Today I went to work over by my university, because of the network... it was terribly slow over there too, but I bet it was still better than my house... I am getting to think though, that the problem is with my computer's modem, because right now I am working on the computer downstairs (checking my email and all), and internet is just great... and just a few minutes ago I tried logging in from my computer about 6 times and it just didn't work... damn it...
So anyway, I really enjoyed working at the tec... there is something about the "cite" that I will allways like, and that will be hard to define... and it was nice to be surrounded by people again. I realized today, as I was driving, that I had been locked in my house since monday... not getting out at all!!!!... I wasn't tired of home yet, and to be honest I hadn't stop to think about it... but it was kind of odd...
At the cite I had good talks with them all... but specially it was nice to talk to Martin Merida again... I haven't really talked with him for a while, and it's great to see that he is publishing a lot of his work, and he is excited about a novel that might get published soon!!... that is cool... it's nice to have people like him to talk to, and ask for advice sometime...
At about 3pm we came back to the house, after watching some kick ass video from RUSH... wow... their batterist is so awesome... I couldn't believe it... I really couldn't...
On the way back we stopped by a "tire fixing thing" because we have a tire that always get's kind of flat, and they fixed it... the interesting part was to see that most of the work was done by a little kid that was about half my size... talk about feeling useless!!... this little guy had a great way to use the tools, to use his entire weight and some metal things as a lever, it was amazing to see him work... and so little!!... It made me think of some medieval time, with a blacksmitty and his kid, about a store in which they would "fix" the "horse's shoes" with the big dad doing some stuff, and the kid helping around as much as he could... the good old days of crafts and professions... I know it sounds weird... but I was very amazed by the way they did things...
Now I was shocked when the guys asked me if I wanted to flip the tire.... he meant to put it like the other way around, so that another part gets worn off, but I imagined the way flipping the tire inside out!!!.... I was almost about to say no when Victor, my brother, said "yes" and told me "you are so stupid!"... he knew what I was thinking... I had the perfect idea on my mind of the guy flipping the tire inside out!!!... ha ha ha... anyway... thank to my brother I didn't look that stupid to the shop owner.
When we arrived home I couldn't help to think of yesterday and something that I did... and how I felt when I did it. I saw this wonderful golf court that is across the street, and thought about the 1st time ever walked on it... which was yesterday.
See... there are just a few golf courts around the city, and the one right in front of my house is one of the nicest... of course we have no subscription to the club, so I had never gone in there, just watched in from the "terraza"... The fun part is that right in front our house there is a little fence that has a way to jump over it and be on the field. I never did it though... it was wrong!!!!....
WHY?!?!.. Why didn't I ever do it?!... I always see people walking in and out of the field by that fence, with the golf sticks and all... they are members most likelly, yet that entrance is more convient to them since their house ir over by here, and not by the actual door...
Yesterday with Hector I jumped the fence for the 1st time, and I couldn't stop feeling guilty, and that some cop would show up from somewhere to kick us out... of course that didn't happen... but why?!... why do I have such a sense of guilt?... of responsibility?... why do I want to always do the right thing?!?!!... I walked by it, was amazed by it's beauty, and had a great time by some lakes that are filled with pretty ducks and gesse... it really was a nice view... all green all year long, well taken care of and all... and it had always been there...
I had lived here for about two years... have had that great place right in front of me... the "entrance" right it front of me... and I had never done it... why?!?!... because it was wrong'!??!?!?... oh man... I am messed up...
Of course when it got dark, and we came back, a bunch of guys, older and younger than us, started getting out of the field by that same fence... guys I know that are neighbors... members?... probably... but so what, once you are it you are not wearing a wrist band or anything... you can do whatever... as long at people are not playing golf is rather safe and fun to walk around by it and all...
why?... why hadn't I ever done it?... what did my parents do to me that I am so afraid of doing something bad?!...
A case for the shrink huh?...
**cheers
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