Yesterday at lunch, there was

a pretty weird talk that went on with Andrea. She is the kind of person that drives conversation through a bunch of questions about anything you can name. Valid method. The thing is that it became quite odd when she started asking a lot of questions regarding previous relationships... I mean... I don't really mind talking about it. But if anything, those were questions that, I felt, should have been asked by Wend. So... Due to the questionnaire, I felt kind of forced to answer all this things that I don't really think Wend wanted to hear.

Even Wend was asked something regarding the pattern about the guys she had liked, I know she had a hard time coming up with something to tell Andrea... And I know what she said was a bit odd even to me. In terms of... I don't know. Felt weird for a while. And I wonder if that is how she kept feeling when I was having to answer those things too. Darn it.

(I guess that is why they say, you shouldn't really play I have never with your couple in the same group of friends... He he he). Although we know we are not, in a way we want to keep thinking we are the only person in someone's life.

Honestly, I kept on fearing she would get to a point (Andrea and the questions), in which I was going to have to say you know, that is something I rather just talk about with Wend... And I know she wasn't mean spirited while asking those questions... We are all curious.

It is just that I have come to learn, maybe the hard way, that there are things sometimes I rather not know. Matters in which ignorance is a bliss to me. "Lo que no fué de tu año, no fué de tu daño" (Kind of like What didn't happen in your year, shouldn't make you shed a tear... sort of). I mean, there are some general curiosities some times regarding your couple. And a bunch of questions are super valid, they make you know the person better, etc. Even about whatever went on in previous relationships... They are all very valid questions I guess.

Yet, regarding previous relationships... The thing is that I, specifically, have a bit of a chasing Amy issue. I have a too visual mind, and unless I am given only very general info, those images become quite real, and they do get to me... And they shouldn't. But since I know they do, I avoid them.

(That is my issue though, I know a bunch of people always love knowing a lot about their couple's past, all the little details... And some are even turned on by knowing the kinky stuff and all!!... Well... Not me... My insecurities showing maybe?. Screw it, I am human).

I love discovering facts from Wend's life. I love it when she tells me about her old school, things she used to do, her mom, her little friends, etc. But they are magic discoveries now and then, when she opens those windows by herself, and all of a sudden I realize there is a whole vault there from which I could learn so much. It is just that, in general, I don't go for the asking way. Yet I know I wish I knew much more... Maybe I should start asking her to share more?.

And well, about my Chasing Amy issue... I know I don't know much about Wend's past with other guys either. Whether there is a lot to say or not, etc. But although curious sometimes, I know I really don't care. What I try to focus on, and it works great, is on the fact that she is with me at the moment. And as of now, that feels quite good.

He he he. You see?. Where this posts lead sometimes. It is funny, indeed, how my mind works. Anyway, that was an odd time while being asked those questions. And for what Wend told me, she felt it awkward too... Sigh... We are all such complicated beings...

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ps. Yesterday I had a super cool talk with Felix, he came to visit for a couple of hours, and we talked about a bunch of stuff. Bringing back memories, and projecting dreams of the future. I can't believe the guys is married, happy, and already thinking about getting pregnant with his girl... Yet... Honestly, I can believe him just by hearing him talk about her... The guy is so much in love... I am happy for him.