If you can't live with someone's past

If you can live with someone's past, then, my friend, that means you cannot live with your own. And if you are able to mess up something great, just because of something that "happened" in a time in which you were not even around, then my friend... you are the one with issues. And to be honest, I am talking about my self, about a mistake that I know I once made, how it messed my self and someone else up, and how childlish it all was...

Of course I see it that way now... and part of the whole idea is to not dwell on it, just to learn... which is something that I've done. But I just kind of "relived" it a little because of this movie I saw, and part of being authentic is being true to my feelings... and that my friends is how I feel... stupid and kind of angry with my self... good news is: it'll pass... as for now: fuck it!.

I don't wanna comment a lot on the movie, because it's worth watching and anything I could say would be a spoiler... of course the movie isn't new at all... but still. Some people are watching it for the first time even nowadays, take for example: me.

I wanted to see the movie because it's setup in the "comic book biz world"... which I thought was way cool... and the opening scene deals with an "inker" and the issues that come along the status, which was way appealing since I am starting to consider my self an inker now, and pretty much loving it. About that, the movie did fullfilled my expectations, I good to see a studio, the way those guys live, a little of that "world"... whatever... I loved it, and it reinforced the idea of me being a part of that, and me living in a cool studio working with my partners creating great stories.

The other thing though, the subject matter of the movie, is what moved me... and please do not get me wrong, I've never dated someone who was as "experienced" as Alyssa in this movie... but still I've gotten to feel something somewhat close to how Holden felt about her past, and how it kept haunting his mind and affecting everything else. It's messed up I'm telling you... But the dialogue of "silent bob" at the restaurant... man... the guys says little, yet every word is worth it...

We all [guys] want to feel the "one and only" in our girls life... and the thought of her past is something that haunts us... it happens, don't deny it. Still it's something we really don't want to know, but for some reason we have to... and when it comes... oh man, you better be prepared to deal with it.

Now I feel at ease with all that... and despite the fact that the movie "moved" me, I feel that I am "past that" and able to not even care... because in every aspect of my life I am living by the "here and now", and letting the past where it belongs. This 4 agreements book and all, it's all about living life that way...

And so be it... great movie though, it moved me, and I think it would move most guys who've been close to that situation in one way or the other. (I mean, let's not go as far as sex, even kissing a "girl who's kissed a lot" makes you feel insecure and compared at first). The Director of the film gets my respects, for touching such a personal topic in his life, and knowing how much he could impact the lives of tons of guys by letting them see such a mirror.

If you haven't seen it... go see it now please! (like renting, buying or whatever you must do).