Feb 14th

Is usually a day for me to be depressed. I see balloons and hearts and happy couples all over the place. And I get pissed at the fact that, indeed, I am alone and no one is around to send me a balloon or a nice chocolate.

Not this time though... This time I have someone to share it with. And I have not written for long enough on this thing. A lot of stuff deserves to be placed here, like my meeting with Carlos, what happened with the kok guys, or the drinking games that we played Friday night. Still. I am going to write only about things that happened way too long ago, and things that just happened last week.

About a year ago, I used to work as a freelancer. Which means that I got a scarce amount of work now and then, and I got to do it at home. I had gotten my self a pretty dandy computer, my drawing tablet. I needed no more. One of my clients was Rosario from the CITE. She used to give me all this things to do, and that's why I'd come once or twice a week to the university.

One day I saw a girl... Well. I see girls every day. But this one day I saw a girl that really drew my attention for some reason. And as usual, I was not able to mutter a word to her. Too shy damn it!. She was so interesting to me though, that I decided to instead of working at my super great computer at home, I'd go and work at the computers in the university. Slow old computers. But the thought, the idea, of just looking at her was enough. And I knew I wasn't going to be brave enough to talk to this woman. It has happened before.

She was just... Nice. And I liked the idea of thinking of her.

I had talked about this with some friends. Heh. They were not that surprised. I get into this idealizing my dulcineas syndrome... Oh well.

One day, as I was walking down the hall, she said to me, with the broadest of smiles, cutest of voices, - Hola! - As if she had known me since forever!. I got all red, somehow said hola back (or tried to), and walked fast to the bathroom like a 12 years old kid... Stupid me!!!... ARGH!!!...

We never really got to have a better exchange of words... I was never able to.

Anyway... Around that summer I was working on a project helping kids, and kike my bro, told her about it. They were both friends. (Freaking comunicologos surrounded by pretty ladies). She is all into social work and all, so she contacted me and, all of a sudden I had her in my contacts list, and she had me as well, on msn.:-D

That summer, at around the time I was leaving for Canada, so was she. So we talked a lot about it, and as we were both there... When I came back. She kept sending me pictures of the stuff she was doing, people visiting, etc. We became good close friends I'd say. And I couldn't believe I was sharing at that level with a girl I so wanted to talk to, but was too shy to do it... Heh... But I loved it!. I'd go like crazy chatting with her, and we kept exchanging good emails now and then.

Time passed.

Eventually, she came back to Mexico... She lives in another state, well, her family does. So she was back here until the 2nd week of January or so. Just on time to begin classes. And that 1st day of school for her, we did meet in person... And it was odd!!!... O.o He he he. Yet super nice.

At the time it was nothing but a nice friendship... I knew I was feeling something for her, but didn't make much of it. Besides. I was going through other things in my life. We saw each other almost every day though. We would go for coffee. Talk about this and that. Etc.

The one day in which I was totally upset and sad and all because of what was going on with Mishka, I... Well. She was the first person I talked to about it. And it was just nice to be able to share with her like that, get female input on the matter. What not. I was just cool.

We kept talking and sharing... Had mini dates around the campus. One day I went out with her and kike to a party, filled with people they knew, and it was a lot of fun. It seems though that, for everyone but me, it was obvious that she and I were sparkling and made such a cute couple... Heh. Funny!. I have to admit though, sitting next to her, having she rest her head in my shoulder and all, felt awesome.

Last week, on Tuesday, she invited me to the theater to see a very funny play. I picked her up and drove up there. She looked pretty darn good by the way. (glasses and all!). The play was funny as heck and we both loved it. Afterwards, we wanted to do something so we went to this coffee place that is open 24/7. We arrived there a little before 12... And spent there... Say... Up until 6 am... He he he. Yes... Over 6 hours talking and sharing and smiling, and debating and all!. It was really good.

The last hour, or half hour, we were just kind of cuddling though... Talking now and then. Playing with our hands. All of a sudden I realized that... Well. I don't do this with my friends!... And this is going rather well... She made me feel all tender, and I wanted to just protect her. That sort of feeling...

I kissed her forehead... She smiled.

I was afraid... Or nervous. She had never had a boyfriend before. She is all cute and all and... Like... I just wanted to take it easy!. But it felt so natural and nice to kiss her like that... Like a little girl or something. Eventually though my lips found their way to her mouth and... They were welcomed... My heart started beating way too fast... She was smiling and her eyes were watery and it was the cutest image ever...

Eventually it was time to get home... After all it was 6 and I was supposed to be at work at 8... We walked out of there holding hands... I gave her a good night kiss outside her apartment. And then she asked me -Hey, my friends will ask me how it went... I am super happy, but you tell me... What should I say to them?- To which I replied... -Well girl, I don't know about you, but I am quite happy with the idea of saying that I have a cute girlfriend now, how about you?- She smiled a lot... And all of a sudden said -mi novio!!- and hugged me real tight...

:-)

I drove home with a broad smile in my face...

I have some fears to overcome... Some things to make happen...

Whatever...

What matters is that, as of right now, it feels wonderful to have someone to hug now and then... A lot of times with her no words are needed... Just... Being...

I am happy... With a nice soothing feeling in my heart...

:-D

Feliz dia del amor y la amistad!

ps. I just got a package from her... Cookies and cookies and a nice little card!!!...

[update] wend is really cool... -sigh- ^_^ ... I hope I can post a picture here soon so that you people will see!. Sergio took a couple good ones last Saturday!.