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Algo que escribí hace tiempo...

Sigh.

... Viviendo los días, al máximo. Tratando de vivir el Tao.

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NO ME GUSTA SABERTE LEJOS

Porque en tu ausencia te haces tú aún más
y siento como me hago yo aún menos

Mendigo de señales de que me piensas
y eterno reo de pensamientos de tí

Triste recuerdo que embellece y miente
y tonta ilusion de un tal vez porvenir.

Vivendo en pasados aumentados,
presentes ausentes, y futuros ilusos,
odio extrañarte, que me duela
tu ausencia, no saber ignorarte.

Pero lo que más pesa
es que me encatas, que si soy
reo es porque quiero.

Que sabiéndome libre
....................aquí me quedo.

Cool haiku.... heh

Swirling black coffee,
Forseen visions of mishap,
Sigh! - I'm still Alive.

The name is SIGH DEEP... And it's by a girl named Abigail Bascos Lagamson.

It all still goes, and it all

goes well... Last thursday, I was able to cook a nice dinner for Albane, and had the appartment filled with candles all over the place. It look so beautiful, and the look on her face, when she walked inside and saw the candles, made it all worth it... Good times that evening, I am so glad I was able to do that for her.

Friday was good, nice times with her, some work, and then later meet up the bunch, had some drinks and went to Azucar... Good times, good dancing... Too much tequila?. Hah... Never too much.

Today?... Feeling a tad sick... And... So does she... Grrrr... Sucks. I stayed in all day long, and maybe tomorrow too. Just taking care of my self... Bad times. Send good vibes for that please...

... mmh...

... blah... just quick notes... later, and you will see I mean it... I will write much more. (Say in about... two weeks).

cheers...

Life has been good to me...

I have been having great days, great times... Last week's karaoke was a lot of fun, we said to Alex, who should now be having a great time in Guadalajara... It was great, as usual, fun singing, joking, and being silly. There was a pre-drinking party at the Austrian girls' place... All good fun. At the end, the time to say good bye came, and with it came tears... I walked Albane to her place, and there she couldn't help saying "feels like the beginning of the end"... Sigh.

We have been sharing a lot of sweet times, good Mexican party Friday, and all day long Saturday... A lovely walk, filled with good smiles, conversations, and pretty landscapes walking by the river, and downtown. Sharing time just by ourselves, next to each other, going dancing at night... Every day it is more fun, it gets better, and feels warmer... ^_^

I keep fighting between this two concepts... Either this thing I am living is an awesome gift from life, the material to write one of the most beautiful chapters of my biography... Or a cruel joke from destiny, having something so sweet, and having it taken away right when it's all great. I am leaning towards the first choice, and will make a point of that.

The thing is that, with relationships I have had... Things have ended for a reason... Things have ended because we, as a couple, were not working... It just wasn't right, from her side, or mine... Etc... But now?... It seems like such an external thing...

Anyway... The time that I now have, I will and should cherish. As much as the idea saddens me now and then, it is not time to be sad... It is time to be so freaking happy and enjoy those hugs.
Enjoy her, and enjoy all this wonderful people I hang out with... Live this experience at it's fullest to be able to, in the summer, start the process of reinvention... Building my self again, around new people, in a place that all of a sudden will seem a tad scary, yet way too familiar... Funny, I talk about Edmonton... But that phrase seems more suited to life in general...

It is all good... This is my time to vent and rant... But in a few minutes, I will see her and I know I will smile A LOT... ^_^ . And I am soooo grateful with life for giving me this chance, even if it lasts for little... Heh. I really am.

Cheers.

By the way... I talked to Victor, Blanco and Joey a little on Saturday night... That made me smile so much!!... And yesterday, good talk with the bastard (Victor, that is), on the webcam and all... Good times. I miss him.

Fucked up....

Bad times....

ps. el alcohol es depresivo vdd?