Yesterday sucked... in more than one way actually. I'm feeling so freaking sick that just the idea of doing something other than sleeping makes me feel even worse... yet I cannot really sleep since my troat hurts so much when I swallow... :'o(

Oh well... yesterday I went to the WIU stand at the "study-abroad" fair, it was actually nice since I bumped into Todd and he is an awesome guy, he and his wife were always very nice to me while I was in Western. We talked a lot, and some good memories came back to me... I honestly did have a great time over there. The "bad" side of visiting Todd was that Abby did aswell... I'm starting to see a pattern here, if I bump into her or something like that I just start feeling depressed.

Since then I haven't been feeling that great... she looked rather good actually, but it was so odd being around her. It's really like she doesn't care about aaaall that we once shared. I think I'm kind of getting over her, and I am honestly not hurting anymore, yet the whole thing has me a little down... it's weird. Feelings are a difficult thing to explain, I guess being depressed feels like this maybe. There is no honest reason to be "down", yet nothing seems to put you up. Maybe I should start dating again, get this girl once and for all out of my mind like that.

On another note I guess I'm sooo not attending WIU for a masters, I guess I could wait a couple of years and then go for it. It's both for personal and professional reasons... I don't want to feel down because of the "abby thing", and I don't want to just study a masters there because "it's an easy chance"... I was talking to Daniel and it's very clear to me now that the world has so much more to offer in terms of accademics than WIU.

As well I went to the doctor... it seems that I got sick because of stress, over working and not taking care of my health... go figure.

The presentation about the advances in the CD kind of sucked... two out of 3 loved everything, but that 1 other person really made us feel down.