Today I found my self giggling like a highschool girl in the evening. I do love it when, sometimes, I post some interesting link in the overcaffeinated site and Sergio finds it amusing enough to publish in on the news/odd links area that he has, which, although I love his reading, is pretty much the reason why I check that site almost everyday!. (after all he publishes some new post every week or so).
Anyway, imagine my joy when I saw that none other than Neil Gaiman himself published a little post that I sent him along this odd link that my good friend Erik found. I mean, it´s the silliest thing ever, but for some odd reason it made me all giggly and happy to think that not only one of my favorite authors did read me, but aswell found it amusing enough to publish it on his blog, and even write a little indeed to agree with my statement. he he he he...
Call me a simpleton, but hey, you never really need a good reason to be happy right?... any reason should be as good as any!.
Monday, August 30, 2004
jodido y radiante
o sea
resumiendo
estoy jodido
y radiante
quizá más lo primero
que lo segundo
y también
viceversa.
Great weekend, I mean, it just started good and finished that way, what else could you ask for?. More rest?, maybe.... more sleep?... maybe.... but hey!, who's complaining?
On friday night we went to this goth coffee/bar called "Les Fleurs du Mort", a band that is composed of some friends of us played there, so that was the best excuse to go ahead into the dark realm of a gothic bar. Now, that was an exageration, I was actually disapointed the first time I went over there... I guess I was expecting something darker, and I found it quite mild to be honest.
Anyway, my brother went over there with Alexia (who we will call Kuja), and Mariel, both pretty nice girls. I spent quite some time talking to Kuja and it was one of the most interesting conversations in quite a while. Kuja is a gothic girl, but she can actually stand for her beliefs, and although the thought walking paradox crossed my mind, she did conviced me that she does know why she dresses that way, and of the fact she has reasons.
It's interesting to realize that embracing the dark or being in contact with the death or morbid is just a way to embelish life, and to acknowledge the light within us all. It's hard to write all we talked about here... great talk still.
Saturday was a fun day with the guys from KoK, and at night my family and I went to have a farewell dinner with Kike, who is going away to Canada... yes, yet another goodbye.
Sunday?... the usual meeting, and a relaxed evening at Eve's house. We had so much fun though, I hadn't laugh that hard since, well, the previous meeting!. he he he he... On the way back Victor, Polo and I talked about this sexuality theory that I can't remember, it's very interesting though, so as soon as I remember the name I will mention something.
New week... yay!!!
ps. not a full post about it, but still I've got to say I saw Identity, great movie, take my word for it. And it restates the John Cusak theory, all his movies rule.
resumiendo
estoy jodido
y radiante
quizá más lo primero
que lo segundo
y también
viceversa.
Great weekend, I mean, it just started good and finished that way, what else could you ask for?. More rest?, maybe.... more sleep?... maybe.... but hey!, who's complaining?
On friday night we went to this goth coffee/bar called "Les Fleurs du Mort", a band that is composed of some friends of us played there, so that was the best excuse to go ahead into the dark realm of a gothic bar. Now, that was an exageration, I was actually disapointed the first time I went over there... I guess I was expecting something darker, and I found it quite mild to be honest.
Anyway, my brother went over there with Alexia (who we will call Kuja), and Mariel, both pretty nice girls. I spent quite some time talking to Kuja and it was one of the most interesting conversations in quite a while. Kuja is a gothic girl, but she can actually stand for her beliefs, and although the thought walking paradox crossed my mind, she did conviced me that she does know why she dresses that way, and of the fact she has reasons.
It's interesting to realize that embracing the dark or being in contact with the death or morbid is just a way to embelish life, and to acknowledge the light within us all. It's hard to write all we talked about here... great talk still.
Saturday was a fun day with the guys from KoK, and at night my family and I went to have a farewell dinner with Kike, who is going away to Canada... yes, yet another goodbye.
Sunday?... the usual meeting, and a relaxed evening at Eve's house. We had so much fun though, I hadn't laugh that hard since, well, the previous meeting!. he he he he... On the way back Victor, Polo and I talked about this sexuality theory that I can't remember, it's very interesting though, so as soon as I remember the name I will mention something.
New week... yay!!!
ps. not a full post about it, but still I've got to say I saw Identity, great movie, take my word for it. And it restates the John Cusak theory, all his movies rule.
Friday, August 27, 2004
The Mug.... tan taaan taaaaaaan
Alex left several things behind on this desk when he left. A good amount of toys, tons of empty cd cases, and plenty beyblade toys (which have proven terribly useful for boring times in the office). Another of those things that he left was a 7-11 mug, stuck in a corner of the cubicle... and it has stayed there since.
The problem, I think, is that I haven't opened the damned thing since he left, and a couple of days ago I attempted such enterprise and the thinf reek so bad that I had to put it away right then and there... I am trully afraid for my life, some alien life born is gestating in there, slowly, waiting to crawl out!.
Now no one in the office dares to get close to it to even smell it, a couple have tried without even opening it, and I swear, they have had to hold in their vomit!.
What will happen with it?... I am tempted to leave it just sitting there, closed, waiting for it's prey... for a year if it has to take that long. Then one of this days just walk away to work somewhere else (aka. Canada), and leave the monster here to destroy any sense of taste to whomever dares to open it.
He he he... that sounds like a plan.
The problem, I think, is that I haven't opened the damned thing since he left, and a couple of days ago I attempted such enterprise and the thinf reek so bad that I had to put it away right then and there... I am trully afraid for my life, some alien life born is gestating in there, slowly, waiting to crawl out!.
Now no one in the office dares to get close to it to even smell it, a couple have tried without even opening it, and I swear, they have had to hold in their vomit!.
What will happen with it?... I am tempted to leave it just sitting there, closed, waiting for it's prey... for a year if it has to take that long. Then one of this days just walk away to work somewhere else (aka. Canada), and leave the monster here to destroy any sense of taste to whomever dares to open it.
He he he... that sounds like a plan.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
I just have to share this
In some other post I have talked about Maddox's site, a good site put up by a guy who just doesn't care and spills his guts out on whatever little issue that may annoy him, and believe you me, judging by his writting this is a rather annoyable guy!. So, his site is fun, really, you'd laugh a lot as you read his stuff. You have to get in the mood though, and realize that most likely he will offend you and your kind several times... still, we need to be able to laugh at ourselves.
Anyway, the site I am talking about at the moment is Tucker Max's site, which is a recolection of the most amazing and messed up stories ever, you will laugh, a lot!. Reading this guy has literraly made me burst into fits of laugther while my co-workers look at me in disbelief and, after a while, start laughing too just for the sake of it.
** Cheers
Anyway, the site I am talking about at the moment is Tucker Max's site, which is a recolection of the most amazing and messed up stories ever, you will laugh, a lot!. Reading this guy has literraly made me burst into fits of laugther while my co-workers look at me in disbelief and, after a while, start laughing too just for the sake of it.
** Cheers
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Sleepy people
So, yesterday I went to bed at about 1:00 am give or take, I was trully exhausted by then, but still, I got to sleep about 6 hours which is quite a lot to my standards. This morning I feel exhausted, took me forever to wake up, and as I stare to the monitor I find no motivation to even pick up my hands and place them by the keyboard.
The day before, which would be yesterday by the way, was like that too. And worse, because I actually slept like 8 hours then, but the next morning I couldn't believe how tired I felt. The odd thing is that everyone in the office is like that, and my brother, who slept a lot too, had the worst eyebags that I've ever seen on him... we were all like we had been beated the night before, I wonder if something messed up is going on in some astral plane or something. (Could be right?)
I don't think I have that much to say... slow week, my mind is starting to work it's best to find ways to step our of the cycle.
** cheers
The day before, which would be yesterday by the way, was like that too. And worse, because I actually slept like 8 hours then, but the next morning I couldn't believe how tired I felt. The odd thing is that everyone in the office is like that, and my brother, who slept a lot too, had the worst eyebags that I've ever seen on him... we were all like we had been beated the night before, I wonder if something messed up is going on in some astral plane or something. (Could be right?)
I don't think I have that much to say... slow week, my mind is starting to work it's best to find ways to step our of the cycle.
** cheers
Monday, August 23, 2004
Yet another week...
I come back to my desk and my computer screen is filled with "take care" post-its from Pau, her now empty cublicle still feels weird. I mean, it's an empty vessel now, but it still belongs to her, right?
It was a very weird weekend. I went out both friday and saturday night, and although I laughed a lot, it didn't feel as right. In both places I had fun because of my friends, but I felt very out of place. With tons of girls who all looked alike, and guys that seemed to care about nothing but mating with one of those serial produced britney clones. Am I too demanding in terms of a relationship?.
I saw runaway jury by the way. Great movie.
On saturday I was feeling quite nostalgic and wanted to see Lost in Translation again, I started watching it, but there were so many interruptions!. At a point it was almost as if life was laughing at me. I mean, I wanted a distraction, but here you have me giving milk to a little kitten, while taking care that the older one didn't kill him self by figthing the new dod, and while keeping the new dog from killing him self by jumping off my window!.
Sunday, the usual karaokulta meeting... nice talk with the guys. And the day ended... just like that. I needed to have some interaction with people so I logged into msn and stayed there till almost 12pm. Talked to a lot of people... it was good.
Weird ins't it?... needed human interaction so I logged into msn?. he he he.
Anyway, let's see what this week brings, and let's hope it's all good.
It was a very weird weekend. I went out both friday and saturday night, and although I laughed a lot, it didn't feel as right. In both places I had fun because of my friends, but I felt very out of place. With tons of girls who all looked alike, and guys that seemed to care about nothing but mating with one of those serial produced britney clones. Am I too demanding in terms of a relationship?.
I saw runaway jury by the way. Great movie.
On saturday I was feeling quite nostalgic and wanted to see Lost in Translation again, I started watching it, but there were so many interruptions!. At a point it was almost as if life was laughing at me. I mean, I wanted a distraction, but here you have me giving milk to a little kitten, while taking care that the older one didn't kill him self by figthing the new dod, and while keeping the new dog from killing him self by jumping off my window!.
Sunday, the usual karaokulta meeting... nice talk with the guys. And the day ended... just like that. I needed to have some interaction with people so I logged into msn and stayed there till almost 12pm. Talked to a lot of people... it was good.
Weird ins't it?... needed human interaction so I logged into msn?. he he he.
Anyway, let's see what this week brings, and let's hope it's all good.
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Just like honey...
Lost in Translation
The Jesus & Mary Chain
Just Like Honey
Listen to the girl
As she takes on half the world
Moving up and so alive
In her honey dripping beehive
Beehive
It's good, so good, it's so good
So good
Walking back to you
Is the hardest thing that
I can do
That I can do for you
For you
I'll be your plastic toy
I'll be your plastic toy
For you
Eating up the scum
Is the hardest thing for
Me to do
Just like honey (x 17)
The Jesus & Mary Chain
Just Like Honey
Listen to the girl
As she takes on half the world
Moving up and so alive
In her honey dripping beehive
Beehive
It's good, so good, it's so good
So good
Walking back to you
Is the hardest thing that
I can do
That I can do for you
For you
I'll be your plastic toy
I'll be your plastic toy
For you
Eating up the scum
Is the hardest thing for
Me to do
Just like honey (x 17)
&%$")& mood...
I am in a weird mood... cannot just go ahead and jump into my bed to forget it all in dream land. It´s just a mixture of ideas and feelings... quite hard to deal with to be honest.
I just came back from a decent time with some friends, I laughed a lot and that is always great, yet at the back of my head I always kept in my mind that hug I gave to Pau just a few hours ago. She cried, I somehow didn´t. Yet we were there getting things ready for about two hours and mostly quiet, without talking about she leaving or anything... at a point she said that she was just avoiding the topic, funny, because it was right when I did have tears in my eyes. The whole ambient felt very nostalgic, and the music that started playing made me rather sad. (she was over by her cubicle and didn´t see me though).
Now, it´s weird to be honest... I´ve only known her for a few months, but since we started talking and all we clicked, and I could say she became one of my best friends. While writting it, it almost sounds silly, but somehow I believe some people can relate... maybe memo?.
Anyway, I am terribly happy for her, she is going away, to study, but mostly, to find her self and what she wants out of her life. And by now I should start realizing that some of my best friends will come to live all over the world. I do think that Daniel is one of my best friends, for real, and the fact that he is in Canada does of course sucks because he is so far away. But then again, even if we just meet twice a year it´s great when it happens, and thankfully now a days we have emails and instant messengers.
I was talking to Victor about it all, (indeed my brother and I do other things than having blog-fights), and then I said that I was sad but in a selfish way. Then he said that all sadness is selfish... just like that, almost like an empty comment thrown into the air, yet it did hit me real hard. I do think so too, all sadness is selfish. Even if you say something about "feeling sad because a homeless has no place to sleep" is selfish, because what is happening then is that it makes you sad that the person has no place to sleep, it´s all about your feelings after all. (That´s where the buddhist compassion comes in to substitute that sadness/pitiness).
Saying bye was weird and hard... it always is. And it is not actually giving a hug, and the tears, and saying "adios"... the worst part is just walking away... walking away just by your self leaving the other person to walk their way. That last scene from Lost in Translation came back to my mind... best movie ever.
So yet another friend that goes away for quite some time, and that I don´t know when I´ll get to see again. I did say I would go and have some coffee with her over in France... I´ll have to think of something to make that happen.
HAVE THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE PAU!... THANK YOU!...
** cheers....
I just came back from a decent time with some friends, I laughed a lot and that is always great, yet at the back of my head I always kept in my mind that hug I gave to Pau just a few hours ago. She cried, I somehow didn´t. Yet we were there getting things ready for about two hours and mostly quiet, without talking about she leaving or anything... at a point she said that she was just avoiding the topic, funny, because it was right when I did have tears in my eyes. The whole ambient felt very nostalgic, and the music that started playing made me rather sad. (she was over by her cubicle and didn´t see me though).
Now, it´s weird to be honest... I´ve only known her for a few months, but since we started talking and all we clicked, and I could say she became one of my best friends. While writting it, it almost sounds silly, but somehow I believe some people can relate... maybe memo?.
Anyway, I am terribly happy for her, she is going away, to study, but mostly, to find her self and what she wants out of her life. And by now I should start realizing that some of my best friends will come to live all over the world. I do think that Daniel is one of my best friends, for real, and the fact that he is in Canada does of course sucks because he is so far away. But then again, even if we just meet twice a year it´s great when it happens, and thankfully now a days we have emails and instant messengers.
I was talking to Victor about it all, (indeed my brother and I do other things than having blog-fights), and then I said that I was sad but in a selfish way. Then he said that all sadness is selfish... just like that, almost like an empty comment thrown into the air, yet it did hit me real hard. I do think so too, all sadness is selfish. Even if you say something about "feeling sad because a homeless has no place to sleep" is selfish, because what is happening then is that it makes you sad that the person has no place to sleep, it´s all about your feelings after all. (That´s where the buddhist compassion comes in to substitute that sadness/pitiness).
Saying bye was weird and hard... it always is. And it is not actually giving a hug, and the tears, and saying "adios"... the worst part is just walking away... walking away just by your self leaving the other person to walk their way. That last scene from Lost in Translation came back to my mind... best movie ever.
So yet another friend that goes away for quite some time, and that I don´t know when I´ll get to see again. I did say I would go and have some coffee with her over in France... I´ll have to think of something to make that happen.
HAVE THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE PAU!... THANK YOU!...
** cheers....
Friday, August 20, 2004
Just to make it clear...
I think my brother in his comment to my previous post went completely off the topic, maybe he even took it personal, and started defending this or that about a bunch of people, then talking about the semantics of the word "culture" - "subculture"... and after all that proposing a silly utopia where all emos, goths, and indies could have a nice talk together... I liked his comment, it was well written, and the idea is good... there, I'm in safe now.
The thing is that I wasn't against a subculture or a set of ideas, or just a bunch of people that get together because they have some stuff in common. That is fine. I even wrote "it's not that I agree completelly, but it's some idea worth exploring", which was of course a feeble attempt to let my self off the hook and just play with an idea without making people think I am all radical about it.
Victor said "To name a sub-culture, to narrow it to a few ways of being is a crime and prejudice." I completelly agree... but... was does it have to do with my post?!?!?!?!.... Ok, so, if it was about maddox's article that's fine. But me?. I was trying to talk about the social implications, and why do we do that as a generation?. Which hole are we trying to fill in with new subcultures and ideas?. Why is there so much of an identity crisis now a days?.
Then, after talking about his utopy, victor closes with "It will be hard though, we people tend to discriminate others and segregate ourselves all the time in the name of that -belonging-". That does, somehow, relate more to the topic.
I think Tyler Durden from Fight Club words it well when he sais:
Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.
That's what I was talking about in my post, at least that's what I wanted to talk about. Maybe I did it the wrong way, or sounded too harsh on the people that "try to be different" . My point though, is about the drives that we all have in our lives, and whatever makes us do this or that.
Ok then, cheers.
ps. whatever.
The thing is that I wasn't against a subculture or a set of ideas, or just a bunch of people that get together because they have some stuff in common. That is fine. I even wrote "it's not that I agree completelly, but it's some idea worth exploring", which was of course a feeble attempt to let my self off the hook and just play with an idea without making people think I am all radical about it.
Victor said "To name a sub-culture, to narrow it to a few ways of being is a crime and prejudice." I completelly agree... but... was does it have to do with my post?!?!?!?!.... Ok, so, if it was about maddox's article that's fine. But me?. I was trying to talk about the social implications, and why do we do that as a generation?. Which hole are we trying to fill in with new subcultures and ideas?. Why is there so much of an identity crisis now a days?.
Then, after talking about his utopy, victor closes with "It will be hard though, we people tend to discriminate others and segregate ourselves all the time in the name of that -belonging-". That does, somehow, relate more to the topic.
I think Tyler Durden from Fight Club words it well when he sais:
Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.
That's what I was talking about in my post, at least that's what I wanted to talk about. Maybe I did it the wrong way, or sounded too harsh on the people that "try to be different" . My point though, is about the drives that we all have in our lives, and whatever makes us do this or that.
Ok then, cheers.
ps. whatever.
Identity crisis
Yesterday a friend came up with an idea that I found very interesting, our generation is somehow substituting religion with subcultures, and our need to belong and to feel a part of something greater than us is what is making all this "emo, gothic, indie, punk, etc" sub-cultures be.
Now, it's not that I agree completelly, but it's some idea worth exploring. It comes to a point in which all this people who strive to be different end up buying their clothes in hot topic , feeling all different and alternative yet being oblivious of the fact that it's one of the largest chain stores in the USA. So their "look at me, I'm different" t-shirt is actually mass produced, and well... you see my point. Hopefully, otherwise maybe you don't deserve to be reading this, so you might aswell go ahead and read this. (this idea is sort of inspired on this strip and something I read on maddox's site).
The thing is, some young guy/gal craving for a sense of identity, all of a sudden just listens to one kind of music, starts dressing in a certain way, and loosing whatever bit of self that he/she once had. And what is even more amusing is that after just a little while they feel they have the entire right to bitch about all of the other groups because theirs is so much better. (ie. goths vs. indies, punks vs. emo's, etc).
The interesting point that my friend, Hector, stated is that all this happens because we as a generation do not have anything worth figthing for, standing for, or having faith about. For some reason all of a sudden a bunch of us felt we were too good for religions and churches, but that need that we have is still there, so we come up with new creeds, sets of values, and senses of pride. Hmmm...
The idea is eluding me... gotta go now.
** cheers
Now, it's not that I agree completelly, but it's some idea worth exploring. It comes to a point in which all this people who strive to be different end up buying their clothes in hot topic , feeling all different and alternative yet being oblivious of the fact that it's one of the largest chain stores in the USA. So their "look at me, I'm different" t-shirt is actually mass produced, and well... you see my point. Hopefully, otherwise maybe you don't deserve to be reading this, so you might aswell go ahead and read this. (this idea is sort of inspired on this strip and something I read on maddox's site).
The thing is, some young guy/gal craving for a sense of identity, all of a sudden just listens to one kind of music, starts dressing in a certain way, and loosing whatever bit of self that he/she once had. And what is even more amusing is that after just a little while they feel they have the entire right to bitch about all of the other groups because theirs is so much better. (ie. goths vs. indies, punks vs. emo's, etc).
The interesting point that my friend, Hector, stated is that all this happens because we as a generation do not have anything worth figthing for, standing for, or having faith about. For some reason all of a sudden a bunch of us felt we were too good for religions and churches, but that need that we have is still there, so we come up with new creeds, sets of values, and senses of pride. Hmmm...
The idea is eluding me... gotta go now.
** cheers
Watashi wa nihon-go no gakusei desu
It's been almost a full week since the beggining of my Japanese classes, and it's been quite fun. Since I knew some stuff, at the moment, it's just easy, but I enjoy it a lot!. And I like listening to the teacher and actually understanding what he sais. One of the funny things though, is that the class consists of only 4 students, all of us with glasses... all of us into engineering.
GEEEEEEKS...
He he he... I can't stop thinking about it when I go, he he he... and it almost makes me laugh. (almost, not quite though).
Having been up all night on monday, my body has been punishing me all through the week... and I have this annoying/funny tick in one of my eyes, where some unknown nerve all of a sudden decides to jump around... it's mostly annoying actually.
Another friend is going away soon... and for some reason this one hurts more. With Alex it was more like "hey, see you later in Canada"... it felt like that. But with her, with Pau, I get those **sigh** feelings. I am happy for her though, it's hard because I just began my frienship with her, and... I don't know, for the 1st time in quite a while I felt something very cool while talking with this girl. I have several male friends, but not really a lot of girls, and it's like a pretty nice treasure when one comes into my life.
Anyway... I bet her departure will deserve a full post one of this days....
GEEEEEEKS...
He he he... I can't stop thinking about it when I go, he he he... and it almost makes me laugh. (almost, not quite though).
Having been up all night on monday, my body has been punishing me all through the week... and I have this annoying/funny tick in one of my eyes, where some unknown nerve all of a sudden decides to jump around... it's mostly annoying actually.
Another friend is going away soon... and for some reason this one hurts more. With Alex it was more like "hey, see you later in Canada"... it felt like that. But with her, with Pau, I get those **sigh** feelings. I am happy for her though, it's hard because I just began my frienship with her, and... I don't know, for the 1st time in quite a while I felt something very cool while talking with this girl. I have several male friends, but not really a lot of girls, and it's like a pretty nice treasure when one comes into my life.
Anyway... I bet her departure will deserve a full post one of this days....
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Women...
It is such a topic to talk about women, the duality in there, all the hardness they make us go through, but at the same time, how much we crave for them. I wish I could be more assertive towards them.
Tomas is a good friend of mine, and since May he went over to the old continent to fight his demons and walk all around that place. And he did walk, I bet he lost about 20-30 pounds!, good for him. But the best thing are the stories that he has to share now. We got together yesterday and talked for hours and hours. Supposedly there were going to be more of us there, at least Erik too, but at the end it was just Tomas and I. We stayed up till about 6am... which is a lot!.
I bet Abraxas was amused by us yesterday for more than one undisclosed reason.
We pretty much talked about girls, but mostly about what he did in Europe, and it's not for me to write that here. Yet this post remains as a requiem for that good talk we had, and will be enough to "shoot back" that talk into my head whenever I read it again.
Tomas is a good friend of mine, and since May he went over to the old continent to fight his demons and walk all around that place. And he did walk, I bet he lost about 20-30 pounds!, good for him. But the best thing are the stories that he has to share now. We got together yesterday and talked for hours and hours. Supposedly there were going to be more of us there, at least Erik too, but at the end it was just Tomas and I. We stayed up till about 6am... which is a lot!.
I bet Abraxas was amused by us yesterday for more than one undisclosed reason.
We pretty much talked about girls, but mostly about what he did in Europe, and it's not for me to write that here. Yet this post remains as a requiem for that good talk we had, and will be enough to "shoot back" that talk into my head whenever I read it again.
Monday, August 16, 2004
Feels like a post...
Every time I see a movie again, I am impacted by some phrase or whatnot, this time it happened with Boondock Saints, in the part where they are in the church and the priest says something like: It´s easy to be sarcastic about religion, what is really hard is to take a stand. Or something like that.
During last week I've been reading this book by Aleister Crowley, I think I understand about 20% of that the guy actually sais, yet it's quite interesting and that 20% makes the other obscure 80% worth it. Still, it makes me think a lot about beliefs, religion, etc. I am not saying that you MUST have a religion and defend it like a fencing master, but some times I feel like I would like to find one belief system and stick with it... get deeper and deeper into it, and proudly say I am a ***ist... Is it a need to bond?... to feel like I belong?.
Anyway, the title is because, well... the idea is good, and I believe I could write a lot about it, but I won't. My mind is kind of blurry on the topic, and it's in the guts stage, where I do feel a lot of things yet I haven't chewed them enough to turn them into words... so I must leave it like this.
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This weekend was nice, yesterday was my brothers bday, and we had friends staying in the house and all.. good games, anime and movies... what else could you ask for?... a woman you say?... welll... yeah... you are right. ¬_¬
PS. If you fancy a good read, check this guy out, he does has the best page in the universe after all... right?.
During last week I've been reading this book by Aleister Crowley, I think I understand about 20% of that the guy actually sais, yet it's quite interesting and that 20% makes the other obscure 80% worth it. Still, it makes me think a lot about beliefs, religion, etc. I am not saying that you MUST have a religion and defend it like a fencing master, but some times I feel like I would like to find one belief system and stick with it... get deeper and deeper into it, and proudly say I am a ***ist... Is it a need to bond?... to feel like I belong?.
Anyway, the title is because, well... the idea is good, and I believe I could write a lot about it, but I won't. My mind is kind of blurry on the topic, and it's in the guts stage, where I do feel a lot of things yet I haven't chewed them enough to turn them into words... so I must leave it like this.
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This weekend was nice, yesterday was my brothers bday, and we had friends staying in the house and all.. good games, anime and movies... what else could you ask for?... a woman you say?... welll... yeah... you are right. ¬_¬
PS. If you fancy a good read, check this guy out, he does has the best page in the universe after all... right?.
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Karaokulta day...
Yesterday was a pretty cool day for karaokulta, so many things happened!. I can't believe editors from the US are actually contacting us, yesterday it happened again with yet another one, and as we were settling that out, a local company contacted me and wants to develop a comic to release some new product... yay!!... it's like, everything is coming together rather nicelly, little by little... it we manage to organize our selves and the projects, this will happen for sure, sooner than we think.
I've decided to, at the moment, focus all my programming skills at work, and whenever I have "free" time around, I'll keep learning c++ and stuff of the sort, and my evenins will be entirely art related... and unless something quite odd happens, that will be my agenda. That way I think, little by little, I'll magane to put everything together.
ps... I just saw this movie ... welcome tragedy!. Sad, sad, sad... but goooood. I watched it because of Jennifer Connelly, but it turned out to be a good project... it seems she is good in picking her stuff... even hulk I liked. (yes, I enjoyed hulk!!).
About my previous post... I am thinking a lot... you know, running photoshop on girls and all... makes me wonder and ponder quite some things.
anyway, **cheers!.
I've decided to, at the moment, focus all my programming skills at work, and whenever I have "free" time around, I'll keep learning c++ and stuff of the sort, and my evenins will be entirely art related... and unless something quite odd happens, that will be my agenda. That way I think, little by little, I'll magane to put everything together.
ps... I just saw this movie ... welcome tragedy!. Sad, sad, sad... but goooood. I watched it because of Jennifer Connelly, but it turned out to be a good project... it seems she is good in picking her stuff... even hulk I liked. (yes, I enjoyed hulk!!).
About my previous post... I am thinking a lot... you know, running photoshop on girls and all... makes me wonder and ponder quite some things.
anyway, **cheers!.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Sad but true...
Although it's almost sad I must say this strip made me laugh a lot, and a lot of it was because I felt rather identified.
Two in a row?...
Joey is the kind of guy who is smiling most of the times, a kind spirited fellow always up to have a good time. If we went to a bar he would be the one to go ahead, aproach the girls, and then ask us to come and made us mingle and meet the ladies, a party animal, and actually a very good conversationist too.
Right now I am listeting to a CD he put together with some very "good vibe" music and I can't help to smile due to the tune that this rumanian guys are singing... I do not understand anything, but it's just nice.
He is one of those friends that Victor shared with me, mostly his friend but I've come to like him and enjoy his prescence a lot...
Joey, that good spirited party animal, is going to the seminar today... yeep, today is his first day on this way to priesthood and... it almost feels weird. For a while we did all we could to talk him out of it, even yesterday night we made ALL sorts of jokes about it, but he seems so happy and determined. The sad part is that he will be in seclussion focused on his studies and he will be around less... but still, I understand they get out on the weekends or something like that.
I just hope it is his thing, and there he finds that which we are all looking for... as Tyler Durden sais, our fight is an internal one, a fight for purpose... I don't know what will end up happening, anything will be great, but I am sure that if Joey becomes a priest he will be one of the coolest nicest more fun priests ever, I could even go to his services!. :-P
So yesterday there were two good byes, two hugs saying "the best for you", and two friends who went away chasing for a dream...
I wonder for how long will I be able to wait... when will those hugs and good byes will be about me?.
**cheers
Right now I am listeting to a CD he put together with some very "good vibe" music and I can't help to smile due to the tune that this rumanian guys are singing... I do not understand anything, but it's just nice.
He is one of those friends that Victor shared with me, mostly his friend but I've come to like him and enjoy his prescence a lot...
Joey, that good spirited party animal, is going to the seminar today... yeep, today is his first day on this way to priesthood and... it almost feels weird. For a while we did all we could to talk him out of it, even yesterday night we made ALL sorts of jokes about it, but he seems so happy and determined. The sad part is that he will be in seclussion focused on his studies and he will be around less... but still, I understand they get out on the weekends or something like that.
I just hope it is his thing, and there he finds that which we are all looking for... as Tyler Durden sais, our fight is an internal one, a fight for purpose... I don't know what will end up happening, anything will be great, but I am sure that if Joey becomes a priest he will be one of the coolest nicest more fun priests ever, I could even go to his services!. :-P
So yesterday there were two good byes, two hugs saying "the best for you", and two friends who went away chasing for a dream...
I wonder for how long will I be able to wait... when will those hugs and good byes will be about me?.
**cheers
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
And another one bites the dust...
I just have that song on my mind... it's a negative song so to speak, and what I am feeling is not negative... it's kind of weird, and melancholic, it's not the 1st time that this happens though. We just went and said good bye to Alex, a good friend and co worker, and I may not see him in quite a while... he is going away because he was feeling he's getting stale here, he needs to move on or forget about his dreams, and of course, he went for the dream.
As for now he is going to his homeland, and in about a month he is going to go and find an opportunity over in Canada... just like that, with enough money to live a month, and enough will to find any sort of job in that month. (well, not that kind of job... he he he). I think it's great that he has finally done it, and that he did it...
In a while, I will do the same... hopefully karaokulta will allow me to make that happen and have money covered, but still, if that is not the case, I should go none the less...
As I said, it always feels weird every time someone close to me goes away... but my way to say good bye was "see you in Canada, find us a good house"... and so it will be.
As for now he is going to his homeland, and in about a month he is going to go and find an opportunity over in Canada... just like that, with enough money to live a month, and enough will to find any sort of job in that month. (well, not that kind of job... he he he). I think it's great that he has finally done it, and that he did it...
In a while, I will do the same... hopefully karaokulta will allow me to make that happen and have money covered, but still, if that is not the case, I should go none the less...
As I said, it always feels weird every time someone close to me goes away... but my way to say good bye was "see you in Canada, find us a good house"... and so it will be.
Monday, August 09, 2004
Running out of titles...
Some times it's hard to come up with a title for this things...
Hmmm, I really don't want to make this look like a "movie" blog, yet latelly I believe it has looked like that... could it be that I am watching too many movies?. Hmm, don't think so... anyway, yesterday I saw "un dia sin mexicanos". I really want to see the way this movie is accepted/rejected in the US, I even wonder if they will see it at all. But what is exposed in there is very interesting, and although it's kind of a funny thing, very serious political issues are stated in there.
Did I like it?... yes, it was good... it wasn't that much of a movie though, more like a documental sort of thing, with some "drama" pulling it together.
I found this good article from a decent US paper, and to my surprise, it actually supports what the movie is talking about. I wonder if watching this movie will change the way those guys look at us mexicans and all the workers they have in their countries.
Hmmm, I really don't want to make this look like a "movie" blog, yet latelly I believe it has looked like that... could it be that I am watching too many movies?. Hmm, don't think so... anyway, yesterday I saw "un dia sin mexicanos". I really want to see the way this movie is accepted/rejected in the US, I even wonder if they will see it at all. But what is exposed in there is very interesting, and although it's kind of a funny thing, very serious political issues are stated in there.
Did I like it?... yes, it was good... it wasn't that much of a movie though, more like a documental sort of thing, with some "drama" pulling it together.
I found this good article from a decent US paper, and to my surprise, it actually supports what the movie is talking about. I wonder if watching this movie will change the way those guys look at us mexicans and all the workers they have in their countries.
Saturday, August 07, 2004
One of the bestest ever
I saw Iron Giant again, although it sounds like too much, I could really say it's the best animated movie ever, at least from my perspective. I judge it from a technical point of view and it's just beautifully done, such impecable animation, they way a huge metal guy makes you feel... those guys did magic; and, on the other hand, the topic... which is very interesting.
The first time I saw it this movie made me, literally, cry... now I love animation, but that doesn't happen quite ofter, I can remember a couple other that made me really sad, but tears flowing?... I think this one has been the only one to do it, now I saw it for a second time, and there were no tears, but my guts were trully moved, and I already knew what was comming.
It made me wonder though... this movie, one of the best animated movies ever, really didn't cut it into the teathers, and really didn't make much money out there. Now, this is a huge production, voices of Jennifer Aniston and Vin Diesel, Warner Studios, great sound trach... stuff like that. People claim that the movie didn't make it as much due to a marketing mistake, they just didn't promote it well enough, or didn't release it when they had to. I remeber back when I was learning a lot in animation, I joined several mailing lists with pros who would dicuss about all this, those guys made me want to see the movie, they all thought it was just the best thing ever... and this guys know what they are talking about.
The thing is... this movie really makes the US goverment, or some of it, really look foolish... it's a critic about their policy kill now, ask later... to whatever is left... it openly states how stupid is all the fear that they make people feel from outside stuff, and their ideas about mistrusting everything other than their wepons. All this in order to protect america we have to kill everything that is a "threat" and it's foolishness it widely exposed... in a wonderful, even naive, way.
Does the idea of those guys bombarding the middle east looking for weapons, and after destroying the place not finding anything rings a bell?. Well yes, it doesn't only happen on the cartoons you know?.
It almost pisses me off... yet getting pissed of is not the answer, because anger and fear are the things that cause all this suffering.
Anyway, my point is, was the marketing of this movie stopped or tuned low because of it's political critic?... didn't this guys believe that teaching the younger generations to be tolerant would be dangerous to their status quo?... who knows, maybe I am being paranoic... but if you ask me, it does make sense.
**cheers.
The first time I saw it this movie made me, literally, cry... now I love animation, but that doesn't happen quite ofter, I can remember a couple other that made me really sad, but tears flowing?... I think this one has been the only one to do it, now I saw it for a second time, and there were no tears, but my guts were trully moved, and I already knew what was comming.
It made me wonder though... this movie, one of the best animated movies ever, really didn't cut it into the teathers, and really didn't make much money out there. Now, this is a huge production, voices of Jennifer Aniston and Vin Diesel, Warner Studios, great sound trach... stuff like that. People claim that the movie didn't make it as much due to a marketing mistake, they just didn't promote it well enough, or didn't release it when they had to. I remeber back when I was learning a lot in animation, I joined several mailing lists with pros who would dicuss about all this, those guys made me want to see the movie, they all thought it was just the best thing ever... and this guys know what they are talking about.
The thing is... this movie really makes the US goverment, or some of it, really look foolish... it's a critic about their policy kill now, ask later... to whatever is left... it openly states how stupid is all the fear that they make people feel from outside stuff, and their ideas about mistrusting everything other than their wepons. All this in order to protect america we have to kill everything that is a "threat" and it's foolishness it widely exposed... in a wonderful, even naive, way.
Does the idea of those guys bombarding the middle east looking for weapons, and after destroying the place not finding anything rings a bell?. Well yes, it doesn't only happen on the cartoons you know?.
It almost pisses me off... yet getting pissed of is not the answer, because anger and fear are the things that cause all this suffering.
Anyway, my point is, was the marketing of this movie stopped or tuned low because of it's political critic?... didn't this guys believe that teaching the younger generations to be tolerant would be dangerous to their status quo?... who knows, maybe I am being paranoic... but if you ask me, it does make sense.
**cheers.
Friday, August 06, 2004
My life...
Most of the stuff that I've been getting on my email latelly is spam or something close to that... my university keeps sending me this "job openings according to your profile" thing, it used to be amusing... I always get stuff like accountant assistant, blah blah admin, production whatever, etc... now I just delete them right away... obviously they don't know my profile, if they knew, they would keep sending stuff related to make video games or a comic... why is it so hard?.
Still... my life since the begginig of the year has been quite messed up in terms of work and schedule, now I am officially working doing some stuff at the cite, which is quite cool actually, the work load is decent, it's a "people" enviroment (which is a huge change from the freelancing hermit), and gives me the time to work on my comics stuff... I still have that masters idea lingering in my mind, it would take me to Canada and teach me some new stuff... though I wonder, would that be just escaping?, or is that something I would do because I am afraid of not working things out in terms of comics?... for example.
Then again I think of those labs and Banff, and I know I would really enjoy that... two whole years devoted to some project of mine...
I want to write, I must write a comic story I have on my mind and work it out of my system... then I want to be social too... and get good at drawing, I need to do that for sure, even if I want to be an inker I have to be a kick ass penciler.... which I am not just yet. Of course work, and learn video games programming, and scripting to design a game and this have a demo... all this I want to do everyday... and to be honest, the time is not enough.
My multiple likes sometimes just confuse me way too much, sometimes I wish I could just be single minded and live my life doing whatever happily... or at least I wish I could keep things as a hobbie and focus on one thing at a time... then again, that seems like such a waste of time.
This body of mine though is starting to suffer my lifestyle, non sleeping and eating well is just not good... and not only but, but having an ever changing schedule is even worse. Now I am starting to be up early everyday and have a normal day at the tec, and then arrive home, rest a couple of hours, and start with comics... slowly, but efficiently, my body is adjusting to this routine, and I am possitive than in a couple of weeks it will actually like it.
I want to make my web comic, put up my site... for how long will I keep not doing the stuff that I'd really like to do for my self?...
Argh... I am just in a weird mood.
**cheers... i guess
Still... my life since the begginig of the year has been quite messed up in terms of work and schedule, now I am officially working doing some stuff at the cite, which is quite cool actually, the work load is decent, it's a "people" enviroment (which is a huge change from the freelancing hermit), and gives me the time to work on my comics stuff... I still have that masters idea lingering in my mind, it would take me to Canada and teach me some new stuff... though I wonder, would that be just escaping?, or is that something I would do because I am afraid of not working things out in terms of comics?... for example.
Then again I think of those labs and Banff, and I know I would really enjoy that... two whole years devoted to some project of mine...
I want to write, I must write a comic story I have on my mind and work it out of my system... then I want to be social too... and get good at drawing, I need to do that for sure, even if I want to be an inker I have to be a kick ass penciler.... which I am not just yet. Of course work, and learn video games programming, and scripting to design a game and this have a demo... all this I want to do everyday... and to be honest, the time is not enough.
My multiple likes sometimes just confuse me way too much, sometimes I wish I could just be single minded and live my life doing whatever happily... or at least I wish I could keep things as a hobbie and focus on one thing at a time... then again, that seems like such a waste of time.
This body of mine though is starting to suffer my lifestyle, non sleeping and eating well is just not good... and not only but, but having an ever changing schedule is even worse. Now I am starting to be up early everyday and have a normal day at the tec, and then arrive home, rest a couple of hours, and start with comics... slowly, but efficiently, my body is adjusting to this routine, and I am possitive than in a couple of weeks it will actually like it.
I want to make my web comic, put up my site... for how long will I keep not doing the stuff that I'd really like to do for my self?...
Argh... I am just in a weird mood.
**cheers... i guess
Damn it...
Check this strip out:
http://www.questionablecontent.net/view.php?comic=9
I have quite something to say about that... girls and flirting... all that fun stuff... yet the amount of work beats my motivation to write that down... so, hopefully sometime soon.
Still, that strip is hilarious...
**cheers
http://www.questionablecontent.net/view.php?comic=9
I have quite something to say about that... girls and flirting... all that fun stuff... yet the amount of work beats my motivation to write that down... so, hopefully sometime soon.
Still, that strip is hilarious...
**cheers
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Eternal sunshine...
How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
The eternal sunshine of the sportless mind is a movie to see. I am really starting to see a pattern with this guys from FOCUS, and pretty much I am liking all their movies... they are deffinitelly not mainstream though, I could see that yesterday. Several persons walked out of the room, there were 3 girls next to me, and I could hear them comment gosh I don't get it!... isn't this supposed to be funny?... let's get out... and so they did. (another issue was that Jim Carrey acted on the movie, so a lot of people were expecting to laugh a lot... and well... it's just not that kind of movie. Although I like the way he handles drama too).
What is good about the movie?... the form and the content... talks a great deal about relationships and something that we all go through eventually when you are with someone... I think the movie can be enjoyed by everyone, but will trully give a lot of insight to someone who's been in a relationship, and out of it too. And the way the story is told, the photography, and all that technical stuff... it rocks. The acting is very very good...
Again, one of those movies that make you sigh a lot as you see it, and for quite a while once you've seen it.
My days have been rather cool, and yesterday I was told that deffinitelly I could work at the TEC taking Alex's place, which is tremendously great and will give me all the time I need to keep working on my art stuff, and regarding that... well... there are some pretty cool news. Last night when I got home after the movies, and dvd buying, and dinner... he he he, anyway, once I got there I called Eve and he had the best news ever... people from the US are calling us (by phone), to start things up with them... comics wise... ahh!!!!... so f&**îng cool!!!!.... anyway, more news on that once it's a deal, still, it's cool they are calling.
** cheers!!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
The eternal sunshine of the sportless mind is a movie to see. I am really starting to see a pattern with this guys from FOCUS, and pretty much I am liking all their movies... they are deffinitelly not mainstream though, I could see that yesterday. Several persons walked out of the room, there were 3 girls next to me, and I could hear them comment gosh I don't get it!... isn't this supposed to be funny?... let's get out... and so they did. (another issue was that Jim Carrey acted on the movie, so a lot of people were expecting to laugh a lot... and well... it's just not that kind of movie. Although I like the way he handles drama too).
What is good about the movie?... the form and the content... talks a great deal about relationships and something that we all go through eventually when you are with someone... I think the movie can be enjoyed by everyone, but will trully give a lot of insight to someone who's been in a relationship, and out of it too. And the way the story is told, the photography, and all that technical stuff... it rocks. The acting is very very good...
Again, one of those movies that make you sigh a lot as you see it, and for quite a while once you've seen it.
My days have been rather cool, and yesterday I was told that deffinitelly I could work at the TEC taking Alex's place, which is tremendously great and will give me all the time I need to keep working on my art stuff, and regarding that... well... there are some pretty cool news. Last night when I got home after the movies, and dvd buying, and dinner... he he he, anyway, once I got there I called Eve and he had the best news ever... people from the US are calling us (by phone), to start things up with them... comics wise... ahh!!!!... so f&**îng cool!!!!.... anyway, more news on that once it's a deal, still, it's cool they are calling.
** cheers!!
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Don't know what to do...
I feel terribly tempted to make a post about Fight Club, yet my brother was kind of enough to make fun of me... so, in a way, I feel like it doesn't make sense...
The thing though, is that the movie is quite good, and the last time I saw it was like... 4 years ago, so it was pretty much like watching it again, but with the knowledge about the real relationship between those guys, which, in my experience, makes you see the movie in a whole other way... so yes, it's a movie you've got to see at least twice.
Tyler Durder is like a cool quotes machine, and as crazy and messed up as the guy ends up being, his principles and ideas are quite interesting and good... you may question the means, but the end is rather noble I should say...
Check some of this quote for example:
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives.
-- Tyler Durden
It's a very strong critique to the way we live now, or the way we do not live... in such a material world, a place were what we own ends up owning us, following someone such as Tyler seems like the only logical thing to do... right?.
Anyway... as scared as I would be of the idea, (because I am a wuss when it comes to that), I think I'd like being part of some sort of fight club... not running around the city destroying things though, just he plain nice regular ass kicking would suffice.
The thing though, is that the movie is quite good, and the last time I saw it was like... 4 years ago, so it was pretty much like watching it again, but with the knowledge about the real relationship between those guys, which, in my experience, makes you see the movie in a whole other way... so yes, it's a movie you've got to see at least twice.
Tyler Durder is like a cool quotes machine, and as crazy and messed up as the guy ends up being, his principles and ideas are quite interesting and good... you may question the means, but the end is rather noble I should say...
Check some of this quote for example:
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives.
-- Tyler Durden
It's a very strong critique to the way we live now, or the way we do not live... in such a material world, a place were what we own ends up owning us, following someone such as Tyler seems like the only logical thing to do... right?.
Anyway... as scared as I would be of the idea, (because I am a wuss when it comes to that), I think I'd like being part of some sort of fight club... not running around the city destroying things though, just he plain nice regular ass kicking would suffice.
Monday, August 02, 2004
So... what did you do?
Yesterday I had a funny, yet frustrating, experience regarding my tasks as an inker in some current projects. It's always kind of hard to explain what does an inter do to someone that is completely unaware of the creative process of a comic... I was showing this guy the brochure that we were giving out at the comicon it has several samples of our work, several pages, and stuff like that... the funny part begun when he asked something like,
he: so... what is it that you did?
me: I did the inking, it's done after the pencils and before the colors, I correct some stuff, and give a sense of dept and texture to the composition.
(I think I lost him here).
at this time he kept turning the pages around... and then again.
he: so... you didn't do anything here?
me: well, I am the writer of one of the stories, and I do the inking... see here?, this is my work (as I showed him a black a white page that has some of my inks).
-now he was perplexed and confused... he couldn't make things work since those drawings weren't done by me, yet I was claiming that was my work.
After a long talk... and some trying from my part, we both gave up and at the end he just said well, good luck to you!.
I think I should get used to this... right?
he: so... what is it that you did?
me: I did the inking, it's done after the pencils and before the colors, I correct some stuff, and give a sense of dept and texture to the composition.
(I think I lost him here).
at this time he kept turning the pages around... and then again.
he: so... you didn't do anything here?
me: well, I am the writer of one of the stories, and I do the inking... see here?, this is my work (as I showed him a black a white page that has some of my inks).
-now he was perplexed and confused... he couldn't make things work since those drawings weren't done by me, yet I was claiming that was my work.
After a long talk... and some trying from my part, we both gave up and at the end he just said well, good luck to you!.
I think I should get used to this... right?
Black holes of self...
There are many deffinitions about what a black hole is... in a very rude way, we can say that those are objects of huge mass and energy, and that energy is not flowing out towards the universe, but inwards towards themselves... there is so much energy concentrated there that not only is their own energy absorved but also all the surrounding "astro-bodies" are pulled towards it. They are like a negative sun... in a way.
Anyway, this is not a treaty about phisics... the thing though is that there are sometimes people that are black holes themselves, but black holes of energy, of love, or passion. They have so much kept inside, so many things they have never being able to let out, to let go, to explore and explode, that at certain point in their life they become a black hole, and they start sucking all the energy around them and pulling it towards themselves.
Some people call them energy vampires, and they may not know that they are doing it... but it happens a lot. It only takes one of those among a bunch of friends to turn the energy of the group upside down and make bad vibes flow around the room. And, on the other hand, those kind of people tend to, as I understand, develop cancer and other stuff like that, because they just cannot let things out.
I don't know why but as I was driving back from the bank I thought of this analogy... and I believe it works... it could be considered lame, but it makes the point. The energy vampire concept works, but I like the black hole idea because it talks about an excess of unreleased energy that causes that. And in most cases that's what happens, the person becomes a walking black hole because they don't deal with issues and don't let stuff out of themselves... without realizing that the light they need in their lives comes from within them, they start absorving it from everyone around... and at some point they can even make people feel uncomfortable without any real reason.
Now... what can we do?... if we bump into someone that makes us feel in such a way we realize they are a black hole, we could help them somehow by making them realize they need to let stuff out and find light within themselves... but mostly we should avoid becoming one, by living our lives and feelings in their fullest, and just allowing us to feel, to desire, to crave and love, and want, and hate, etc. To deny our feelings I believe is one of the worst things we could do.
To be honest this post is not making that much sense to me at the moment... but I believe it's a decent start for a better post later on, or just some idea to develop further... thus I will click "publish" so that it doesn't get lost. (do coment please... maybe together we could develop a better idea).
Anyway, this is not a treaty about phisics... the thing though is that there are sometimes people that are black holes themselves, but black holes of energy, of love, or passion. They have so much kept inside, so many things they have never being able to let out, to let go, to explore and explode, that at certain point in their life they become a black hole, and they start sucking all the energy around them and pulling it towards themselves.
Some people call them energy vampires, and they may not know that they are doing it... but it happens a lot. It only takes one of those among a bunch of friends to turn the energy of the group upside down and make bad vibes flow around the room. And, on the other hand, those kind of people tend to, as I understand, develop cancer and other stuff like that, because they just cannot let things out.
I don't know why but as I was driving back from the bank I thought of this analogy... and I believe it works... it could be considered lame, but it makes the point. The energy vampire concept works, but I like the black hole idea because it talks about an excess of unreleased energy that causes that. And in most cases that's what happens, the person becomes a walking black hole because they don't deal with issues and don't let stuff out of themselves... without realizing that the light they need in their lives comes from within them, they start absorving it from everyone around... and at some point they can even make people feel uncomfortable without any real reason.
Now... what can we do?... if we bump into someone that makes us feel in such a way we realize they are a black hole, we could help them somehow by making them realize they need to let stuff out and find light within themselves... but mostly we should avoid becoming one, by living our lives and feelings in their fullest, and just allowing us to feel, to desire, to crave and love, and want, and hate, etc. To deny our feelings I believe is one of the worst things we could do.
To be honest this post is not making that much sense to me at the moment... but I believe it's a decent start for a better post later on, or just some idea to develop further... thus I will click "publish" so that it doesn't get lost. (do coment please... maybe together we could develop a better idea).
Plain Confused...
Charlotte: I just don't know what I'm supposed to be.
Bob: You'll figure that out. The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.
- lost in translation
Sometimes I just feel plain confused, like some boat floating along the sea with no real direction... and that is scary... or actually, like a boat that is conscious of al the directions in may take, yet stalled because of it's indecision. Which I know, sucks...
I believe in magick, the power of will and how I am able to transform my circumstances in order to achieve whichever goal. Less that a year ago I decided that I wanted out of innox, and wanted to begin pursuing a life into a creative realm, I wanted to be part of that fun world of comics and games... Now, with the knowledge I've gained during this year, I do have an understanding of what comics are all about in terms or the artistic and the business process, and some good grasp of game development too... I love them both, and they are pretty much the same world to me... A world in which you work like crazy on something you feel passionate about, a fun world filled with art and creativity...
Yet they are so different in the way you approach them... which way to go?, what to do?... what should I pursue?...
Jorge is just back from the Con and he has great news, and inspiring words and experiences to keep us going... it seems that we made a decent impact with the guys in the comicon and now if we give good following to all that we can make things happen. But what about gaming then?. What about video-game designing and art?. I know I may sound like a spoiled confused little teenager that doesn't know what he wants to do with his life... I do know, I want to be a part of that world... work like crazy and do something creative... the problem is that whatever I try I love, and all those opportunities are challenging and great... they all seem like the coolest way to make a living...
But I do have to go for one... right?. I know I do...
And just picking bits and pieces here and there seems like a waste of time sometimes... if I will end up writting and inking comics, maybe I should just devote all my time to become the best there... right?. But no, I take about 2 hours a day to learn about game development, and I find in terribly exciting too. Is there a way to make both things happen?, I think there is... to be honest I believe I could write and ink a comic monthly (just one though), and do gaming related stuff, no problem.
Once I make enough of a living in comics, or in gaming, I could devote the rest of the day to the other passion... and that would be great. The issue as for now is that I have to work about 8+ hours a day to make money... so that leaves me with just a few hours to make things happen regarding what I really want.
I guess that's why that quote from lost in translation impacted me so much... I wish I could see were will I end up in some years... just skip ahead all this... but it's exciting too, I love my karaokulta brothers and that is I project that I cherish and want to see evolve, and I want to be a part of it... study a masters then?. Who knows... of all, that is the one choice that isn't making that much sense to me at the moment. I love the idea of 2 years into a proyect of mine, going to banff and all though... so yes... I am a confused meat bag for the time being.
And I believe it shows... energy doesn't lie after all...
argh.... gotta go to the bank....
If I had all the money in the world, and that wouldn't be an issue, I guess I would love to work on a game, at least one or two during their whole development... and write comics too, having a couple of personal projects to draw or ink... if and only if.
Bob: You'll figure that out. The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.
- lost in translation
Sometimes I just feel plain confused, like some boat floating along the sea with no real direction... and that is scary... or actually, like a boat that is conscious of al the directions in may take, yet stalled because of it's indecision. Which I know, sucks...
I believe in magick, the power of will and how I am able to transform my circumstances in order to achieve whichever goal. Less that a year ago I decided that I wanted out of innox, and wanted to begin pursuing a life into a creative realm, I wanted to be part of that fun world of comics and games... Now, with the knowledge I've gained during this year, I do have an understanding of what comics are all about in terms or the artistic and the business process, and some good grasp of game development too... I love them both, and they are pretty much the same world to me... A world in which you work like crazy on something you feel passionate about, a fun world filled with art and creativity...
Yet they are so different in the way you approach them... which way to go?, what to do?... what should I pursue?...
Jorge is just back from the Con and he has great news, and inspiring words and experiences to keep us going... it seems that we made a decent impact with the guys in the comicon and now if we give good following to all that we can make things happen. But what about gaming then?. What about video-game designing and art?. I know I may sound like a spoiled confused little teenager that doesn't know what he wants to do with his life... I do know, I want to be a part of that world... work like crazy and do something creative... the problem is that whatever I try I love, and all those opportunities are challenging and great... they all seem like the coolest way to make a living...
But I do have to go for one... right?. I know I do...
And just picking bits and pieces here and there seems like a waste of time sometimes... if I will end up writting and inking comics, maybe I should just devote all my time to become the best there... right?. But no, I take about 2 hours a day to learn about game development, and I find in terribly exciting too. Is there a way to make both things happen?, I think there is... to be honest I believe I could write and ink a comic monthly (just one though), and do gaming related stuff, no problem.
Once I make enough of a living in comics, or in gaming, I could devote the rest of the day to the other passion... and that would be great. The issue as for now is that I have to work about 8+ hours a day to make money... so that leaves me with just a few hours to make things happen regarding what I really want.
I guess that's why that quote from lost in translation impacted me so much... I wish I could see were will I end up in some years... just skip ahead all this... but it's exciting too, I love my karaokulta brothers and that is I project that I cherish and want to see evolve, and I want to be a part of it... study a masters then?. Who knows... of all, that is the one choice that isn't making that much sense to me at the moment. I love the idea of 2 years into a proyect of mine, going to banff and all though... so yes... I am a confused meat bag for the time being.
And I believe it shows... energy doesn't lie after all...
argh.... gotta go to the bank....
If I had all the money in the world, and that wouldn't be an issue, I guess I would love to work on a game, at least one or two during their whole development... and write comics too, having a couple of personal projects to draw or ink... if and only if.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Girls...
The Wrong Girl
-belle and sebastian
I went looking for my darling, I went looking for a sign
and I found her in the morning, somewhere in the back of my mind
I'm not what I could be, I need a true love
I went looking and I found one
The wrong girl
The wrong kind
The wrong hand to be holding
The wrong eyes to go searching behind
The wrong dream to have on my mind
Yesterday was a neat day, we fixed some stuff around the house, and eventually went over Eve's house. There we saw a couple of movies while waiting for the crowd. I had some of the bestest laughs in a while, he he he he... the 3rd movie from Austin Powers is quite good if I may say so. It was funny as well to listen to Estela's stories about Eve's sleeping ways, and how freaky and spooky he can get sometimes... he he he... (right eve?).
On the evening we went to Allan's department, there we were supposed to have some sort of orgy with tons of beautiful women, and things like that. At least that was the original plan (fantasy?). To be honest though, I didn't try that much to make that happen, and I guess that's why I am comfortable with taking the blame on the way things turned out at the end. Despite the fact that there were no girls whatsoever, I did have a good time... at least almost all of the time, I didn't enjoy that much the bit in which everybody was being bitter about no girls being there... he he he.
It's something that I have to fix... well, I don't have to, but I'd like to. I have a lot of friends, male friends. But where are the girls?. The girls I do get along with are so few... I'll have to start focusing my magick on that topic.
I am not a "do things" kind of guy, he he he... I am the idea guy, and the make people excited about it guy... but when it comes down to actually make things happen I have a long way to go. I guess that's one of the things that happened yesterday. I feel like I have a lot to say about it, but maybe in some other deeper post.
What I liked though is the way things turned out with Victor, that's pretty much what I wanted to be honest, for him to get drunk and release some of the stuff he is keeping inside because of his breakup with Ireri. I shall not comment further on the matter, but it was good to see he was able to let a lot of things out. It's always hard to let go of someone that you loved, for a long time, and to realize that all of a sudden all those forever love promised where just... nothing.
On the karaokulta side of my world things are looking bright, the travel to the comicon seems to have been indeed very powerful for us as a comic studio. We will see how that goes.
Sometimes I am so confused...
-belle and sebastian
I went looking for my darling, I went looking for a sign
and I found her in the morning, somewhere in the back of my mind
I'm not what I could be, I need a true love
I went looking and I found one
The wrong girl
The wrong kind
The wrong hand to be holding
The wrong eyes to go searching behind
The wrong dream to have on my mind
Yesterday was a neat day, we fixed some stuff around the house, and eventually went over Eve's house. There we saw a couple of movies while waiting for the crowd. I had some of the bestest laughs in a while, he he he he... the 3rd movie from Austin Powers is quite good if I may say so. It was funny as well to listen to Estela's stories about Eve's sleeping ways, and how freaky and spooky he can get sometimes... he he he... (right eve?).
On the evening we went to Allan's department, there we were supposed to have some sort of orgy with tons of beautiful women, and things like that. At least that was the original plan (fantasy?). To be honest though, I didn't try that much to make that happen, and I guess that's why I am comfortable with taking the blame on the way things turned out at the end. Despite the fact that there were no girls whatsoever, I did have a good time... at least almost all of the time, I didn't enjoy that much the bit in which everybody was being bitter about no girls being there... he he he.
It's something that I have to fix... well, I don't have to, but I'd like to. I have a lot of friends, male friends. But where are the girls?. The girls I do get along with are so few... I'll have to start focusing my magick on that topic.
I am not a "do things" kind of guy, he he he... I am the idea guy, and the make people excited about it guy... but when it comes down to actually make things happen I have a long way to go. I guess that's one of the things that happened yesterday. I feel like I have a lot to say about it, but maybe in some other deeper post.
What I liked though is the way things turned out with Victor, that's pretty much what I wanted to be honest, for him to get drunk and release some of the stuff he is keeping inside because of his breakup with Ireri. I shall not comment further on the matter, but it was good to see he was able to let a lot of things out. It's always hard to let go of someone that you loved, for a long time, and to realize that all of a sudden all those forever love promised where just... nothing.
On the karaokulta side of my world things are looking bright, the travel to the comicon seems to have been indeed very powerful for us as a comic studio. We will see how that goes.
Sometimes I am so confused...
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