapolas son los suspiros de tus escamas
Que son los tiros que dan al alma
Si quieres verme estoy en las ramas
Fíjate un objetivo distinto,
que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
Cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
Porque hoy hay olas
En este mar que tú ves en calma
Tú eres el pez que muerde mi cola
Yo soy un pájaro y tú las ramas
Si estamos a solas, tartatartamudeo y no son trolas
Yo nunca miento por la mañana,
ándate al loro a última hora
Yo no soy malo, aunque me esconda entre la maleza
A veces voy un poco del palo, tú eres mi puzzle,
Y yo soy un pieza
Pero tu cuerpo es un escándalo
Hay un demonio que siempre me dice pruébalo
Y un angelito que me dice quieto y reza
¿A quién le hago caso de los dos?
Fíjate un objetivo distinto, que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
Recapacita, no vayamos a perder la cabeza
Porque ésta es nuestra primera cita
Y yo ya llevo unas diez cervezas
No sé si me incitas o me incito yo por naturaleza
Niña lo que se da, no se quita
Y lo que te quitas, ahí se queda morena
Fíjate un objetivo distinto, que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
Cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
Todos los relojes me separan
Y no me encuentro ya ni en la cama
Amapolas son los suspiros de tus escamas
Que son los tiros que dan al alma
Si quieres verme estoy en las ramas
Fíjate un objetivo distinto,
que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
Cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
Porque hoy hay olas
En este mar que tú ves en calma
Tú eres el pez que muerde mi cola
Yo soy un pájaro y tú las ramas
Si estamos a solas, tartatartamudeo y no son trolas
Yo nunca miento por la mañana,
ándate al loro a última hora
Yo no soy malo, aunque me esconda entre la maleza
A veces voy un poco del palo, tú eres mi puzzle,
Y yo soy un pieza
Pero tu cuerpo es un escándalo
Hay un demonio que siempre me dice pruébalo
Y un angelito que me dice quieto y reza
¿A quién le hago caso de los dos?
Fíjate un objetivo distinto, que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
Recapacita, no vayamos a perder la cabeza
Porque ésta es nuestra primera cita
Y yo ya llevo unas diez cervezas
No sé si me incitas o me incito yo por naturaleza
Niña lo que se da, no se quita
Y lo que te quitas, ahí se queda morena
Fíjate un objetivo distinto, que soy como un vino tinto
Que si me tomas en frío engaño,
y con los años me hago más listo
Cariño
Tómame calentito a tu ritmo,
que soy como un vino añejo
Hace ya tiempo me ando buscando,
Y no me encuentro ni en el espejo
I will go through another
one of those work sprints for the rest of the week. (That happens when you are not working when you are supposed to, and headlines keep approaching). So... Well. Writing may decrease a bit... Darn it!. O.o
Anyway. Just for quick, maybe personal reference, I will say that yesterday's meal with mom was quite nice and fun. Wend was there two, and the three of us (victor too) got to fight over desert and all. He he he. Then we left mom at home and took off for San Juan de Dios, where Wend made quite a research about pirate distribution (selling illegal copies of movies / games / etc). She was looking all naive and foreign, even using her northern accent and all, and got quite a handful of info that now she has to sort out.
Then, we headed to her place, yet stopped by a cool dollar market before. Once in her place, nice silly fun times again. We keep having those great moments that I bet, anybody, would find silly and without a point. Later we had to go to the University because Wend had left her notebook there, and she needed it to study. While driving there was a little misunderstanding between she and I... We worked it out and at the end, it was good because it gave us the chance to talk about something.
Back in her place I was just falling asleep, so I used some awake rush that I had to drive back home.
... ...
He he he.
Talk about quick reference!... ^_^
Cheers.
[ps. By the way, she being all naive and with that accent, asking those questions and all... yup... that was sexy too]
Anyway. Just for quick, maybe personal reference, I will say that yesterday's meal with mom was quite nice and fun. Wend was there two, and the three of us (victor too) got to fight over desert and all. He he he. Then we left mom at home and took off for San Juan de Dios, where Wend made quite a research about pirate distribution (selling illegal copies of movies / games / etc). She was looking all naive and foreign, even using her northern accent and all, and got quite a handful of info that now she has to sort out.
Then, we headed to her place, yet stopped by a cool dollar market before. Once in her place, nice silly fun times again. We keep having those great moments that I bet, anybody, would find silly and without a point. Later we had to go to the University because Wend had left her notebook there, and she needed it to study. While driving there was a little misunderstanding between she and I... We worked it out and at the end, it was good because it gave us the chance to talk about something.
Back in her place I was just falling asleep, so I used some awake rush that I had to drive back home.
... ...
He he he.
Talk about quick reference!... ^_^
Cheers.
[ps. By the way, she being all naive and with that accent, asking those questions and all... yup... that was sexy too]
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Monday, May 09, 2005
I can sooo make sukiyaki
now!. ^_^
Yay!... He he he. I hope soon we get to make some bowls of it at Padilla's. With some friends and good times. It is a traditional Japanese dish, and this last Saturday I got to cook it making at least 4 huge bowls of it. The last time I had gathered with my mates from Japanese class, I kind of got the way it was made, but thanks to this other time, for sure, I know how to make it now. He he he.
It was a lot of fun being there, and I am happy that, at the end, I attended. I honestly didn't feel like it at first, but something just made me go. When I got there I noticed that, unfortunately, the place was packed. Well... Not really, but there were a lot of guys in there, and the food didn't seem like enough.
Thank God after the first bowl or so, most of those guys took off to some other meal somewhere else. That left fewer of us around, and I sooo ate till I was full. We hanged around for a while, and had us some talks, watching Japanese music videos and silly things like that.
Eventually Erik and I took off, and went to buy some stuff. (Good times Erik!!... ^_^)
Then I took Erik to his place and I decided to stop by Wend's for a few minutes. She had been studying all day long and all, so I just know that, at such times, there is nothing like good ol' ice cream!. I got two little scoops of it, and drove to her house. When she opened the door she had a tired look on her face, and she looked me with puppy eyes wanting to be hugged.
(All the while I was hiding the ice cream in my back, with both my hands in there). So all of a sudden I took the ice cream out, and again!. The look on her face, her smile and those sparkles in her eyes!... Yay!. He he he. Worth it indeed.
I hanged around her place for a little while, a little more that I had planned actually, because my tummy got evil all of a sudden, and all that freaking sukiyaki was not being nice to me. O.o
... Eventually I got to my place. There... What did I do?... Oh yes!. I played some resident evil again!. Yay!. He he he. I took a shower, changed clothes and all that stuff. I had a agreed to meet up with Wend at 9ish, so I HAD TO put the game down all of a sudden, and drive back to her place. (He he he).
SHE LOOKED PRETTY DARN GOOD!!!!... O.o
I even think it's wrong I like her so freaking much... Honestly...
Anyway... We meet up with some of Wend's friends and went to this place called Bar Barba Negra. It is a little bar / tavern. Kind of hidden between quiet street, around a place that is actually packed with bars and terribly busy at nights. Yet this one remains with it's solitude and giving you the sense of having found a special place.
Although little, and kind of hidden, it was packed!. The decoration was pretty cool, just all sorts of flags and signs all over the place. Wood on floors, walls and ceiling. Only about two waitress and a little stage in front. We got our seats and started chatting and all. Eventually Hector Luis showed up too, and so did Allan and Elisa.
The band started playing and... wow. Oh my freaking goodness... Wow... It was a band of older people. You could actually fear that one would have a heart attack all of a sudden or something. But my my!!... THEY COULD PLAY!!!... O.o Really, if you are looking for some good music, GREAT music actually, with covers of all sorts of classics (mostly in English), you really should go there. They are AWESOME... Big time. The lead singer, a woman... I bow to her. Honestly.
...
We were there for quite a while, up until about 2:30 or 3:00 am. We were waiting for the solo of the drummer, but it just wasn't coming. Wend decided to call it a night, and we took off. A few minutes afterwards, it seems, the drummer decided to make his show and play his solo. Damn bastard!. He he he. Oh well. We are coming back either way.
I didn't hang around Wend's for too long this time. Not cuddling times or anything. MY CLOTHES REEKED OF SMOKE!!!... Of course at that little closed bar, a lot of people was smoking and well... My clothes ended up paying for it. O.o
ARGH!... ME HATES IT!... And well... I couldn't be comfortable cuddling or anything like that.
Sigh... Maybe too picky?... Yup... So what?... :-P
...
Sunday?. Nice family times for a while, we all ate together and all. Good chicken salad!. I like that fresh taste. ^_^
At around 4:30 I went to Wend's. This time with the Game Cube in my back pack, and a couple of t-shirts so she could keep around her closet. (That way, the next time I reek of smoke, I can just change!. Hah!).
That evening, yesterday's, was just plain cool. Not because of anything particular, but because of how things were. We both doing our things, yet sharing. She was working on her homework, but letting me know about it now and then, and asking me for help and pointers. She would see me play Resident Evil, ask me stuff about it and even give me advice such as -shoot him in the legs!- and sexy stuff like that. He he he.
We went to buy some coke, had a nice walk. Went to church (we did some of the readings!, and the priest's sermon sucked big time, heh). We had dinner together, and kept on working for a while. At some point I just grabbed her lap top and started typing helping her with her homework. So on and so forth. It was plain nice.
... I remember her saying, at some point, something like - this feels nice, it will be very cool once we live together and I see you working on your computer, all intellectual an interesting - with an honest warm smile on her face.
sigh...
It was just fun... He he he. A lot of silly little things happened too, inside jokes and all... Those are hard to explain, and about some others I'd just... Not write about those!. He he he...
...
Today?... Well, it is the 9th, which means... WE CELEBRATE ANOTHER MONTH TOGETHER!!... Yay!!...
He he he.
Hopefully tomorrow I will have several nice things to share about how tonight went.
^_^
Cheers!.
Yay!... He he he. I hope soon we get to make some bowls of it at Padilla's. With some friends and good times. It is a traditional Japanese dish, and this last Saturday I got to cook it making at least 4 huge bowls of it. The last time I had gathered with my mates from Japanese class, I kind of got the way it was made, but thanks to this other time, for sure, I know how to make it now. He he he.
It was a lot of fun being there, and I am happy that, at the end, I attended. I honestly didn't feel like it at first, but something just made me go. When I got there I noticed that, unfortunately, the place was packed. Well... Not really, but there were a lot of guys in there, and the food didn't seem like enough.
Thank God after the first bowl or so, most of those guys took off to some other meal somewhere else. That left fewer of us around, and I sooo ate till I was full. We hanged around for a while, and had us some talks, watching Japanese music videos and silly things like that.
Eventually Erik and I took off, and went to buy some stuff. (Good times Erik!!... ^_^)
Then I took Erik to his place and I decided to stop by Wend's for a few minutes. She had been studying all day long and all, so I just know that, at such times, there is nothing like good ol' ice cream!. I got two little scoops of it, and drove to her house. When she opened the door she had a tired look on her face, and she looked me with puppy eyes wanting to be hugged.
(All the while I was hiding the ice cream in my back, with both my hands in there). So all of a sudden I took the ice cream out, and again!. The look on her face, her smile and those sparkles in her eyes!... Yay!. He he he. Worth it indeed.
I hanged around her place for a little while, a little more that I had planned actually, because my tummy got evil all of a sudden, and all that freaking sukiyaki was not being nice to me. O.o
... Eventually I got to my place. There... What did I do?... Oh yes!. I played some resident evil again!. Yay!. He he he. I took a shower, changed clothes and all that stuff. I had a agreed to meet up with Wend at 9ish, so I HAD TO put the game down all of a sudden, and drive back to her place. (He he he).
SHE LOOKED PRETTY DARN GOOD!!!!... O.o
I even think it's wrong I like her so freaking much... Honestly...
Anyway... We meet up with some of Wend's friends and went to this place called Bar Barba Negra. It is a little bar / tavern. Kind of hidden between quiet street, around a place that is actually packed with bars and terribly busy at nights. Yet this one remains with it's solitude and giving you the sense of having found a special place.
Although little, and kind of hidden, it was packed!. The decoration was pretty cool, just all sorts of flags and signs all over the place. Wood on floors, walls and ceiling. Only about two waitress and a little stage in front. We got our seats and started chatting and all. Eventually Hector Luis showed up too, and so did Allan and Elisa.
The band started playing and... wow. Oh my freaking goodness... Wow... It was a band of older people. You could actually fear that one would have a heart attack all of a sudden or something. But my my!!... THEY COULD PLAY!!!... O.o Really, if you are looking for some good music, GREAT music actually, with covers of all sorts of classics (mostly in English), you really should go there. They are AWESOME... Big time. The lead singer, a woman... I bow to her. Honestly.
...
We were there for quite a while, up until about 2:30 or 3:00 am. We were waiting for the solo of the drummer, but it just wasn't coming. Wend decided to call it a night, and we took off. A few minutes afterwards, it seems, the drummer decided to make his show and play his solo. Damn bastard!. He he he. Oh well. We are coming back either way.
I didn't hang around Wend's for too long this time. Not cuddling times or anything. MY CLOTHES REEKED OF SMOKE!!!... Of course at that little closed bar, a lot of people was smoking and well... My clothes ended up paying for it. O.o
ARGH!... ME HATES IT!... And well... I couldn't be comfortable cuddling or anything like that.
Sigh... Maybe too picky?... Yup... So what?... :-P
...
Sunday?. Nice family times for a while, we all ate together and all. Good chicken salad!. I like that fresh taste. ^_^
At around 4:30 I went to Wend's. This time with the Game Cube in my back pack, and a couple of t-shirts so she could keep around her closet. (That way, the next time I reek of smoke, I can just change!. Hah!).
That evening, yesterday's, was just plain cool. Not because of anything particular, but because of how things were. We both doing our things, yet sharing. She was working on her homework, but letting me know about it now and then, and asking me for help and pointers. She would see me play Resident Evil, ask me stuff about it and even give me advice such as -shoot him in the legs!- and sexy stuff like that. He he he.
We went to buy some coke, had a nice walk. Went to church (we did some of the readings!, and the priest's sermon sucked big time, heh). We had dinner together, and kept on working for a while. At some point I just grabbed her lap top and started typing helping her with her homework. So on and so forth. It was plain nice.
... I remember her saying, at some point, something like - this feels nice, it will be very cool once we live together and I see you working on your computer, all intellectual an interesting - with an honest warm smile on her face.
sigh...
It was just fun... He he he. A lot of silly little things happened too, inside jokes and all... Those are hard to explain, and about some others I'd just... Not write about those!. He he he...
...
Today?... Well, it is the 9th, which means... WE CELEBRATE ANOTHER MONTH TOGETHER!!... Yay!!...
He he he.
Hopefully tomorrow I will have several nice things to share about how tonight went.
^_^
Cheers!.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
In the end, there is nothing
like just getting lost in dreamland, while holding hands with the one you love. Like Kundera says it in the book I just read, "love is not manifested in the desire of laying with someone (this desire is produced in relationship with a countless amount of women), but in the desire of falling asleep next to someone (this desire is produced in relationship to one single woman)".
Anyway, Friday closed up in a good way. We went to Elisa's party and hanged in there for quite a while, just enough to have a bit of a good time and all. It was nice seeing the guys and exchanging some words and laughs with them. As well, I introduced Wend to them and it was pretty nice!.
We walked out of there a bit early though. Wend was just falling asleep, poor girl and exams, etc. So we went to her place and all of a sudden we were both sleeping and cuddling, hours flew by and I eventually realized it was time for me to go back home... It had been a while since we did that, just getting lost in our dreams, yet knowing and feeling we were there together in this waking world.
I missed it, and it is pretty darn awesome.
Right before though, while we both were still awake, we had a little nice talk about us and the way we take our relationship. Hows and whys in aspects that matter. It was nice and enlightening.
...
ps. At a point, in the party, Allan said that my second name was Platonic. It is quite a witty and accurate comment actually. He he he. Right on the spot indeed.
Anyway, Friday closed up in a good way. We went to Elisa's party and hanged in there for quite a while, just enough to have a bit of a good time and all. It was nice seeing the guys and exchanging some words and laughs with them. As well, I introduced Wend to them and it was pretty nice!.
We walked out of there a bit early though. Wend was just falling asleep, poor girl and exams, etc. So we went to her place and all of a sudden we were both sleeping and cuddling, hours flew by and I eventually realized it was time for me to go back home... It had been a while since we did that, just getting lost in our dreams, yet knowing and feeling we were there together in this waking world.
I missed it, and it is pretty darn awesome.
Right before though, while we both were still awake, we had a little nice talk about us and the way we take our relationship. Hows and whys in aspects that matter. It was nice and enlightening.
...
ps. At a point, in the party, Allan said that my second name was Platonic. It is quite a witty and accurate comment actually. He he he. Right on the spot indeed.
Friday, May 06, 2005
¿Porqué nos da sueño cuando
tenemos flojera?...
De verdad... ¿Porqué?...
Es totalmente conocido, y aceptado, que nos da sueño cuando tenemos flojera. Algo esta aburrido y la idea de dormir se convierte en una necesidad imperante. Pero, muy pocas de esas veces es porque estamos cansados, o en verdad necesitamos dormir.
¿Será que nuestro cuerpo "quiere dormir"?. O algo en nuestro subconsciente sabe que nos puede llevar a lugares más divertidos en otros planos de realidad, y para eso nos forza, poco a poco, a caer por el camino que lleva al mundo de los sueños. Negándo así un poco el aquí y ahora, y llevándonos a allás y luegos más interesantes?.
...
Sabe.
De verdad... ¿Porqué?...
Es totalmente conocido, y aceptado, que nos da sueño cuando tenemos flojera. Algo esta aburrido y la idea de dormir se convierte en una necesidad imperante. Pero, muy pocas de esas veces es porque estamos cansados, o en verdad necesitamos dormir.
¿Será que nuestro cuerpo "quiere dormir"?. O algo en nuestro subconsciente sabe que nos puede llevar a lugares más divertidos en otros planos de realidad, y para eso nos forza, poco a poco, a caer por el camino que lleva al mundo de los sueños. Negándo así un poco el aquí y ahora, y llevándonos a allás y luegos más interesantes?.
...
Sabe.
Sleeping is good, so is food...
Ahhh... What a nice meal I just had. I mean, I used to think that eating a bunch of grass was just plain stupid, but it really seems that salads have grown on me. Is it an adquired taste?. I know there was a time in which I claimed I didn't like red wine. Heh... Yup, life is funny like that.
There used to be a time too in which, believe you me or not, I ran away from girls trying to kiss me!. O.o
So far I have not figured that one out, I fear there is some very dark memory blocked somewhere around my head that may explain it. But really, for a while, I had to actually try to keep them at distance. And I am not bragging or saying that every girl wanted to make out with me, I wish!. What happens is that, for all of you non-latins, here in Mexico we greet each other with a kiss. (Only Boys-Girls and Girls-Girls... No boys-boys).
And well, all through junior high school and elementary school I suffered a lot trying to make them understand that I liked them better is they just waved. He he he. Oh well. At graduation night from junior high, all the girls cornered me against a wall and literally attacked me with kisses. O.o
Now, thinking about it, I should have soooo enjoyed that moment!!. But to be honest, I do think I suffered and didn't like it.
Anyway, it is a good thing I am waaaay over that, and kissing is all good. Heh. Ask Wend!!... ^_^
Errr... That was totally pointless, I so really didn't want to talk about all that. My point, and thus the title of the post, is that I like salads, and that I am in very good spirits, because yesterday I slept a lot. At least 10 hours!. Yay!.
I came back to my house, played some resident evil 4 and then went to bed for a while. Yeah right, that was it and I was gone. I honestly wanted to call memo or hector luis, and do something with them. But my body ordered me to give it a break, and well. Now I can feel it and enjoy it!. I am all pumped and energetic!. Not falling asleep in the office like in the past two weeks!. He he he.
Anyway, it's Friday!... And there is a party tonight!!!...
Cheers!.
There used to be a time too in which, believe you me or not, I ran away from girls trying to kiss me!. O.o
So far I have not figured that one out, I fear there is some very dark memory blocked somewhere around my head that may explain it. But really, for a while, I had to actually try to keep them at distance. And I am not bragging or saying that every girl wanted to make out with me, I wish!. What happens is that, for all of you non-latins, here in Mexico we greet each other with a kiss. (Only Boys-Girls and Girls-Girls... No boys-boys).
And well, all through junior high school and elementary school I suffered a lot trying to make them understand that I liked them better is they just waved. He he he. Oh well. At graduation night from junior high, all the girls cornered me against a wall and literally attacked me with kisses. O.o
Now, thinking about it, I should have soooo enjoyed that moment!!. But to be honest, I do think I suffered and didn't like it.
Anyway, it is a good thing I am waaaay over that, and kissing is all good. Heh. Ask Wend!!... ^_^
Errr... That was totally pointless, I so really didn't want to talk about all that. My point, and thus the title of the post, is that I like salads, and that I am in very good spirits, because yesterday I slept a lot. At least 10 hours!. Yay!.
I came back to my house, played some resident evil 4 and then went to bed for a while. Yeah right, that was it and I was gone. I honestly wanted to call memo or hector luis, and do something with them. But my body ordered me to give it a break, and well. Now I can feel it and enjoy it!. I am all pumped and energetic!. Not falling asleep in the office like in the past two weeks!. He he he.
Anyway, it's Friday!... And there is a party tonight!!!...
Cheers!.
I used, for the very first time,
my credit card the other day. Or, to be more specific, a credit card in general. I usually just keep around my debit one, and that takes care of stuff. But recently I have seen the benefits of credit cards all over the place and well... That demon finally got to me.
It feels actually rather good to just charge it and know that somewhere around your savings account your money is still there. Right?. And buying stuff with deals such as 10 bucks a month and such. Getting points, and miles when traveling. Etc.
... The thing is, I know those credit cards are the devil!. And when you least expect it you can find your self drowning in debt. So you have to be very careful around them, and managing your money and savings. They are a powerful tool, but double edged and can easily turn back against you.
And well, it seems that once you enter this world, it keeps trying to drag you in further. I got another credit card yesterday at home. Nice and cool blue American express. O.o
I can not call, and not accept it. Burn the thing down.
But... It has some sort of luring effect. It is transparent, and... and.. that is just too cool!. And... I can buy stuff without having the money!!!!... O.o
Besides it claims it has a lot of advantages regarding buying stuff online.
Errr... Darn it...
Advice?.
He he he... Cheers!.
It feels actually rather good to just charge it and know that somewhere around your savings account your money is still there. Right?. And buying stuff with deals such as 10 bucks a month and such. Getting points, and miles when traveling. Etc.
... The thing is, I know those credit cards are the devil!. And when you least expect it you can find your self drowning in debt. So you have to be very careful around them, and managing your money and savings. They are a powerful tool, but double edged and can easily turn back against you.
And well, it seems that once you enter this world, it keeps trying to drag you in further. I got another credit card yesterday at home. Nice and cool blue American express. O.o
I can not call, and not accept it. Burn the thing down.
But... It has some sort of luring effect. It is transparent, and... and.. that is just too cool!. And... I can buy stuff without having the money!!!!... O.o
Besides it claims it has a lot of advantages regarding buying stuff online.
Errr... Darn it...
Advice?.
He he he... Cheers!.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Cheers for Sergio and for
his latest post. Not for the post per se, but for what it implies. Dude, I can soooo relate to you. He he he. And I am really happy you are at such stage.
Cheers for that, indeed!. ^_^
ps. It is amazing how much a girl can turn your life upside down... All of a sudden everything is meaningless without her around, and you start making things so that she fits in the picture as much as possible... Yup. I am in love.
Cheers for that, indeed!. ^_^
ps. It is amazing how much a girl can turn your life upside down... All of a sudden everything is meaningless without her around, and you start making things so that she fits in the picture as much as possible... Yup. I am in love.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Kind of update...
I am obsessed with this little text of mine. The whole idea keeps rolling around my head, and... Well. I guess I will not be able to let go so easily. The first draft was welcomed, yet too long it seems. Blanco, I believe, said it the proper way. Although it may seem repetitive, and pointless, somehow it sais a lot and there is no other proper way I can find to say the same thing. Believe me, I have tried a lot.
Here is bit of a corrected version, and... Somehow more organized to make it easier to read. Yeah right... I was going to post it on the same post than the other one, just editing. But, for some reason, in feels right to keep both versions around, and give this one it's own space.
Anyway, Cheers!.
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Hablo de la mujer desde un
punto de vista meramente metafísico y metafórico. Desde el punto de vista platónico de esa mujer ideal que existe, por lo menos, en ese mundo de los conceptos perfectos, del cual toda realidad es un mero reflejo distorcionado. Tomando en cuenta que esa mujer ideal es tambien integral. Toda ella con todas sus facetas. Su luz, y su sombra. Lo que admiramos. Lo que nos asusta.
Y hablo, también, de la mujer desde un punto de vista que, aunque es íntimo, es más bien impersonal. Es decir, no hablo de la mía. No, está mal dicho eso de "la mía". Porque además de que no se puede nunca reclamar como propiedad a nadie en sí, es aún menos justo y probable que lo hagamos, por lo menos diciendo la verdad, refiriéndonos a una mujer.
La mujer si acaso se presta a alguién, pero siempre permanece suya (o sea, de ella y nadie más). Ella es dueña de sus sueños, de sus anhelos, de sus miedos y fantasías. Curiosamente, esos sueños, miedos, anhelos y fantasías, son dueños de ella al mismo tiempo.
De esta forma se mantiene esa dualidad tan mágica, llena de misterio y con un halo de irrealidad, pero tan aquí, lista para ser tocada... [Se usa la palabra misterio con un muy amplio sentido, incluyéndo el concepto de incomprensibles. Estoy convencido de que, la mayoría de las veces, ni ellas se comprenden a sí mismas].
Justificando y con ejemplos...
Si esto fuera página en papel, esta sería una buena nota al pie: Comprender viene del latín. Cum sería la primera parte. La segunda, deberíamos escribirla con una "h", o sea: prehender. Ese cum, o com, habla de realizar la actividad en grupo. El hombre pues, no se entiende solo, no se comprende solo, lo hace en grupo y gracias al espejo que le da, de sí mismo, la sociedad. Prehender nos habla de agarrar, de atrapar, pero de manera profunda. Hasta adentro. Hasta las entrañas y sin escapatorias. Tomarlo completamente, entenderlo en el sentido más íntimo.
Pero no es nota al pie, y apoya al argumento. Es decir: A la mujer no se le puede comprender. Punto.
Docenas de ejemplos me brincan a la mente. En verdad. Uno divertido son las maneras tan diferentes en las que nosotros, y ellas, entendemos un par de palabras. Claro caso el del significado de "Compartir Sentimientos"...
A la mujer le agrada que el hombre comparta sus sentimientos. Esto no quiere decir, para nada, que los platique!. Y de eso apenas estoy aprendiendo a darme cuenta. Platicar es verbalizar, es poner en lenguaje y por lo tanto, filtrar y procesar ideas. Platicar es racionalizar. Y eso, aunque lo hacen muy bien, no es la especialidad de la mujer. La especialidad de la mujer pues, es la de sentir.
No es adecuado ni ayuda, si un hombre trata de desmenuzar con palabras lo que esta sucediendo por el rostro triste de "su" mujer. Porque ella sabe más que eso, sabe que las palabras bastardizan y las ideas traicionan. Que el lenguaje nunca es suficiente, y por eso casi siempre, se da simplemente la libertad de sentir y nada más.
Preguntarles qué piensan, o qué pasa, es motivo de corto circuito y, la mayoría de las veces, de tragedias más grandes. Si de ellas sale, más adelante, muy seguramente tendremos la version racionalizada y verbalizada de los hechos. Pero será después. En el momento de sentir, se siente y ya.
En resumen, cuando la mujer habla de que quiere un hombre que comparta sus sentimientos, no habla de querer un hombre que platique lo que siente con ella y le pregunte a ella cómo se siente. Habla de un hombre que se permita sentir junto con ella, de un hombre que le permita a ella, pues, sentir junto con él.
Ejemplos como ese, analizables e interesantes, hay muchos. Pero no es caso platicarlos todos en este momento. Tal vez más adelante, con otras inspiraciones.
De vuelta a no decir nada
Aquí hablo pues, de la mujer como dualidad incesante. Y lo mucho que eso nos jala a ella. Y es que, en realidad, toda ella es paradoja y conflicto. Adentro, y afuera.
Fuente de deseo, carnal y espiritual. De sacío emocional. Un ser sensual y sexual, amante. Fuente de ternura, lágrimas de alegría. De amor del bueno, amor materno. La mujer dominante, la mujer dominada. La que complica, la que resuelve.Mujer fiel, y mujer coqueta. Libre y amarrada. Celosa... Confiada.
Fuente de suspiros al dormir a su lado, de infinito al ver en sus ojos, de miedo a soñar en rechazo, y de epopeyas por esperanza de correspondencia. De la mujer como fuente de risas y carcajadas, de momentos atemporales de eufória más allá de cualquier droga o licor. Pero fuente también de tristezas y de amarguras, de tragos dolorosos de una realidad con ponsoña.
La mujer que es mala. La que escupe en tu cara, recordándote a lo que saben sus besos, pero aclarándo que para ella, tu estatus es similiar a nada. Indiferente y sádica. Te usa, y aprovecha. La mujer que olvida que un hombre también llora. O que, sabiendo que lo hace, se jacta de todos aquellos que han sufrido por ella. Frívola, frígida.
La mujer con miedos. La mujer que sufre, la mujer que se niega. Que no se disfruta porque se siente pecado. La mujer que deja de serlo por amar al equivocado. La mujer esclava. La mujer que llora. La mujer cansada.
Promesa de todo. La mujer que sonríe. La mujer cuya sonrisa mata, cuya compañía se anhela. Cuya mirada tierna derrite.
Cierres que parecen nudos sueltos
... Nos dan pistas de un eterno rompecabezas, que a ellas, en general, no les importa armar. Ahí tambien, de nuevo, saben más y mejor que nosotros. Saben que vivir no está en las respuestas, sino en las preguntas. Que estar sintiendo es estar vivo, y pensar es un deseo muy controlable y secundario.
Pero que quede claro, piensan, y lo hacen por lo general mejor que nosotros. Con precisión milimétrica y matemática. Casi maquiavélica. Es solo que le dan su lugar a eso de lo racional.
Así pues, con tanto rollo y a manera de sincero borrador, hablo de la mujer que está en todas ellas. Hablo de todas ellas. Hablo de la mujer como magia y fantasía, como espejismo fuente de inspiración.
Tan lejana y tan presente. Tan ideal y tan real.
Hablo pues, de la mujer, tal cual es.
De la mujer qué quiero y que me mata. Sueños de envejecer tomado de una mano... Miedos de caminar por el mundo solitario y añorando...
De la mujer que amo, y la mujer que temo.
Por alguna razón, justificando...
... Se siente tan mal esto que esta escrito. Tan pobre. Tan chiquito. Y aún así siento la necesidad de seguir tecleando. Solo porque sé que no dije nada. No logré reflejar lo que esta en mi mente...
Lo que se siente despertar cada mañana pensando en ella... Y cada noche irse con una sonrisa al mundo de los sueños, por más que se extrañe ahí a mi lado... Ahí en mi cama.
Ese ser tan metafórico y metafísico... Tan espejismo eterno que aprieto entre mis brazos, y susurra te quiero... Llavecita mágica de cosas adentro de mí que no comprendo. Frase que sosiega y me hace sentir vivo. Olvidar lo malo, amar lo bueno.
Amar lo bueno...
... ... ... Voy a detenerme porque debo. La necesidad de escribir se ha vuelto necedad... Ya no estoy diciendo nada... Tal vez en todo este rato no lo he hecho.
Insisto, borrador sincero que la vida misma irá corrigiendo.
Here is bit of a corrected version, and... Somehow more organized to make it easier to read. Yeah right... I was going to post it on the same post than the other one, just editing. But, for some reason, in feels right to keep both versions around, and give this one it's own space.
Anyway, Cheers!.
--------------
Hablo de la mujer desde un
punto de vista meramente metafísico y metafórico. Desde el punto de vista platónico de esa mujer ideal que existe, por lo menos, en ese mundo de los conceptos perfectos, del cual toda realidad es un mero reflejo distorcionado. Tomando en cuenta que esa mujer ideal es tambien integral. Toda ella con todas sus facetas. Su luz, y su sombra. Lo que admiramos. Lo que nos asusta.
Y hablo, también, de la mujer desde un punto de vista que, aunque es íntimo, es más bien impersonal. Es decir, no hablo de la mía. No, está mal dicho eso de "la mía". Porque además de que no se puede nunca reclamar como propiedad a nadie en sí, es aún menos justo y probable que lo hagamos, por lo menos diciendo la verdad, refiriéndonos a una mujer.
La mujer si acaso se presta a alguién, pero siempre permanece suya (o sea, de ella y nadie más). Ella es dueña de sus sueños, de sus anhelos, de sus miedos y fantasías. Curiosamente, esos sueños, miedos, anhelos y fantasías, son dueños de ella al mismo tiempo.
De esta forma se mantiene esa dualidad tan mágica, llena de misterio y con un halo de irrealidad, pero tan aquí, lista para ser tocada... [Se usa la palabra misterio con un muy amplio sentido, incluyéndo el concepto de incomprensibles. Estoy convencido de que, la mayoría de las veces, ni ellas se comprenden a sí mismas].
Justificando y con ejemplos...
Si esto fuera página en papel, esta sería una buena nota al pie: Comprender viene del latín. Cum sería la primera parte. La segunda, deberíamos escribirla con una "h", o sea: prehender. Ese cum, o com, habla de realizar la actividad en grupo. El hombre pues, no se entiende solo, no se comprende solo, lo hace en grupo y gracias al espejo que le da, de sí mismo, la sociedad. Prehender nos habla de agarrar, de atrapar, pero de manera profunda. Hasta adentro. Hasta las entrañas y sin escapatorias. Tomarlo completamente, entenderlo en el sentido más íntimo.
Pero no es nota al pie, y apoya al argumento. Es decir: A la mujer no se le puede comprender. Punto.
Docenas de ejemplos me brincan a la mente. En verdad. Uno divertido son las maneras tan diferentes en las que nosotros, y ellas, entendemos un par de palabras. Claro caso el del significado de "Compartir Sentimientos"...
A la mujer le agrada que el hombre comparta sus sentimientos. Esto no quiere decir, para nada, que los platique!. Y de eso apenas estoy aprendiendo a darme cuenta. Platicar es verbalizar, es poner en lenguaje y por lo tanto, filtrar y procesar ideas. Platicar es racionalizar. Y eso, aunque lo hacen muy bien, no es la especialidad de la mujer. La especialidad de la mujer pues, es la de sentir.
No es adecuado ni ayuda, si un hombre trata de desmenuzar con palabras lo que esta sucediendo por el rostro triste de "su" mujer. Porque ella sabe más que eso, sabe que las palabras bastardizan y las ideas traicionan. Que el lenguaje nunca es suficiente, y por eso casi siempre, se da simplemente la libertad de sentir y nada más.
Preguntarles qué piensan, o qué pasa, es motivo de corto circuito y, la mayoría de las veces, de tragedias más grandes. Si de ellas sale, más adelante, muy seguramente tendremos la version racionalizada y verbalizada de los hechos. Pero será después. En el momento de sentir, se siente y ya.
En resumen, cuando la mujer habla de que quiere un hombre que comparta sus sentimientos, no habla de querer un hombre que platique lo que siente con ella y le pregunte a ella cómo se siente. Habla de un hombre que se permita sentir junto con ella, de un hombre que le permita a ella, pues, sentir junto con él.
Ejemplos como ese, analizables e interesantes, hay muchos. Pero no es caso platicarlos todos en este momento. Tal vez más adelante, con otras inspiraciones.
De vuelta a no decir nada
Aquí hablo pues, de la mujer como dualidad incesante. Y lo mucho que eso nos jala a ella. Y es que, en realidad, toda ella es paradoja y conflicto. Adentro, y afuera.
Fuente de deseo, carnal y espiritual. De sacío emocional. Un ser sensual y sexual, amante. Fuente de ternura, lágrimas de alegría. De amor del bueno, amor materno. La mujer dominante, la mujer dominada. La que complica, la que resuelve.Mujer fiel, y mujer coqueta. Libre y amarrada. Celosa... Confiada.
Fuente de suspiros al dormir a su lado, de infinito al ver en sus ojos, de miedo a soñar en rechazo, y de epopeyas por esperanza de correspondencia. De la mujer como fuente de risas y carcajadas, de momentos atemporales de eufória más allá de cualquier droga o licor. Pero fuente también de tristezas y de amarguras, de tragos dolorosos de una realidad con ponsoña.
La mujer que es mala. La que escupe en tu cara, recordándote a lo que saben sus besos, pero aclarándo que para ella, tu estatus es similiar a nada. Indiferente y sádica. Te usa, y aprovecha. La mujer que olvida que un hombre también llora. O que, sabiendo que lo hace, se jacta de todos aquellos que han sufrido por ella. Frívola, frígida.
La mujer con miedos. La mujer que sufre, la mujer que se niega. Que no se disfruta porque se siente pecado. La mujer que deja de serlo por amar al equivocado. La mujer esclava. La mujer que llora. La mujer cansada.
Promesa de todo. La mujer que sonríe. La mujer cuya sonrisa mata, cuya compañía se anhela. Cuya mirada tierna derrite.
Cierres que parecen nudos sueltos
... Nos dan pistas de un eterno rompecabezas, que a ellas, en general, no les importa armar. Ahí tambien, de nuevo, saben más y mejor que nosotros. Saben que vivir no está en las respuestas, sino en las preguntas. Que estar sintiendo es estar vivo, y pensar es un deseo muy controlable y secundario.
Pero que quede claro, piensan, y lo hacen por lo general mejor que nosotros. Con precisión milimétrica y matemática. Casi maquiavélica. Es solo que le dan su lugar a eso de lo racional.
Así pues, con tanto rollo y a manera de sincero borrador, hablo de la mujer que está en todas ellas. Hablo de todas ellas. Hablo de la mujer como magia y fantasía, como espejismo fuente de inspiración.
Tan lejana y tan presente. Tan ideal y tan real.
Hablo pues, de la mujer, tal cual es.
De la mujer qué quiero y que me mata. Sueños de envejecer tomado de una mano... Miedos de caminar por el mundo solitario y añorando...
De la mujer que amo, y la mujer que temo.
Por alguna razón, justificando...
... Se siente tan mal esto que esta escrito. Tan pobre. Tan chiquito. Y aún así siento la necesidad de seguir tecleando. Solo porque sé que no dije nada. No logré reflejar lo que esta en mi mente...
Lo que se siente despertar cada mañana pensando en ella... Y cada noche irse con una sonrisa al mundo de los sueños, por más que se extrañe ahí a mi lado... Ahí en mi cama.
Ese ser tan metafórico y metafísico... Tan espejismo eterno que aprieto entre mis brazos, y susurra te quiero... Llavecita mágica de cosas adentro de mí que no comprendo. Frase que sosiega y me hace sentir vivo. Olvidar lo malo, amar lo bueno.
Amar lo bueno...
... ... ... Voy a detenerme porque debo. La necesidad de escribir se ha vuelto necedad... Ya no estoy diciendo nada... Tal vez en todo este rato no lo he hecho.
Insisto, borrador sincero que la vida misma irá corrigiendo.
I hate wearing black jeans,
and having them stained with tooth paste... O.o
Damn it. Now you can REALLY see the freaking thing smeared in there, and it's magical in such a way that, even if I pour some water on it and try to clean it, most likely, it will just spread...
sigh...
Whatever.
I am about to be done with Milan Kudera's Unbearable Lightness of Being. And I am still amazed, and cannot stop smiling, by the way the author treats the story. His characters, and all the topics he discusses due to them, or with them as a pretext. Now I want a lot of my friends to read it too, so that I can discuss it with them. Even Wend!. He he he. Poor girl though, finals week!. O.o
But then, vacations for her and I will be an envious boyfriend... Heh... :-P Not really, but kind of.
... Still figuring stuff out regarding Canada. Money, money, money... It is always an issue of money.
Darn it.
Yesterday?. A pretty good day. Wend and I ended up having dinner together and just, again, being silly and joyful for a while. Ate too much again. Gotta stop doing that in dinner time if I don't want to get fat, again. Heh.
... I saw Tomas, just for a little while... Made me nostalgic and melancholic... That look in his eyes. (Dude, you know I am sending you, always, good vibes... Keep up that smile). The end less battle he lives in. I just hope he finds a sanctuary soon, to put his heart at ease, and his smile back in it's place.
Cheers to thee all... Sorry for the rambly post.
Damn it. Now you can REALLY see the freaking thing smeared in there, and it's magical in such a way that, even if I pour some water on it and try to clean it, most likely, it will just spread...
sigh...
Whatever.
I am about to be done with Milan Kudera's Unbearable Lightness of Being. And I am still amazed, and cannot stop smiling, by the way the author treats the story. His characters, and all the topics he discusses due to them, or with them as a pretext. Now I want a lot of my friends to read it too, so that I can discuss it with them. Even Wend!. He he he. Poor girl though, finals week!. O.o
But then, vacations for her and I will be an envious boyfriend... Heh... :-P Not really, but kind of.
... Still figuring stuff out regarding Canada. Money, money, money... It is always an issue of money.
Darn it.
Yesterday?. A pretty good day. Wend and I ended up having dinner together and just, again, being silly and joyful for a while. Ate too much again. Gotta stop doing that in dinner time if I don't want to get fat, again. Heh.
... I saw Tomas, just for a little while... Made me nostalgic and melancholic... That look in his eyes. (Dude, you know I am sending you, always, good vibes... Keep up that smile). The end less battle he lives in. I just hope he finds a sanctuary soon, to put his heart at ease, and his smile back in it's place.
Cheers to thee all... Sorry for the rambly post.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
To have a nice looking
photographer girlfriend is just plain sexy. She taking those films with such passion, developing them in a dark room, the smell of those liquids and all around her hands. The way she looks at the little pictures, how she takes care of the film. How pissed she looks when a picture comes out dirty, and the smile when it's all good. Yup... That is just hot.
...
And this quote from Kundera is quite cool:
"Ahí donde habla el corazón es de mala educación que la razón lo contradiga. En el reino del kitsch impera la dictadura del corazón".
Cheers. :-)
...
And this quote from Kundera is quite cool:
"Ahí donde habla el corazón es de mala educación que la razón lo contradiga. En el reino del kitsch impera la dictadura del corazón".
Cheers. :-)
Some links regarging Csikszentmihalyi
A good interview, a pdf with some of his ideas and background, and another interview.
Cheers and enjoy!.
go with the flow.
Cheers and enjoy!.
go with the flow.
I want a full relaxing day, just
doing really nothing but sleeping, watching movies and having ice cream. Maybe pop corn too. Probably just wearing my PJ's and, if possible, with Wend around. But right about now, that is what sounds freaking perfect!.
Anyway, things are going smooth. Today was the last class Erik and I gave to the highschoolers about video game programming. It was a nice introduction to that whole world, and it was even pretty darn good for us, because we agreed on giving that workshop, without really knowing how to do any of the stuff. He he he. So, as usual, we just had to learn it all real fast so we could teach it.
Indeed, one of the best ways to learn, and keep on getting better at stuff, is by teaching it. I guess that is why I totally want to be a teacher one of this days. Most likely not full time, but at least having a couple of classes. Besides, it really is rewarding to the smiles on their faces as they are something cool, and they honest well hearted thank you by the end of the class.
Yesterday was pretty nice, the whole cultural thingie was started in the university, and they showed some film shorts, the photo expo, all sorts of dancing, painting, sculpture and you name it. It was fun. I so felt like dancing. I miss those classes!. Really!.
There were several fun things that happened there, like when freaking Hector Luis scared the hell out of my in our office, and Wend was there as his accomplice and witness of the crime. I yelled so much!. And those of you who know me know, I can yell!. O.o
Oh well... Besides that, a little bit of dancing, throwing Wend in the grass and tickling her, and silly things like that kept on going on... ^_^
And well, after all that we (Hector, Victor, Wend and I) went to have some tacos and it was all good. Oh yes it was!. He he he. And all the while we kept telling dirty jokes and such things just making Wend blush and having her trying to control her smiles and laughs... She is so cute!!!... He he he.
Now, to work... Let's see if I can get this little thing done.
CHEERS!.
ps. I have been reading a little about this guy's work. His name is Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi and I honestly thing you should read about him too.
Anyway, things are going smooth. Today was the last class Erik and I gave to the highschoolers about video game programming. It was a nice introduction to that whole world, and it was even pretty darn good for us, because we agreed on giving that workshop, without really knowing how to do any of the stuff. He he he. So, as usual, we just had to learn it all real fast so we could teach it.
Indeed, one of the best ways to learn, and keep on getting better at stuff, is by teaching it. I guess that is why I totally want to be a teacher one of this days. Most likely not full time, but at least having a couple of classes. Besides, it really is rewarding to the smiles on their faces as they are something cool, and they honest well hearted thank you by the end of the class.
Yesterday was pretty nice, the whole cultural thingie was started in the university, and they showed some film shorts, the photo expo, all sorts of dancing, painting, sculpture and you name it. It was fun. I so felt like dancing. I miss those classes!. Really!.
There were several fun things that happened there, like when freaking Hector Luis scared the hell out of my in our office, and Wend was there as his accomplice and witness of the crime. I yelled so much!. And those of you who know me know, I can yell!. O.o
Oh well... Besides that, a little bit of dancing, throwing Wend in the grass and tickling her, and silly things like that kept on going on... ^_^
And well, after all that we (Hector, Victor, Wend and I) went to have some tacos and it was all good. Oh yes it was!. He he he. And all the while we kept telling dirty jokes and such things just making Wend blush and having her trying to control her smiles and laughs... She is so cute!!!... He he he.
Now, to work... Let's see if I can get this little thing done.
CHEERS!.
ps. I have been reading a little about this guy's work. His name is Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi and I honestly thing you should read about him too.
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