Really, just go

ahead and read this... It's worth your while.

Cheers,

Should I get an

iPod?...

Any ideas?... Suggestions regarding some other mp3 players?.

... Sigh. I know me, I will not be at ease until I get me one of those damn things. But... iPod?... Or... Some other stuff?. Those silent long hours working at the labs make me go crazy, I do need some music paying device.

O.o

Update...

I do like iTunes now...

Took me a while to get it's logic, and understand what the f**k it was doing to all my files... But now... I love the little damn thing. And yes, it is good if you let it move around your files. You will be pleasantly surprised, if you are messy like me, and had them all thrown in the same folder.

Cheers.

By the way,

Cat Power... As in music group... IS AWESOME... O.o

Ehem... Just... Discovered their stuff last night.

Cheers ^_^

ps. Massive attack and Lali Puna rock too... Good tunes.

Been playing a little

with iTunes... I am not quite sure I like it yet.

I had a great weekend... And I won't talk about procrastinating... It just pisses me off. Sigh... I really need to get my act together better I guess. Still, I did a lot of things... Heh. Go figure. I bumped into this cool guy, JuanDe, in a friend's house and it was nice getting in touch with him again... Heh. Good times are ahead if I hang out with him more I bet.

Blah blah blah... In general the weekend was pretty darn good. Something that pumped me up big times happened on Saturday, on James' reunion. He had a house warming party and well, being a Bioware guy, it was filled with people from Bioware. He invited Concha and me though, that was cool. Anyway... I talked to several of them about their projects, and mine... What I am up to in the University, etc... And, instead of me being like "wow! Guys!... I want to work and make games with you!!"... They were like: "wow!... That sounds cool, I wish I could be working on that... I will email your supervisor and see if I can get involved in that research... I wish I could do more fun stuff like that... Maybe I can make some art for your virtual worlds"... Etc... He he he... I liked it!...

Made me feel good about being working at the university and all... I guess, there are good and bad things about everything... And the grass always seems greener on the other side. Heh... But... That felt good. The idea that my side of the fence was appealing to those guys. Felt like a cool change.

Today?... Good chillin' day...

Fought too much with iTunes though... Again... I am not sure I like it yet.

Heh...

Cheers.

I have been... Sort of meaning

to write about all that happened with my relationship during this last break... But honestly, as I have said, it is complicated. So, I won't talk about the facts... I will just say something that I learnt... TALK... Communicate.

And I know... "Communication" is like, the one thing we all know is supposed to be the "hey" at all times. Etc... But I guess, just now, with this whole thing I lived, I could really REALLY see why. Don't be stupid and put off things... TALK about them right when they matter. Don't make any silly excuses as of why it is better not to talk now, as of why it is better to wait... Really, IT'S NOT...

Feelings are like some sort of fruit. They can be bitter, or sweet... But they can get rotten quite easily if you don't do something with them fast. And then, those rotten feelings can start messing up some other good ones that didn't have anything to do with the problem... And at the end, you end up in a stupid mess. Stupid is the best word. So... Let us learn to deal with them in a "first come, first serve" basis... Heh...

... Sigh.

And yes, I realize that

by writting this here, I am putting off doing something that I should be doing... O.o

Darn procrastination... Anyway... Thanks Memo... Read this stuff people. If you are into reading blogs and stuff, my guess is that you have, at least, a bit of empathy for all this... Heh.

Stuff to read 1... Stuff to read 2... And stuff to read... 3!.

Cheers.

note... I enjoyed the 1st one the most.

Wednesday night was

Australian day... Which, it seems, means the day to drink and get wasted... (Quite a lot lime Mexican Independence day)... And so, in honor to all our fellow Australian students... We did our best to make them feel at home.

And it was fun!... He he he. There is something special in having a guy from New Zealand, all of a sudden start playing, in an awesome way, La Bamba on the guitar, and then having people from all over singing it!... He he he. It was a good night of singing, joking and fun...

Which left us all devastated for the rest of the week I'd say. Thursday specially (yesterday)... It just felt tiresome. And to top it off, I had my first dance class yesterday. I WAS SO TIRED... And the class?... It's so darn late... He he he. From 8:30 to 10:00 pm!!!... Anyway, it was ok I guess. But I didn't get most of it...

I don't like the way they teach it... Like... Everybody doing the exact same thing, counting way too much, worrying about precision, mathematics and which "wall" you are facing at each given step... Isn't dancing supposed to be a gut thing?. Feeling the rhythm?... Oh well...

Anyway... I am working right now at the VR lab, and waiting for the day to go by... This weekend should be hard, since I have an assignment due next week and... Well... I just can't seem to learn my lesson, and stop leaving things for the last minute. Sigh.

Whatever...

Cheers peoples, HAVE FUN!...

So...

What have I been up to?...

Pffftt... Way too much. Heh. Things are going pretty cool. Not only is the weather freaking cool, but as well the vibe in general is good. The new batch of international students are already getting in the proper pace. Which is... Partying and doing fun stuff all the time... Of course. Heh.

I have been doing all sorts of things with this peoples, and hanging out a lot with Mel, Sreyasa, Cam, Chris, Alex... Etc. Just... Plain good times. From good house parties and drinking, karaoke nights, movie nights, and going to the water park with the whole gang. (That was fun, *grin*). Hanging around with that bunch is always fun and refreshing... As well, I have hanged out with Daniel and those guys, good meal with Concha... Etc.

Just... I don't know.

I think I have not been in a writing mood I guess. That is why this is soooo not updated. Things at school are awesome, and I am already, formally, part of a research team and project. You can find my name in here, under current group members. Heh... It says I am working on: "Multi-Modal Interaction with an Immersive Avatar". Which is a pretty awesome way of saying that I am working with virtual characters and Virtual Reality. YAY!!...

My final project for Virtual Reality is way cool, I will tell u guys more about that some other time. And my Machine Learning class, as difficult as it is, is quite fun. I really like the teacher. The Games course is going great with all we learnt from last term... And well... Everything feels like it is, where it has to be.

If I only had more money maybe... He he he. But those are the tradeoffs of been a student again. I cannot just indulge my self in anything. Gotta keep in my nutrition and rent. He he he.

Anyway... That was my little forced update... Just to keep me writing here... But... Yeah... Maybe some other time I will be in a better mind state to write things down...

Cheers peoples, and a bunch of good vibes.

ps. I am studying, and learning a lot from the Tarot!... There is a good deal to talk about there too.

In the end, it wasn't even

that cold...

One of the things I feared the most, about coming back to Canada, was the weather. I had already gotten used to Guadalajara's, and facing -30 really freaked me out. Then again, there was nothing to fear. I think the coldest we have been is -9... Really, that is nothing. I don't even need my super coat. Just the regular one, gloves and a scarf... That is the main difference from Guadalajara I guess, the gloves and the scarf... So far, at least.

I was having a great time in Mexico... Really great time. But a big part of me wanted to come back already. A big part of me knew that, while in Mexico, I had set a "pause" to my real life, and onlcomingng back to Canada would the year really start moving... Moving it is.

About everything that happened in my love life during this past weeks, I won't say much. It is somewhat complicated, a long story, and it would only be my take on events anyway. Let me just say this: I LEARNT A LOT... Relationships are there to, at least, teach you and help you grow... Well, the purpose keeps being served.

... Sigh. And things are going very nice with Wend right now. We are in a different stage, living and feeling things from a different perspective. Good vibes, and a warm cheers to that.

I was supposed to be back in Edmonton lasTuesdayay, but ended up being Wednesday for the good reasons. Heh. 300 USD are good reasons indeed, considering that I didn't have classes on Wednesday, it wasn't such a bad idea to let go of my ticket, and spend the night in Houston. Besides, I was given a cool room, transportation to the hotel-airport, and money for food... Heh.

Honestly, I felt very good.

Just laying on that bed, in the cool room, going around the channels in the TV... I know it may sound corny, but it felt like I was in some sort of movie... I felt very alive, very lonely, and very excited... Life.

On the Houston terminal I bumped into a Mexican girl, a neighbor. And then she bumped into a Mexican friend, we were introduced, and the three of us had good talks and times. When we were told that if we let go of our tickets, we would be given 300 USD, we three smiled and said "count me in"... Heh.

Once back, thing have been great. I am taking VR and Machine Learning. My TA in the video games class promises to be very interesting this term, a couple of strong/cool challenges. And EVERYDAY there was been something fun going on. Wednesday I meet up with the gang for chicken wings, and had an awesome talk with Chris. Thursday cool party where I meet the new batch of internationals, heh, and I saw again a couple of people from last semester... Those hugs and smiles, saying welcome back and we missed u made my day...

Friday party at Alex's, and later at Concha's... And Saturday, yet another party at Alex's... Heh. I had a great time...

Really. It feels good to be back.

... Cheers people.
... A ton of good vibes to thee all.


ps. The way my room looks right now is way cool. Really. Like I have my own desk, space, coach, bookshelf... Etc... But really really?... I miss my bro. Canada won't be the same without him. I mean it. I would let go of the cool room to still have the bastard around.

Today is my

last day in Mexico... After some good times, and some extra pounds (heh), it will be time to go back to good ol' (cold) Canada... Sigh.

I... Really don't know how things are going to be, but I am excited about this next term.

There are a couple of things to fix. I know that... I need to make things ok with my roomie, so that at least we can live there in some sort of harmony. We will see how things go in general...

... Whatever.

Enjoying my last minutes here.

I am enjoying my

little bubble of alternative reality... Meeting with all my old frieds, being at the CITE and my old university as in the "good ol' days"...

The more the day to come back to Canada approaches, I get a little more anxious... It's like, THIS used to be my real life, but now it's my "fake reality", me just visiting... Canada, for all logical purposes, is now real life... But it still just doesn't feel like that.

... Sigh.

Good vibes people,
Life is approaching, so I am enjoying my time before it catches up.

He he he...

... Oh well...

O.o

And my brother is

quite to wise on this comment on this post.

... Not only about me, and what I've been through in terms of relationships and emotions. But about stuff around me too, great times, talks with friends and parties... This freaking last month and a half has had the intensity of a life time... And all the subtleties could fill a fat book...

... Oh well.

Idle times for this blog...

Actually, quite idle since quite around this time to be honest... And then, just because kind of a downfall emotional stage in my life started to get intense... And, ironically enough, I didn't feel ok writing about it here...

... I am almost resentful with my blog right now. Yes, this blog. Not really because of anything in particular... But because it's been bringing me problems... Not really the fact that people do realize this and than, and some stuff that... Well... Should have been realized in a better fashion. But... Just... Things I've written, I have said... Whatever... DON'T JUDGE ME by my stupid blog!!!... And... If anything, ask me stuff and we can talk them through...

And that goes to the lot of you...

... Sigh...

See?... Blogs are filled with non-sense emotional stuff often times. This is, at least to me, a space to vent... To rant. And well... Stuff will come out when I am angry that may make me sound too harsh, or when I am in love that will make me sound too corny, or that may make me sound even too deep when I get philosophical...

But the fact is... They are all a bunch of facets of me... Phases, masks... Ideas that I go through... And, if anything, the real Hector is close to be the average of all the Hectors you may identify on this rants... But that averaged Hector will only represent the bit of me that I dare make this public...

... That goes specially, I guess, to girls that I date, and have dated... It really may be better of you to not read this at all... To not judge my feelings for you for what I write in here... Often times, when things are at it's best, I don't have time to write about them... And a lot of how I have felt, through years, for one girl or another, is written here... Don't get jealous of that, or expect me to write this or that about you... Etc... Just...

... ARGH...

O.o

... Anyway... Why have I not written anything quite worth it in so long?... For one, because I have honestly been busy... And another is that, I had been an emotional wreck, quite upset at the way things were working (or not) at that time with my girl... And... As much as I needed to vent, I didn't feel ok doing so here. Why?... For several reasons... The first being me safe keeping that relationship, and the other is too silly.

Safe keeping?... Yes... I didn't want you people, as great as you are usually backing me up, to start hating her... Or... Start focusing on the idea of me dumping her and me being better off without her... See?... That is what friends do, and it's your job and is appreciated... But... I didn't want that... She is a great girl, no matter how I was feeling about the relationship (not her) at the time. Besides, it really do is quite an open space, and as non-famous as this blog is, just the close people around are enough to make a nice fuzz.

... I am tempted to make this blog less personal from now on... Just... More general rants and ideas... Yet again, I don't know. And what is written is written, and I won't go back and edit anything...

... Sigh...

... Now... Off to chill...

Lots of love, hugs and honest good vibes for this upcoming year... Really, I mean it. I am sorry I have been so distant. (And that, I am pretty much saying to my self too).

And another bites the dust...

I am getting ready to almost write a novel, about the past couple of months of my life... A couple of things have to be lived, and then... It will all be written down. Too damn elightening for me to not acknowledge on this space.

... Still, what matters now, is that 2005 is gone, and here comes 2006...

2006... I hope you rock. Have my hopes on you.