My blog feels neglected...

I know... And I do plead guilty.

Busy busy bee... And, when I have free time. I do stuff other than sit around my computer. And my procrastinating has led me to some other spots lately, other than writing here.

I do miss the ranting... But, it's all give and take I guess.

Either way, I am leaving to Vancouver tomorrow, to what promises to be an awesome week having a road trip through the West of Canada, and if we are lucky even to Seattle. Yay!.

Cheers peoples... A LOT of good vibes to thee.

Thanks for still stopping by, as much as I have sucked in my lack of writing.

I just played with a

haptics device for the first time in my life... And I was so excited like a little kid!!... He he he. Look, it was this one. ^_^

It feels weird to grab an object, bump into it, pull it up and feel its weight, it's surface... Like... FEEL IT!!!.. O.o ... Ehen, Virtual Object that is, other wise this whole ordeal wouldn't be that impressive. Anyway, I was shown around the toys in the Lab, and learnt the basics of most of them. That is good fun stuff.

Talking about something else... Well. This weekend was good, I guess. I learnt a lot. There was a fun party last night, and I got stupidly drunk. BAD. I decided I don't want to do that again. This people, I really like them. But a lot of them only know me silly-drunky party mood... And that is wrong. In a way at least. I want to make deeper connections, and better friendships. If I can't make it to all the social events, I will start to chose other stuff over parties. Heh.

At least for a while.

... Whatever.


Still learning way much about my self. Time to grow a little more.

Have you ever

enjoyed helping someone?. Had you felt the glee of making someone else happy, just for the heck of it?. From making a surprise breakfast, to give a little massage out of the blue?. Helping someone with an assignment... Etc?.

... What about feeling, all of a sudden, that all that is expected from you?. Have you felt the utter disappointment?. Have you felt how much your energy is drained away, while the joy of doing that thing just fades away?... One thing is to offer for help, and enjoy giving it... The other is to be asked for help every single day.

It is much better to give a flower all of a sudden to your girl, than to give her one because she asked you to buy it in front of the flower store...

... Get the point?.

Now... Let's think of life as a conscious entity. Yes, life.

Life is giving, it has all there is to give after all... But when we expect and ask from it, a lot, all the time... It just wears off the same way you do when you are being asked for favors all the freaking time... I don't know yet... But I am getting that feeling at least.

The true is in really letting go... Flowing through life, with out demanding so much from it. Now, I may come across as mediocre. That is really not the case. The thing is, I have noticed, as I stop being apprehensive about things, and wishing "this and that" to happen... Good stuff keeps on happening endlessly... Just because.

Life enjoys giving surprises... Gifts out of the blue. But I am getting the feeling that it hates spoiled demanding children. Too Tao-like?...

I guess... Just like Luck, the oh so complicated lady that we need to keep seducing every day, if not will get bored, and stop caring for us. The minute our lives become too predictable, she's out of the picture.

... Anyway... As usual, I don't even know what I am saying... Just, ideas cooking in my head.

Cheers.

He he he...

Damn coke...

New silly picture of me in the profile.

~_+

2:29 am... Still working on stupid assignment.