if you place 1 + 1 in google, it's calculator returns 2?... And then you can keep making more complex math operations, and it gives you the answer?.
Well... That calculator just made me smile way too much. Heh... See what happens when you search for "the answer to life, the universe and everything"... Yup... Big ol' 42... He he he.
Cheers
Friday, September 30, 2005
The problem with
the awesome red-fiery colors in the trees is that.... Well... They are the first to be gone it seems!. O.o
Darn. Now, most of those trees stand there just pretty much naked. And well... Pictures of naked trees are pointless, and on the other hand, I don't feel comfortable just shooting the camera at them when they are like that. And I bet they don't like it either.
Anyway... I got some pretty nice pictures on my way to school today, I hope I can post them in a couple of hours.
... Other news: It has started snowing in Calgary!!!!!!!!... O.o That is only like... 3 hours away from here!!... ARGH!... Snow will be here soon. Sigh.
Darn. Now, most of those trees stand there just pretty much naked. And well... Pictures of naked trees are pointless, and on the other hand, I don't feel comfortable just shooting the camera at them when they are like that. And I bet they don't like it either.
Anyway... I got some pretty nice pictures on my way to school today, I hope I can post them in a couple of hours.
... Other news: It has started snowing in Calgary!!!!!!!!... O.o That is only like... 3 hours away from here!!... ARGH!... Snow will be here soon. Sigh.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
One issue that I have
is that I get distracted so easily... Like now for example. I have several things due for today. And well... Today only has a limited amount of hours AND I have to rehearse in choir... Sigh...
So... Why am I even writing on this thing?... Well... Kind of to "embrace" my f*&^ing demon and acknowledge it... Now...
I will really really do my best to get totally offline for the next few hours...
ARGH...
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Just so that I don't
post it twice... I will just link this.
And I'd trade it all
On a night like this
For your lovin' arms
And a moonlight kiss
...
Things here have been better than decent, the weather is getting a bit chilly, and you can see fall all over the place. The nice colors in the trees and all those good things. Little by little I am starting to know some of my peers, and to share with them some good talks and even a couple of laughs.
People here are really cool, and there had been already several good times. I've meet people from all over the world, and shared with them. Sang with them by a karaoke after some beers... He he he. Cannot get much better than that, right?.
The university is quite good, and so is the program. Despite the fact that it is taking me quite some time to catch up, and well... I don't honestly thing I will be able to. He he he. But oh well, by giving my best try I will get something good... That always seem to happen.
...
Cheers.
Just notes...
Being apart from each other is being harder than we thought it would be. We both knew it was going to suck big time I guess, but not how much. You pretty much miss the other person all through the day, I keep thinking of her pretty much all the time, really. But there are those moments in which it sucks even more. Those moments in which something magical is going on and you wish she was there to share it with you. Or the terrible times in which, you realize, everybody around you is a couple and is cuddling while on the living room in the middle of a conversation, and you are sitting there by yourself... Those suck big time.
Even so, the option of "not missing her" is not really present, and as much as it sucks, I rather feel that she is there for me, although far away, than not there at all. I am so busy that, if she was here, it would probably be worse. And she even told me the same thing. We both are like crazy in the middle of a lot of projects and things... So, in a way, this is giving us the space that we need to do our thing, without straining the relationship due to a lack of maintenance that would be quite harsh.
Not wanting to be with her is quite silly and out of the question too, and I just know that because of how I feel every time I see her picture. The album that she made of us, and all the little things around me that remind me of her. I love it that she is a part of my life, even if just in those little details.
... I guess, it comes down to letting go and feeling somewhat ok with the way things are right now. We are both giving our best effort to making things happen, and that should really be enough. I cannot do more than what I am doing, and neither can she. So we both have to learn that this is the way things ought to be for a while. If we thing it is worth it, we might as well get used to the idea. Right?... He he he.
I keep realizing that I feel very bad, not only for my self and how I miss her, but because I know she feels bad and I cannot do anything about it. I feel helpless and somewhat useless... And that is probably what messes me up more. Not my own "missing her", but the fact that I know she is sad sometimes too, and I cannot change that.
But... You see?... I really cannot!. And I guess I do have to trust in her and the way she deals with her feelings. I cannot do really anything to change them, just as I can't I do anything to change them even if we are on the same city!. Each of us are responsible for the way we feel, and the way we deal with the situation...
Which course... Is a huge burden on itself!. He he he. Because, of course, it is always so much easier and nicer to blame outside things to our emotional state. When you are told "it's up to you" it really does suck big time!!!...
Like... How?!?!?!... Easier said than done I guess...
Over here though, I know A LOT of people who have make this happen for themselves. Around here it seems to be the norm that, indeed, those long distance relationships end up working. If anything, I can pretty much see that, a long distance relationship, statistically, works just as much as any other one. And, in the end, if things work out or not, it will be because of things other than the distance itself.
So... Now I just have to really embrace that way of seeing things, and bring it down to a visceral-emotional level. He he he, so that there it does the proper work. Having it "in" intellectually is good, but the part that always messes me up is not quite my rational one, not ever.
Heh.
... Cheers.
Even so, the option of "not missing her" is not really present, and as much as it sucks, I rather feel that she is there for me, although far away, than not there at all. I am so busy that, if she was here, it would probably be worse. And she even told me the same thing. We both are like crazy in the middle of a lot of projects and things... So, in a way, this is giving us the space that we need to do our thing, without straining the relationship due to a lack of maintenance that would be quite harsh.
Not wanting to be with her is quite silly and out of the question too, and I just know that because of how I feel every time I see her picture. The album that she made of us, and all the little things around me that remind me of her. I love it that she is a part of my life, even if just in those little details.
... I guess, it comes down to letting go and feeling somewhat ok with the way things are right now. We are both giving our best effort to making things happen, and that should really be enough. I cannot do more than what I am doing, and neither can she. So we both have to learn that this is the way things ought to be for a while. If we thing it is worth it, we might as well get used to the idea. Right?... He he he.
I keep realizing that I feel very bad, not only for my self and how I miss her, but because I know she feels bad and I cannot do anything about it. I feel helpless and somewhat useless... And that is probably what messes me up more. Not my own "missing her", but the fact that I know she is sad sometimes too, and I cannot change that.
But... You see?... I really cannot!. And I guess I do have to trust in her and the way she deals with her feelings. I cannot do really anything to change them, just as I can't I do anything to change them even if we are on the same city!. Each of us are responsible for the way we feel, and the way we deal with the situation...
Which course... Is a huge burden on itself!. He he he. Because, of course, it is always so much easier and nicer to blame outside things to our emotional state. When you are told "it's up to you" it really does suck big time!!!...
Like... How?!?!?!... Easier said than done I guess...
Over here though, I know A LOT of people who have make this happen for themselves. Around here it seems to be the norm that, indeed, those long distance relationships end up working. If anything, I can pretty much see that, a long distance relationship, statistically, works just as much as any other one. And, in the end, if things work out or not, it will be because of things other than the distance itself.
So... Now I just have to really embrace that way of seeing things, and bring it down to a visceral-emotional level. He he he, so that there it does the proper work. Having it "in" intellectually is good, but the part that always messes me up is not quite my rational one, not ever.
Heh.
... Cheers.
Monday, September 26, 2005
This week
we are living with Daniel and Sandra again. Part of the silly arrangement that we made with our Land-Lady. We could have the place, as long as she could have during the last week of September. (Some family of hers, visiting from England and all... Nice folks all of them, gotta love the accent)...
Anyway, it is all good. Those two guys, (Daniel and Sandra), are quite great!. And well, there is always something interesting to talk about with them. Besides, Daniel just got back from Japan, so he has some good stories and pictures to keep us amused for a while.
School?... Still a bitch I guess, but I am getting a pace and a rythm. I still cannot figure out how I will be able to do and learn all the stuff I am supposed to, but I am working into that and it feels a tad better. Heh...
What else?... Ah yes, place looks awesome and pretty. Fall is here and thus the trees are yellow and red and they make an awesome view from the bridge that takes you to downtown, and all those little trails. I feel I am in some tale in the Stardust setting while walking around those places. ^_^
... he he he.. silly and dry update, sorry!...
cheers
Anyway, it is all good. Those two guys, (Daniel and Sandra), are quite great!. And well, there is always something interesting to talk about with them. Besides, Daniel just got back from Japan, so he has some good stories and pictures to keep us amused for a while.
School?... Still a bitch I guess, but I am getting a pace and a rythm. I still cannot figure out how I will be able to do and learn all the stuff I am supposed to, but I am working into that and it feels a tad better. Heh...
What else?... Ah yes, place looks awesome and pretty. Fall is here and thus the trees are yellow and red and they make an awesome view from the bridge that takes you to downtown, and all those little trails. I feel I am in some tale in the Stardust setting while walking around those places. ^_^
... he he he.. silly and dry update, sorry!...
cheers
Thursday, September 22, 2005
My 20 seconds...
Ok ok... I have like 20 seconds to bitch about my current state and write my tragedy... Then, I promise I will try to let go...
1... I am seriously having 2nd thoughts about my choice of being here...
I don't fucking know why I ended up doing it... And I... Argh....
I almost feel I had just stayed in my comfort bubble and be happy there...
I hate fear... I hate fearing... I don't like change... Although I am excited about finding out the kind of person I may change into after all this......
sigh... this is not being half as nice as I pictured it I guess...
going through some serious freaking out stage, and probably, for the 1st time in my life although I had already gone abroad before, I am experiencing home-sickness and it sucks...
... It really does.
... 20?
1... I am seriously having 2nd thoughts about my choice of being here...
I don't fucking know why I ended up doing it... And I... Argh....
I almost feel I had just stayed in my comfort bubble and be happy there...
I hate fear... I hate fearing... I don't like change... Although I am excited about finding out the kind of person I may change into after all this......
sigh... this is not being half as nice as I pictured it I guess...
going through some serious freaking out stage, and probably, for the 1st time in my life although I had already gone abroad before, I am experiencing home-sickness and it sucks...
... It really does.
... 20?
A piece of advice,
for all of you guys thinking about a Masters... Think twice about it. Ok?
Heh... Ok now, if you really want to go for it. STOP working on your programming skills, and getting up to date with c++ or whatever crap. That is not the point at all, and believe you me, it doesn't really make a huge difference. On the other hand... WORK LIKE CRAZY on your math!... Ok?... Really, get your linear algebra, analytic geometry, statistics and all those things up and running... REALLY!... The issue is there...
Sigh...
Anyway... Gotta keep on reading and catching up... Life is going fine, really. Weather is kind of cold, but pretty beautiful. The trees are getting yellow, and red, and all those nice things. I tried and, well, got into the university's choir!. He he he. Which is quite fun, relaxing, and a good way to meet people... I am learning to read music too. Heh.
I miss Wend like crazy... But... I do manage to write to her a lot, and talk as often as we both can make it happen... Sigh... And, to be honest?. I miss you all, A LOT... Over here, as cool and interesting as everything is, I haven't found my spot. That sense of belonging is still missing, the warmth when I bump into people and all... Well, it really isn't there yet. But I have to be honest, it is building up. Of that I am happy.
And... Well... Whatever... I gotta start reading about "Spatial Navigation in Virtual Reality Environments: An EEG Analysis" & "Defining Point-Set Surfaces" for my classes tomorrow... Heh.
CHEERS!...
^_^
Heh... Ok now, if you really want to go for it. STOP working on your programming skills, and getting up to date with c++ or whatever crap. That is not the point at all, and believe you me, it doesn't really make a huge difference. On the other hand... WORK LIKE CRAZY on your math!... Ok?... Really, get your linear algebra, analytic geometry, statistics and all those things up and running... REALLY!... The issue is there...
Sigh...
Anyway... Gotta keep on reading and catching up... Life is going fine, really. Weather is kind of cold, but pretty beautiful. The trees are getting yellow, and red, and all those nice things. I tried and, well, got into the university's choir!. He he he. Which is quite fun, relaxing, and a good way to meet people... I am learning to read music too. Heh.
I miss Wend like crazy... But... I do manage to write to her a lot, and talk as often as we both can make it happen... Sigh... And, to be honest?. I miss you all, A LOT... Over here, as cool and interesting as everything is, I haven't found my spot. That sense of belonging is still missing, the warmth when I bump into people and all... Well, it really isn't there yet. But I have to be honest, it is building up. Of that I am happy.
And... Well... Whatever... I gotta start reading about "Spatial Navigation in Virtual Reality Environments: An EEG Analysis" & "Defining Point-Set Surfaces" for my classes tomorrow... Heh.
CHEERS!...
^_^
Saturday, September 17, 2005
At first, it was me
not having a computer and a steady access to the networld... Now?... Now it's me freaking out and pretty darn sure that they must have made a horrible mistake... Like what?... Like letting me in here to begin with?!... What was going on in their mind when they accepted me into the program?...
Sure... Now I have access to a computer. But so what?... I am having a little hard time finding a thing called time for my self. Not only because there is quite a lot to do, but because most of it I don't understand at all...
Classes are cool, and I can tell the discussed topic is pretty darn interesting and bla bla bla... But... When they get into it... I am clueless and the class begins to be thaught in German or some obscure sort of chinnesse... Or an evil, evil mx between those two.
...
Whatever... I am here, so I might aswell make it work, right?...
Heh...
Still working on that, catching up with this blog thing... O.o
CHEERS... And send those good vibes over people!!... They are needed and appreciated.
Sure... Now I have access to a computer. But so what?... I am having a little hard time finding a thing called time for my self. Not only because there is quite a lot to do, but because most of it I don't understand at all...
Classes are cool, and I can tell the discussed topic is pretty darn interesting and bla bla bla... But... When they get into it... I am clueless and the class begins to be thaught in German or some obscure sort of chinnesse... Or an evil, evil mx between those two.
...
Whatever... I am here, so I might aswell make it work, right?...
Heh...
Still working on that, catching up with this blog thing... O.o
CHEERS... And send those good vibes over people!!... They are needed and appreciated.
Friday, September 09, 2005
No one to blame
but me...
I have been VERY bad regarding my blog. But not only that, but as well writing to friends and family... Have I had the time?. Hmm... Maybe, sometimes. But when I find my self with such "free time" I have no computer around...
Sigh...
That's right!. I am computerless!... O.o
It sucks, so... The few times I am around a computer is to do school stuff, some quick research, and I barely have time to write my family and girlfriend... By the way, TODAY WE CELEBRATE OUR 7 MONTHS!!!...
... And I am telling you, with this new setting each of those new months on the count in the relationship will really be something to celebrate and be VERY happy about. He he he. ^_^
So YAY for us two!!!...
Anyway... I am sorry for all of you who have been around, expecting news, and have found none... Most of you I know personally, and I know you do care... Thanks for that, and all the good vibes!.
Little by little I will find my self in here, settled down, with a proper daily schedule and a new routine... Then, I promise, this blog shall come back to life!!!!...
Things have been awesome, and there is so much to write about. And well... You know I love writing about stuff that happens!. He he he. Actually, I have to!. I do remember this is a site pretty much for me, to read later on and have a smile by reading who I was, what I was doing and how I felt then.
(It is weird to be writing about me, reading about me in the future, and smiling back at the guy who is writing about that future me... O.o)
Err... Anyway.
Thanks for sending all those good vibes, AND FOR CARING!!!!!!!...
Cheers, and good vibes guys and gals.
^_^
I have been VERY bad regarding my blog. But not only that, but as well writing to friends and family... Have I had the time?. Hmm... Maybe, sometimes. But when I find my self with such "free time" I have no computer around...
Sigh...
That's right!. I am computerless!... O.o
It sucks, so... The few times I am around a computer is to do school stuff, some quick research, and I barely have time to write my family and girlfriend... By the way, TODAY WE CELEBRATE OUR 7 MONTHS!!!...
... And I am telling you, with this new setting each of those new months on the count in the relationship will really be something to celebrate and be VERY happy about. He he he. ^_^
So YAY for us two!!!...
Anyway... I am sorry for all of you who have been around, expecting news, and have found none... Most of you I know personally, and I know you do care... Thanks for that, and all the good vibes!.
Little by little I will find my self in here, settled down, with a proper daily schedule and a new routine... Then, I promise, this blog shall come back to life!!!!...
Things have been awesome, and there is so much to write about. And well... You know I love writing about stuff that happens!. He he he. Actually, I have to!. I do remember this is a site pretty much for me, to read later on and have a smile by reading who I was, what I was doing and how I felt then.
(It is weird to be writing about me, reading about me in the future, and smiling back at the guy who is writing about that future me... O.o)
Err... Anyway.
Thanks for sending all those good vibes, AND FOR CARING!!!!!!!...
Cheers, and good vibes guys and gals.
^_^
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