I have issues with

doing with not doing... Action through inaction...

Letting go...

It makes me feel powerless to know that there is not much I can do some times to make stuff better. I keep forgetting that often times I don't need to. I can just be, stay, listen... I forget about other tools, reiki, good vibes, etc... I want to do... And since I cannot I get into this endless loop of despair... He he he.

But then it breaks... And I kind of feel go... I let go a bit.

... I need to trust in people. In the way they will deal with stuff. I need to understand it is not up to me to make their life better. If anything, my job is to stick around... I cannot do that kind of magic, make someone feel better. That is pretty much a personal choice.

... To learn, to learn from whatever life is placing in front of you right now. Instead of feeling sad about it, trying to learn what is in there for you. What are you supposed to get from it...

... Me?... I am kind of having to learn to trust, to let go... To deal with the fact that not everything is my responsibility I guess... That, not everything I can do. And that, it shouldn't suck.... That I should be ok with it...

Right?...

Heh... Cheers.