This was my plan for tonight: get home, sleep.

So... why am I here sitting again in front of the computer?!... I feel a terrible compulsion to write!!... I feel so good, so happy, so excited, that I have to let it out!!... man, this "doors of opportunity" thing have struck me so much latelly, just yesterday I had a grrrreat talk with a guy that really wants me to be part of a huge project, taking care of the entire "interface and multimedia" stuff, and we are talking big... I feel so pumped about everything!!... I had a great class today with "el rudo", this is a class that I always enjoy and well, I got to talk for quite a while with him afterwards, on a "one to one" basis, and man he has a lot to share... Eventhough I am confused about which path to take, which path to walk, I feel so excited about life... I don't know why really, is it spring?... whatever, but I'm glad I'm feeling this way... still don't know what's gonna happen, when I commit to one "path" I will have to say NO to several other good opportunities, at least for a while, and that's a huge responsability in my life.. but you know what?... the best will happen, I'm somehow sure...

Today I had a lot of group meetings and school stuff to do, but eventhough it's still a lot, I feel confident it's all gonna work out. I had a great talk with Julian, with annette and with Maruccia as well... they all happened at different times of course. I really liked talking to Maruccia and than talk got me thinking a lot... it reminded me of Michael Ende (one of my favorite authors) and "momo", my favorite book. The talk was great of course, and we even talked about spending the weekend together with some friends and all, the idea sounds great!... and man, somehow the "momo" thing soooo fits in my life and the way I am experiencing it... it's all about being happy, about living your dreams and not letting the "expected" and the "usual" life kill you as a dreamer, it's about making thing happen!!... about avoiding the "rational" way until you become a "gray fellow", about taking risks and following your heart... being passionate... living...

I just read a little from momo again, a quote that I love, and I shall put it here again:

Existe una cosa muy mistoriosa, pero muy cotidiana. Todo el mundo participa de ella, todo el munda la conoce, pero muy pocos se paran a pensar en ella. Casi todos se limitan a tomarla como viene, sin hacer preguntas. Esta cosa es el tiempo.

Hay calendarios y relojes para medirlo, pero eso significa poco, porque todos sabemos que, a veces, una hora puede parecernos una eternidad, y otra, en cambio, pasa en un instante; depende de lo que hagamos durante esa hora.

Porque el tiempo es vida. Y la vida reside en el corazón.

isn't that so true?... so great?!... I mean, just think about it!... a meter is a meter, 100 centimeters put together, you measure a meter and it's a meter... period... same thing happens with a liter, and all this different standard measures... A meter will always be a meter for you, you always "experience" it the same way, see it the same way... but how about time?!... eventhough my clock may mark "an hour", I will always experience it and perceive it in different ways... it's 60 minutes after all, but they "feel" different, they clearly are not the same, they can feel like an "eternal instant" (like when you give your first kiss), or a "terribly long hour" (like in a boring class)... because time, eventhough it's "standard", is not experienced the same way always... it's not all rational, it deals with feelings, with matters of the heart... isn't that interesting?!... despite the fact that in the "material rational" world, and hour is an hour, in the "sensitive subjective" world it can be so different.

I'll try and live a life full of good hours and minutes... filled with great memories and little regrets... I don't know how I will feel about things later on, but for now I am pumped and happy... and I try to keep this up... (as worried as I am about this way that Mr. Bush is going for agains Iraq, and all the "evil" in the world, there is still a place for the dreaming and the dreamers, the hopes, and those I am sure will trully die last... despite all their massive weapons).

There is a huge lack of love in this world... let's see what we can do about it.