Most of the stuff that I've been getting on my email latelly is spam or something close to that... my university keeps sending me this "job openings according to your profile" thing, it used to be amusing... I always get stuff like accountant assistant, blah blah admin, production whatever, etc... now I just delete them right away... obviously they don't know my profile, if they knew, they would keep sending stuff related to make video games or a comic... why is it so hard?.
Still... my life since the begginig of the year has been quite messed up in terms of work and schedule, now I am officially working doing some stuff at the cite, which is quite cool actually, the work load is decent, it's a "people" enviroment (which is a huge change from the freelancing hermit), and gives me the time to work on my comics stuff... I still have that masters idea lingering in my mind, it would take me to Canada and teach me some new stuff... though I wonder, would that be just escaping?, or is that something I would do because I am afraid of not working things out in terms of comics?... for example.
Then again I think of those labs and Banff, and I know I would really enjoy that... two whole years devoted to some project of mine...
I want to write, I must write a comic story I have on my mind and work it out of my system... then I want to be social too... and get good at drawing, I need to do that for sure, even if I want to be an inker I have to be a kick ass penciler.... which I am not just yet. Of course work, and learn video games programming, and scripting to design a game and this have a demo... all this I want to do everyday... and to be honest, the time is not enough.
My multiple likes sometimes just confuse me way too much, sometimes I wish I could just be single minded and live my life doing whatever happily... or at least I wish I could keep things as a hobbie and focus on one thing at a time... then again, that seems like such a waste of time.
This body of mine though is starting to suffer my lifestyle, non sleeping and eating well is just not good... and not only but, but having an ever changing schedule is even worse. Now I am starting to be up early everyday and have a normal day at the tec, and then arrive home, rest a couple of hours, and start with comics... slowly, but efficiently, my body is adjusting to this routine, and I am possitive than in a couple of weeks it will actually like it.
I want to make my web comic, put up my site... for how long will I keep not doing the stuff that I'd really like to do for my self?...
Argh... I am just in a weird mood.
**cheers... i guess
1 comment:
Wow... I think the problem is that you want to do lots of things... and for most of any human being, to be good at one of those things they invest a life time to them.
If you want to have your own web-comic, and you want it to be good you'll have to quit inking... if you wanna be a good writer you'll have to focus on that (I mean, have good ideas is not the only thing requiered to be a food writer) If you want to go to Banff, well you'll have to focus in only one project... and if you wanna have a LONG healthy life YOU HAVE TO SLEEP well!
C'ya and hang in there.. you just have to found which thing, in that large list of your is the think that really makes you happy.
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