Days of hassle...

Since I came back to Canada, I have felt... Mmmh... A tad stressed. It has been awesome to meet again with great people and friends, hugs, smiles, cheering and singing. As much as I have only been in Canada for a little over a year, coming back felt almost like coming home.

Don't get me started on that though... The concept of 'home' is ever more confusing in my head, all the traveling, and the experiences in all this places with all this people, make a physical home hard to point... Maybe at the end home is, indeed, a state of mind that we carry around with us. A sense of belonging that we allow our selves to feel after a time of recognition, and once we know our way around places... Once we know it's people and we learn to call some of them 'friends'.

The first Karaoke night, last week, I saw all these guys again and ** sigh **. It felt nice... All the hugs, questions and good vibes... Yes yes, I was the center of attention. Heh... But they made me feel welcomed and much less alone.

... Either way, I am floating in a sea of uncertainty... And I DON'T LIKE IT. A chunk of my future is being shaped up during this days, and there are many paths... All of them good and interesting, yet none of the solid just yet. Job opportunities, interesting new directions with my masters, maybe changing departments and supervisors, working more in arts... Getting a job instead?. But my masters!, I have worked so much for it already... Going back to México?, staying in Canada or... USA?!?!... Come on!, after Chigado I said 'i would never live at USA'... I miss France and it's little streets and coffee houses... I miss her.

I have gotten lost in sodoku, heh... And reading Anansi Boys, anything to keep me from thinking, or focusing, on all the confusion happening in my head... My life has, indeed, not been boring in a long time!. Always fun stuff to share and talk about... But really, for once... I crave for certainty and to feel things will be the way they are at least for a few months...

... sigh...

By the way, tomorrow I am going to San Francisco for a job interview!... I am NERVOUS... Scared, excited... Thanks Sergio, no matter what happens, thanks!

See?... A LOT... a lot going on... And life seems to, well, it will be like this for a tad... Until I finish my masters I guess, and decide on the step to follow... The country, the job... ** sigh **. I guess I better get used to uncertainty... I have the feeling that, later on in life, I may miss it.

cheers!

ps. I will keep posting about France!... Promise. I just needed to vent and let all this out...