And when something is on my mind, if keeps rolling in there, until it has some sort of resolution...
... I look forward for the day in which, I will look back at my self... At my self "now", and smile so much saying "if I had only known"...
I have mainly two issues... In the deepest roots they come down to this: feeling of insufficiency, and issues with abundance... Both are kind of psychological crap. And little by little I shall deal with them... With No. 1 I always feel like I am "not enough" or worthy of this or that... Which translate into some unassertive attitudes from my self... No. 2 relates in how I always lack money, yet somehow I always manage to have enough to do all the craziness I want to do, I always seem to be having "barely enough"... For that, too, I want to get more financially wise...
Just like when I get into anything that interests me... The thing is that "money" is a topic that mostly eludes me. Yet, if I want to have enough of it to not worry about it, I might as well learn about it's dynamics... No?... It makes sense to me...
Less than 3 weeks and I will be in France... Less than 3 weeks and I will be falling asleep next to her... Remember how I was just, a little ago, talking about the time when she left?... How empty my bed felt?... It wasn't that little ago I guess... And now... She will be there waiting for me at the airport, and I will give her the best hug in the world...
... So nervous and excited... My French sucks...
... See?... So much on my mind!!!... Work, money, love, school, masters... Plans after the masters... Where do I want to work?... Look for a job somewhere else?... Go back to Mexico and help create an industry, or go to a Country where that industry is already established?...
... La la laaaa...
Ok... Sorry for this... It was mostly a bunch of little thoughts thrown together... For the sake of letting them out of my mind... And me, being able to know what was going on when I read this in some years... ^___^
... Ah... Yes... Today I saw the "transitions" tent... One year ago my brother and I where on it, starting out whole Canada adventure... Now?. Now I see those guys and I smile so much... Brings so many good memories and nostalgia, and makes me realize that I am one of the "old ones" here... Not anymore the silly Mexican who just came around... But one of the established dudes that know all this little corners, and the new internationals will ask questions too...
Life goes by cycles they say... Spirals...
Whatever...
... Tattoo?...
sigh... this last year went by way too fast... and i just know the next one will go likewise... and then?... that next step really has me wondering...
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pd. In neil gaiman's blog I saw this thing about how much is your blog worth?... Heh... I didn't think mine was worth 2 cents!... Now though, how do I cash this money?... It would be quite useful in Europe.
My blog is worth $5,645.40.
How much is your blog worth?
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... your Blog misses you... your faithful audience as well
Good vibe from this to that continent!!
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